Game of Thrones.. As I've said, I've been working my way though the series, A Song of Ice and Fire. I'm currently halfway through book two, A Clash of Kings. As it stands, I think my favorite character has to be Arya Stark. The third trueborn child of Eddard and Catelyn Stark, the second daughter after Sansa. I don't know what it is about her that I love, perhaps her wildfire attitude, her desire to learn the art of swordplay as opposed to being a proper lady like Sansa. She's spunky and honorable, much like her father. Second would be Tyrion, the Imp. A Lannister. Oh, I know, not the lion. But, compared to all of the other Lannisters, he's the most honorable. As you get farther into the books you really understand how he differs from his siblings. Oh, to be sure he's first and foremost a Lannister, but unlike Cersie or Jamie the Kingslayer, or that horrible little monster, Joffery, he's got a sense of nobility. He does what's right, and not what is right for his House alone.
I do love all the Starks though, Well, maybe not so much Robb, but meh. I love Bran and Jon, who's only half a Stark, but Eddard's son nonetheless. And I am becoming a little more found of Daenerys now that she has her dragons. She proving herself to be a bit of a leader, as a true queen should be even though she's still so young. I'm not much a fan of Renly or Stannis, Robert's two brothers who have taken to claim the Iron Throne for themselves. And I am also not a fan of Theon Greyjoy. That kid is an arrogant little ass.
So, who are you going to be rooting for come the new season? Are you for the Lannisters, the golden lions, or the direwolves, the Starks. Are you for the true queen, Daenerys Targaryen and her dragons? Or perhaps you side with the warring brothers, the Baratheons. No one can possibly be for the little shit Joffery, right?
Horrible nightmare involving a beautiful white horse and a girl in green robes. My fingers hurt, as if the animal actually tried to chew my hands off. My heart is pounding and I keep expecting to see the horse appear in my room, as impossible as that would be..
Uh.. Mind.. Can I have the girl in the shadows back, please? At least when she tried to kill me nothing hurt when I woke up.
I want to visit David's grave. I need to be near him right now. I wish he was still here, so that I could talk to him, confide in him. I wish he was still here to make me smile and laugh and forget my worries and pains. Either David or my great grandmother. I can't do this alone, I need them to help me up. The darkness is so overpowering. It's crushing.
My dad and I went and visited my great-gramdmother's grave today. Her, my great-grandfather, and my great uncle. Both men had died before I was born, so sadly I never had the chance to get to know them. We left flowers and just spent some time there. I miss her so much. It'll be two years in September, two years since she left us, and I still haven't gotten used to it. When we go over to her old house, my grandmother's house now, I always expect to see her coming out of her bedroom or sitting in the kitchen, talking with my grandmother in Spanish. I always expect to hear her voice calling me m'ija and speaking to me in her broken English. I said my goodbyes before she passed on, I was there when it happened, but it still doesn't seem real to me. I'd give anything to just talk to her again. To be able to hug her and tell her I love her.
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*hug*
*Hugs* If you ever need to talk, you know I'm always here for you.
You, madam, assume far too much about me. Far too much.
I'm craving some interaction with another person, some companionship.. But, I don't know how to get what I want. That silence.. I can never break past it in the end. Maybe solitude is the best solution for me.
It's always the same, nothing ever changes. Conversational skills continue to elude me.
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You worry yourself too much.
...And I happen to think you're a wonderful conversationalist. ^^
I know that situation...It happens to me a lot...
Solitude will drag you down in the end...Humans are creatures that need to be around other humans....
Relaxation and whisper videos on youtube are, quite honestly, a godsend on nights such as these when sleep refuses to come..They help me to unwind and relax and just drift. So much better than the alternative, which would be to lurk around here until the sun came up. I have done enough of that.
I read your journal tonight. I know I shouldn't have, but I did. And now I hate myself for the way I acted after things had gone sour between us. I wish I could tell you how sorry I am, that all of my behavior was childish, immature and uncalled for. But, I can't. I haven't talked to you in about a year, and if I did text or call out of the blue, what would I possibly say? I wish you could read this, or I could talk to you on Facebook, but you've cut me from your life pretty completely.. But, I am sorry. So very sorry.
Sometimes I find it so hard to believe a word you say. I really, really do.
It's so hard to let someone you've loved for so long go. Part of me wants to be selfish and hold onto him forever, never giving him up. But, he's not mine to posses. He's not mine to covet. But part of me won't realize this. I want to say he'll always be mine, be my Cheshire, and I his Alice. But, I know that's not the way it works. And yet, I really can't stop loving him on some levels. He's been in my life for so long, my one constant companion through the good and bad times.
Is it so wrong of me to want to keep him for my own, even when things aren't the way they used to be? Is it really so wrong of me to hate any and every woman who dares talk to him in an intimate way? Ours has always been a difficult and confusing relationship. Always morphing between friendship and significant other. Maybe the distancing on his part was for the best..
I'm curious, AlesanaFanGirL, do you block everyone who doesn't rate you a perfect 10? Because, darlin' you're going to have a lot of blocks as your profile sucks.
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Miserysrose
04:25 Mar 31 2012
I love Game of Thrones. In my opinion I am rooting for Daenerys to me she makes the show. To go from a forced marriage to being pregnant and having to see her brother die. Which by the way was very cool! Then having to make a deal with a witch to maybe saving her husband and then in all this turmoil she loses the baby and then her husband. But most impressed me is she went into the fire that was burning her husband and came out with the dragons I was totally raised to her cause. She has an empathic side and then you turn around and see her stronger side. To me she is going to be a strong leader of her people. I have not yet read the books but I want to and probably start them very soon.
Vampirewitch39
14:50 Mar 31 2012
Daenerys Targaryen for the way she took her life and so turned it around. From the brother who abused her to true love, and loss. Power. She speaks of it just standing there. No one else does that.
And Joffery and his Mother and whatever for who his true dad is *Uncle* I so want them to be took down.
Not read the books, so I am only going by the show. :)