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Happiest of birthdays to mi amor, my ColdSun! I had to say it to him at exactly midnight while we were on the phone. I hate that it's another year that I couldn't say it to him at midnight in person, but at least we'll get to celebrate tonight and get the weekend together. Gonna make a cake in the morning so it's ready to go for the drive over. I also want to work on a little something else, so I'll try and get that done today. I'm just... Man, I'm so thankful for him. I could never put it into words just how much he means to me. But yeah, I just wanted to make this little post and wish him a happy birthday. He may or may not see it, he doesn't log in all that often unless he's doing something for me and the House, but that's okay. I don't mind screaming all this out to the void.
Logan's birthday is Friday and I've been struggling on what to do for him, what to give him. I wrote him something, a simple little poem, but I don't know. It doesn't feel like enough. He is the most amazing person, compassionate, encouraging, caring. He's done so much for me in the nearly two years we've been together. And I feel like my poem falls short. I could never put into words just how much he means to me. How much I appriciate and treasure him. How much I love him. How I never feel whole unless I'm with him. I also want to make him a cake, but I'm worried about how it would fair on thee hour and half-ish drive it takes for me to get out there. I want to give him the world, but I can't. And what I can give just doesn't feel like enough.
I am sure he will love anything you write as it's personal, from you.
Make the cake at his place? Be fun.
05:01 Sep 27 2023 Times Read: 395
There's something about the movie, The Prince of Egypt, that hits me so hard. It's quite possibly the best animated film, in my opinion. I don't feel like you have to be religious to have it resonate with you. I was 11 when it came out, and I remember my dad taking my brother and I to see it in theaters. It struck a chord with me then, and it strikes that chord with me today. It's such an amazing and beautiful film. The animation, the voice acting, the songs... Everything about it is done with such love, and you can really see that.
I've felt like shit all day today, so I put it on, and while I may still physically feel like garbage, it does lift up my spirit.
Family drama. Messages from a family member I haven't spoken to in over four years now, sending me cryptic messages about another family member at 11:50 at night as I'm on a call with Logan. So, that was a fun little excersize in how to get super stressed out and thinking the worst for a half hour before someone finally informs me that things are okay and nothing serious is wrong. The communication skills of some of my family members, I swear.
Oh don't you just love family drama? Nothing can get me whipped up into a frenzy quite like it. I pray it settles back down and that the family member goes dormant again.
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02:29 Sep 18 2023 Times Read: 670
Nocturnal finally has a main page that is my own! It only took me eitght months to get done, but at least it's done. Much thanks to my love, Logan, for all his help with the coding and the writing. I'm really happy with how it all came out.
I'll probably wind up tweaking some things later on, but for now, it's done and I'm so glad with how it all looks.
It is fantastic, I love it! You have a talent for writing!
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02:27 Sep 12 2023 Times Read: 776
After tomorrow, which will be another day in this 90s, we finally see the temperature dropping. This week will finish out in the mid 80s, and next week it drops down to the 70s. I'm excited. It finally feels like summer is relinquishing its grasp and autumn is truly rolling in. I live for autumn and winter, give me overcast days, and crisp, chilly air.
I promoted Vodka to an Assistant House Master in Nocturnal Retribution, because she's more than earned it. But it's her words in one of her messages to me that just really made me smile. I hope she doesn't mind that I shared a bit of her message here.
Honestly I think you are wonderful House Mistress/Master as you really care about both it and it's members. That is more than obvious with the messages you have sent me and it just makes me even more determined and willing help out. At the same time don't push yourself too hard or stretch yourself too thin, you need to take care of you too hun!
It's really nice to hear that she feels that way about me. I know I haven't been the most active here lately, as I'm dealing with my own personal issues currently, but I'm hoping to change that soon. I am just so appricoatvie and thankful of her, and all the members of Nocturnal. I couldn't have asked to run a better House with a more amazing group of people.
Bah, nothing got done. I set out to do things, and then they just don't get done because I would rather spend my time with Logan doing things we enjoy and not focused on coding and writing shit out. Our time together right now is so limited as it is, so I don't really feel bad about things here not getting done. I'll figure it out. If it means sitting myself down in front of the laptop and forcing myself to write out something, I'll do that.and then I can send it to him to go over and refine when he's free. So long as it doesn't really cut into what little time we get together.
Don't let VR take time away from him. Its will be here.
07:25 Sep 03 2023 Times Read: 1,128
Not making promises I can't keep, but I'm going to try and square away Nocturnal's main page tomorrow with Logan's help. I've put it off for far to long.
It's finally September! That means autumn is right around the corner, follower by Halloween, Thanksgiving, winter, and the best time of the year, Christmas and New Year's! This is the time I live for. It also means that at the end of the month I have Logan's birthday, then at the beginning of October, I have my mom's, Gwen's, and Liz's birthdays within days of each other. Right after Christmas is our two year anniversary. There are just a lot of things to look forward to around this time. All that really needs to happen now is the temperature to drop. It's still in the high 90s around here. Once that happens, I'll be in my element.
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