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Some of the basics about me are as follows:

- My name is Nicole, though most call me Immy.
- I am thirty-seven years old.
- I live in Southern California.
- I am in a committed relationship (engaged), please respect that when messaging me.

 
Great, now that than nonsense is done, we can get on to the substantial part, the part where I tell you who I am, regardless if you're interested or not. Though, if you're reading this, I would hope that you're at least a bit curious. Ready? Let us begin...

Please, allow me a few paragraphs to give you some insight as to who I really am. No pretending, no playing some silly part. I shall be nothing but completely honest with you. Take the good and the bad, because it's all me.

I am a typical woman of my age group. There's nothing truly unique about me. I do not stand out in the crowd, I am easily overlooked, I blend in all too well. Most of you wouldn't give me a second glance if you saw me out on the street. But, then again, I'm not so typical. I am not, have ever been, or ever will be, one of those people who considers themselves an "open book." I am an enigma, a puzzle to be solved. I never make getting to know me easy. I do build up walls, and I have been known to wear masks. But, I don't pretend to be something I'm not. I do not play parts, I'm really just not that good of an actor.

I will state that I, like everyone else, am flawed. I've tried to be something perfect but than I realized perfection doesn't exist in the real world. However, that realization didn't come easily to me, I still bear the scars. I'm not going to claim to be a vampire, I'm no were creature, I've never seen a fairy in my life. I'm not suffering from any delusions to make me believe I'm something other than a plain human being. I am an emotional being, however. I am easily swayed by those pesky emotions. I am timid, shy, soft spoken. Conversation has never been a strong point of mine, I'm socially awkward to an extreme sometimes. I prefer to sit on the sidelines, to simply observe, as opposed to joining in on the game. I think far too much, but rarely voice my thoughts. My mind is my only true sanctuary, it's the only thing that will always truly be my own.

I hold no ties to any religion. Faith has always been an issue with me. I want to believe in something, some higher power, but I find that as the years progress, I lack that ability. I am one who needs to see something in order to truly believe in it. I need to know that it's there. Deities aren't like that. They aren't solid and you can't prove they exist. It's all a matter of belief in something bigger than yourself. Am I agnostic? Am I an atheist? I really couldn't tell you at this point. I simply am, and what that means right now is uncertain. However, though I may or may not believe, I do so love learning about different religions and belief structures. I've dabbled in a few separate practices myself, so I do find it interesting to hear what some hold true. I hold firm to the belief that no one should be prosecuted for what they have faith in. Religion, faith, it's all up to you, no one can ever tell you that you are wrong. Practice what makes you happy, and what makes you a better person, so long as it doesn't bring harm to another.

I believe this is only life we get. So, I do my best to live each day as best I can. I don't regret, I don't dwell on the past, I only look towards my future. I try to find happiness where ever I can. Life is so short, in the blink of an eye it's all over. So, I see no point in living in the darkness. I don't think on the negatives in my life, the bad, I don't allow myself to become depressed about things that don't matter in the long run. This attitude is fairly new, I will admit. It took a lot of bad for me to adopt it. But, all that bad has helped to shape me into the person I am today. I may not be completely happy-go-lucky, but I do my best to not let things get me down. With each new day comes new experiences, be they good or bad, I welcome them.

I live in lovely Southern California. Close enough to Los Angeles, yet far enough away. I've lived in the same fifty mile radius roughly all my life. I was born in Whittier and grew up in Covina. It doesn't mean I haven't seen other places though, I've traveled around a bit in my time. But I've never really lived away from this area, save for that time I lived in Oregon; but we don't talk about that. California has always been my home, it's all I've really ever known. My entire family lives here, streached from Hesperia to Montabello/Long Beach. However, California is one of the most expensive places to live, and I can't really afford to live here. Well, I can, but surviving and thriving are two totally different things. I want to thrive. So, it's been decided that my partner and I will be moving out of state in the near future. His family owns some land in Central Texas, which is where we'll be moving to. I really can't wait to get away from California and experience someplace new.

I was raised in a military fashion. My father is a former Marine, a title he is quite proud to have. It also comes from growing up in the youth program, the Young Marines. So, I place a lot of value in honor, integrity, and respect. I try to conduct myself in a manner that holds me in good standing. I am usually always courteous and polite. I do not weave falsehoods and mistruths. I am as real as I can be, upfront and honest in all I do. I try to be civil with those I don't much care for, for throwing up an attitude gets you nowhere. Of course, I do have my moments, as I am only human. But those moments do not come about all that often, or without provocation. I was raised with good manners and morals. So, I try not to bring any dishonor on my name by behaving like a child.

I am very much a hopeless romantic. Love is one of those things that I just can't live without. I love with all that I am, which often times leads me to being hurt. But, I've never given up on it. There is no emotion to compare with love. There is no better feeling than to love and be loved in return. It's magical, it's pure, it's simply beautiful. I believe in soul mates, to an extent. I do not believe there is only one person you're meant to be with, but I do believe that there are people who can touch your life in way no other person has, people who, upon meeting for the first time, you feel you've known for all your life. People who just get you. I do not believe in love at first sight. That's always seemed like such a shallow concept to me. You're basing your love on looks, nothing more with that one. I'm a firm believer in true love, however. I don't do well on my own, I've discovered. I find I am at my best when I am in a relationship. I deal with life's challenges far better when I have someone by my side than I do when I'm standing on my own. With all that being said, I am happily involved with someone utterly amazing, so I'm not interested in anything else. He has recently asked me to marry him, and I've said yes. Please respect that when sending me messages.

Art and music, I couldn't live without either. I consider myself to be an artist. I weave words, I paint pictures, I create digital work and I take photographs. I'm a creative person by nature, it's in the deepest parts of my very being. The need to create is something I can not, nor ever would attempt to, ignore. I love to read as well. I have such a strong attraction to written word, thanks to my book loving mother. And, well, music is considered art, so I figured I'd put that here as well, save some time. Music is a huge part of my life. I can't go five minutes without listening to something. If there's nothing to listen to, I'll sing. Music speaks to me like nothing else possibly could. I have no favorites when it comes to what I listen to. These days I can find something beautiful in just about anything I hear. I would love to learn how to play the piano and the violin. There is nothing more beautiful than those two instruments.

I am a very family oriented person. My family is my rock. When things are at their absolute worst, when I feel like there's no way I'll get through something, I turn to my family. They've held me up when I couldn't stand on my own two feet. It's because of them that I am the person I am today. We may not always get along, see eye-to-eye, we may have our disagreements and fights, but in the end, they're always there, always willing to look past my many (many) faults, and welcome me home. I am nothing without them.

I am of mixed heritage. My mother's family is Russian and Italian, my father's family is Spanish and Mexican. So, that makes me a mutt. I know, the Spanish and Mexican thing kind of runs together, every Mexican has Spanish in their blood. However, I am not so diluted, and I love that fact. My surname isn't your typical Mexican surname, Hernandez, Martinez, Lopez, although all of those are present in my dad's family. My surname is Spanish in origin, though some idiots confuse it with Italian sometimes. I embrace my mixed heritage, and love all cultures I come from. Granted, I know very little about my Russian and Spanish roots, my grandfather on my mother's side was never very open about his family and my grandfather on my father's side might as well be nonexistent, all that I know of him. But, I do aim to find out when I am able. Because it's all a part of me, of my history.

To date, my educational background is less than stellar. I am a high school graduate, a real high school graduate, no GED or anything like that. And I did complete two years of college, where I studied business management. However, due to stupid decisions, I did drop out. That has come to bite me in the ass now. It's taken me a long, long time to find something I wanted to do, something I actually enjoy. I've gotten myself into the medical field, albeit the very bottom rung, but even so. I'm a certified phlebotomist, or as my family and friends like to call me, a vampire. I draw blood. It's something I'm good at, and it's something I love doing. From here I can actually continue my training, become a registered nurse or work in the lab, it really all just depends on how far I want to go. Sky's the limit, as they say.

I mentioned the military a few times already. My father always instilled in my brother and I the importance of serving your county. My brother already has, he served six years in the Marine Corps reserves. I tried getting into the Army, I was going to do a job in Military Intelligence, since I had the ASVAB scores to do so... But, complications happened and things didn't go according to plan. It's probably my biggest regret in life, not being able to get in. I feel that we, as a country, should make military service a mandatory thing. Like Israel or Korea, or any of the other numerous countries where, if you're a citizen, you must serve. It's not for any political reason, I simply feel it brings a certain pride to oneself, donning a uniform and putting in time for your country. I feel it would also lend to less morons pulling the shit that many of them do in regards to how they treat veterans and those currently in service.

I admit I'm a total gamer nerd. I live for first person shooters. Final Fantasy is my particular drug when it comes to RPGs, and I love playing god with the Sims. Console or computer, it makes no difference to me so long as I can kill something. Preferably in an awesome way, say, with a chainsaw gun for example. I got out of playing video games for the longest time, but I've recently embraced that part of me again with wide open arms. I am who I am, and I'm a gamer. I have an Xbox Series X, a Nintendo Switch, and an Alienware gaming laptop. I find I tend to stick to certain games and franchises more than anything else. Destiny, for example. I've been playing since the beta, and while there are periods where I stop playing it entirely, I always find my way back. If you want my gamertag, send me a message. I guess I will just add this here, I am a huge Red vs. Blue fan. I love Caboose and Tucker and Church and Grif and Donut and Lopez and Doc and Sarge and Simmons and Washington and Tex and Carolina and Sheila, of course. Honestly, I love all the main characters. Hey chicka bump bump!

I'm also a sci-fi and fantasy nerd. I live for science fiction. Doctor Who, Star Trek, Star Wars, Firefly/Serenity, Battlestar Galactica, the whole Stargate universe. These are my loves, my obsessions. It's branched out to include Steampunk, as well. Lord of the Rings and The Hobbit, Harry Potter, and A Song of Ice and Fire. I live for these amazing worlds and universes. Honestly, I can't get enough of any of the above. I am also really into comics and graphic novels. From Watchmen to The Sandman series, to V for Vendetta and Batman. The Sandman series and Watchmen are my absolute favorites. Honestly, Neil Gaiman is my favorite author ever. Of all time. The stories and the world's he creates are just so amazing. My favorite book is American Gods. The story is just so captivating, and the character, Shadow, is just so awesome. If you have never read it, I highly recommend it. Also, Good Omens, which he wrote with Terry Pratchett.

I love body modification. I have multiple piercings and one (for now) tattoo. Your body is your own, to do with what you please. I find nothing more beautiful than to use your body as canvas. To place art on it, knowing that it will always be a part of you. Modifications are the one thing you take with you when you part from this world. All your worldly possessions stay behind, but that art on your skin, that will always be a part of you. Well, until your body decays, anyway.

I could prattle on and on about myself, for there's so much to me, I'm a flawed, layered individual. However, everyone likes a bit of mystery. And, no one wants to read a profile that goes on for days. So, I shall call it a day with what I've given you above. If you've actually sat and read all of what I had to say, I deeply appreciate that. So few people like to read more than a few paragraphs, and people around here seem to like even less. I will not say that if you wish to know more about me all you have to do is ask. I probably wouldn't answer if you did that. If you really wish to know more, take the time to get to know me. Prove to me that you're worth my effort and time. So with that, I bid you all adieu.


You can't blast, stalk or bite me. I've turned these functions off, as is my right as a Premium Member. That does not mean I wish to receive your stupid custom made bites instead. If you've rated me and stamped my profile, good for you. But, please, do not send that same stamp in a message to me. It's pointless and redundant.

Why do I rate the way I do? If I've rated you it may seem like I'm just being an absolute bitch towards you and rating you low, as I rarely ever give above a nine these days. But, that's really not the case. I rate based off written content, and what that written content says. Sure, you may have a couple of paragraphs, but said paragraphs could be song lyrics, or favorite quotes, or a number of other such nonsense. That doesn't jive well with me. I spent the better part of just about seven years getting my profile to where it is now. Yes, I know, there are no pretty pictures for you to look at. But, images won't give you insight as to who I am like words will. I want substance, I want to know you. So, if I've rated you low, you know why. You didn't give me substance, you didn't paint me a picture as to who you are as a person. That's all I desire. I don't care about your favorite movies, or bands, or colors. That's just the surface. No, I don't expect people to write me a novel like I have written on my profile, but I want something real from you. A profile is meant to give insight to a person. And a rate is a judgement. I judge harsher than most. If you don't accept it, that's on you. If you want to be petty and give me what I've given you, that's well and good. If you want to rate me lower just to prove a point, know that I will happily return that low rate. We can be adults or we can be children, just know I am not above playing the latter if it calls for it. Role playing, any kind of role playing, will get you nothing more than a five. This isn't the place to live out your delusions, to dedicate entire profiles to fictional characters with information you copied and pasted from Wikipedia or wherever else. Such nonsense will get you a low rate, and I will not budge on that. I'm accommodating, if I rate you low and you update your profile and shoot me a message letting me know, I will gladly re-rate you. But when it comes to role players, what you get from me the first time is all you'll ever get from me. Portfolios are rated either a one or a ten, there is no in between. You either have pictures or you don't, and if you don't, you get a one.



I'm honored to be the Master of Nocturnal Retribution.



Even when mountains flatten and riverbeds run dry,
And the Earth moves to become one with the sky,
Even when winter has thunder and summer has snow,
Never will my feelings do anything but grow.
- Yue Fu Poem