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00:22 Jan 31 2025
Times Read: 111

I can't believe it's still only January. It feels like years have gone by, but no... We aren't even out of the first month of the year.

I feel like this year is just gonna be one of those years, like 2020. Both fast but insanely slow at the same time.

22:09 Jan 30 2025
Times Read: 131

He's an absolute crazy person. Blaming DEI for a horrific crash? Really?! I swear to God, we're 10 days in, and this is what we're dealing with. He's causing absolute mayhem. Everyone else is to blame, never him. Sounds so fucking familiar.

23:28 Jan 27 2025
Times Read: 195

I know I'm not alone in the appriciation of rain over this last weekend here in SoCal. It was much needed after 9 months of nothing. However, the mudslides are not so welcome. The ash and debris are full of toxins, and all off that is just getting swept up in mudslides. All three of the major LA fires are in the 90s as far as percent contained, so that's fantastic news. But, while the fires may be all but out, we still have so much left to do here as far as clean up and figuring out where to go. The things I heard from the Tangerine Tyrant, as he was put here on Friday, have made me cautious. What really stands out to me is him basically saying that residents should be cleaning up the mess of their homes themselves. His nonsense about our voting and water systems just show that he's a fucking moron who knows nothing about California. There's still nonsense talk about conditions on federal aid, because he's a big ol' fucking manbaby who must punish those who dare oppose him.

I've been thinking about it, and honestly, I'm less on the fence about the move at this point. The fires have displaced thousands of people, and the rents have skyrocketed due to it. I don't think it's worth it to stay here if we'll be paying more than what we're already stupidly high rental prices. At least we'll be on several hundred acres that are our own. Yeah, it's Texas, but at home, on our land, it doesn't have to feel like it. I can still be an ally, I can still support human rights. And Austin, which would be the closest big city, is blue, so it won't be that far off from home. And, I know people from high school who have moved out there, so it would be nice to occasionally hang out. So, while it is far from my ideal, it's better than what we have currently. As much as I love my home state, I still find a lot of bad here, a lot I'm unhappy with. So yeah... I'm still not sure when the move is happening, Logan assures me it'll be this year for sure. I'm just tired. I want to just stash myself far and away from everything going on in the world.

08:49 Jan 27 2025
Times Read: 238





I hate gaming headsets...

05:34 Jan 27 2025
Times Read: 287




I know I'm pretty damn awesome, but come on. It's a bit much.

21:13 Jan 26 2025
Times Read: 354


LOL.

That is all. Read into it as you will.

23:12 Jan 24 2025
Times Read: 410




Finally, a real look at why the fires in LA are so bad, and who's really to blame for things, outside of insane weather conditions.

23:23 Jan 23 2025
Times Read: 467

Okay, Tangerine Tyrant, if federal aid to us in SoCal is conditional because you're angry that we didn't vote for you, then I want all federal aid for every natural disaster to be conditional as well. What? That's a crazy extreme viewpoint? Of course it is. Because federal aid should never be conditional for things like hurricanes or flooding or fucking wildfires. All this bullshit talk of making aid conditional, when the orange fuckface doesn't even know how our water systems here work, is bonkers. But, what do you expect from a manchild who throws tantrums when a bishop preaches mercy and empathy for marginalized people, who tries to persecute all those he views as his enemies.

21:01 Jan 22 2025
Times Read: 541

More fires have popped up overnight, and I... I just don't have the energy to care. San Diego is on fire, the IE is on fire, and the new big one in LA County, the one in Castaic. That's the one I guess I have to worry about, it's grown super fast and isn't too far from Logan. But, it would have to burn through quite a few cities before it hit him, and I don't think they'd allow that kind of loss.

With everything going on, I just don't have the emotional wherewithal to care about much of anything. I'm drained.

21:34 Jan 21 2025
Times Read: 612

I'm at the point where I don't want to move to Texas later this year. I know where I stand in California, I know that those around me share similar views about basic human rights, I know Newsom, for as shitty as he is as a Governor, isn't going to bend the knee to that orange fascist fuck. It's not ideal, staying here would mean a lot has to change, but I feel safe here. I feel secure. I don't know what red states are like, having never lived in one. And I know, we'll be on our own on hundreds of acres of land, but we'd still have to abide by their policies, interact with the people. Sequestering ourselves up in our home doesn't change the fact that we'd be in a state that doesn't allow a woman the right to choose what she does with her own body. Their stance on those in the LGBTQIA+. Abbott is a garbage person. I don't want to live in a place where I won't feel safe. And I don't know if I'd feel safe there.

I know the move will be beneficial for Logan and I on so many levels, and getting a free house is not something to say no to, but I just don't know right now. I don't know if I want to be in such an overwhelmingly right leaning state. I'm not a Democrat, but I am far more liberal these days than I've been in the past. It scares me, the direction I see this country going, and I don't want to be stuck in a place where I am fearful, where I am scared, where I don't feel safe.

These are things I'm really going to have to think about, and things Logan and I will have to discuss and figure out. Do the pros outweigh the cons? California isn't a sanctuary by any means, we'd probably never be able to afford a house here, we'd have to rent an apartment, and that won't be cheap because we'd need three bedrooms. And then there's the extremely high taxes. I don't know. I'm so conflicted right now. I think everything is just so raw, maybe in a few months I'll feel differently.

We live in the worst timeline.

09:34 Jan 21 2025
Times Read: 657

You know what's cool? When the richest man in the world, the one who bought the Tangerine Tyrant his victory, does a Sieg Heil on national television at the inauguration. Not once, but twice. "It wasn't a Nazi salute, it was a Roman salute, like the Romans did!" The internet has been screaming that all day. But no. I am an avid history buff when it comes to ancient Greece and Rome, and never, not once, has such a thing ever been documented. It's not a real thing. So kindly shut the fuck up about it being a "Roman salute". The dude is an antisemitic, you can see that in all the antisemitic bullshit he props up and posts on his dumb social network. He's a fucking Nazi. Nothing can convince me otherwise.

They aren't even hiding it anymore...

23:17 Jan 20 2025
Times Read: 695

An update on the fires out here:

Hurst Fire - 100% contained
Eaton Fire - 87% contained
Palisades Fire - 59% contained

The winds are back, today and tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes. A lot of numbers have been thrown around for what it'll cost to rebuild the Pacific Palisades and Altadena, both which were, more or less, completely destroyed. The highest I've heard is around 250 billion, the lowest, 50 billion. But you could throw all the money at it and it still would never be the same. LA will never be the same. We've lost more than homes and structures. We've lost our semblance of security. We've lost neighbors. A lot of people who have been displaced will never be able to own another home in California. There's still so much to do, so much to get through before this is even remotely over.

We spoke to Liz, and she has said her and the kids have been talking to Kevin every day. As he's an LA County Sherrif, he's on the front lines. He told her that they're the ones going into the rubble, they're the ones finding the bodies of people, of pets, and it's been rough. The death toll has risen to at least 27 people so far, that number is just going to continue to rise as they go through these homes. I feel for everyone who's lost someone, for my brother and those who have to find these people... Really, just for everyone.

With all the hatred and vitriol I've been seeing online, not just from random nobodies, but from idiots like Trump himself, I've never been more proud to be a native Angeleno. I get the hate, on some levels, a lot of people don't like the policies we have out here, and I don't really agree with a lot of it, either, but I will never understand the seeming joy people have to see LA County on fire like it is. People losing homes. It's not just the rich who are losing everything. People in every single tax bracket are being affected by this. You may not like celebrities or Hollywood or whatever, but don't celebrate people losing their homes. It's nothing to celebrate. It's a goddamn tragedy.

09:03 Jan 17 2025
Times Read: 856




I say this with my whole chest, with everything I am. Fuck Donald Trump. Fuck every Republican who stands behind him. Fuck them all. To try and make aid to us here in LA conditional to get what they want from us is utterly disgusting. So, I reiterate, fuck Trump and his bullshit MAGA dumbfucks.

06:16 Jan 16 2025
Times Read: 895

01:15 Jan 16 2025
Times Read: 920

God, I am so sick and tired of seeing all the conspiracy bullshit spreading around due to the fires here in LA. It wasn't space lasers, blue roofing won't save you, it wasn't due to the elite looking to gain more land, or any of the other crazy garbage I've seen. It's global warming. Late Santa Ana winds. Drought conditions. A lack of personnel to combat these fires. Sure, there are also a lot of governmental things that you can criticize, I'll be right there with you, but it's mostly those factors that contributed to the fires spreading the way they did. People seem to underestimate just how windy it's been here. Hurricane level winds are not an exaggeration. And when it's that windy, embers fly for miles. Stop believing what people who, aren't in California are saying, especially not fucking Fox News. Because, in reality, they have no idea. Jim Bob in a trailer in Arkansas has no fucking idea what it's actually like here. So, maybe don't fucking believe him when he's rambling about these fires just because he has a voice on the internet.

02:48 Jan 14 2025
Times Read: 985

I'm back home. The car is okay, it may have just been that I was extremely low on oil, so we put in about 3 and a half quarts. The annoying thing is that the indicator light didn't come on, I never would have driven it if it had without checking things first. But, it seems that that is what I'm going to have to do before I go to Logan's every other weekend, just to stay on top of things. I don't know why the sensor isn't working, but I'll have to figure that out another day.

Things in LA are doing alright. Though it's only like, 15% contained, it hasn't made any forward progress since Saturday. We've been watching the maps pretty religiously, and it's not moved from 23,713 acres burned since Saturday. So that's good. The winds were picking up again today, but I don't think they'll make a huge dent in the progress already made by firefighters. At least, that's what I'm really hoping for. The death count is up to 24 now, though I'm sure it's a far larger number, they just can't check until all of this is over. And when it's over... I really don't know how we rebuild. I'm sure this is going to be a wakeup call for a lot of people now displaced, I don't think many will find it worth staying here after all of this.

06:36 Jan 13 2025
Times Read: 1,022

I get another night with Logan, albeit completely unintentionally. My car is making grinding noises when it shifts gears, and as I drive an automatic, that's a little worrisome. And as it's already 10:30, we decided to have me come back for the night and figure things out tomorrow. This is just so aggrivating. I don't need more car issues to pop up now. It only needs to last until right before we move, then I'll get rid of it and get something new when we're settled in Texas. I just don't know if it will even last that long.

21:12 Jan 12 2025
Times Read: 1,098

An update on the fires out here:

Kenneth Fire - 100% contained
Sunset Fire - 100% contained
Lidia Fire - 100% contained
Hurst Fire - 89% contained
Eaton Fire - 27% contained
Palisades Fire - 11% contained

The Palisades fire is the biggest, but I've been watching the map and they seem to have it stopped from making any forward progress towards Encino. It's been that way for most of yesterday and today. You can't even see it anymore from Logan's house, and the hillside isn't glowing orange. I'm sure it'll be a different story when I'm driving home tonight, the 101 curves around so I'm sure the hills will look bad from there. The winds are supposed to pick up again on Tuesday, so, hopefully between now and then, our amazing firefighters can get a better grasp of things. It's still crazy to think about, that this one fire, in less than a week have burned an area nearly twice the size of Manhattan. Nearly 24 thousand acres. And that's just one of the fires. I honestly don't know how LA County is going to recover from this. I know in the Palisades and Malibu, they'll never be able to build those houses on the beachfront again, they don't meet code anymore. So all those iconic homes, gone and not likely to return. Same with the ones on the hillsides of the Palisades. It's never going to look the same. But, all that is stuff to think about later. We just need to squash these last 3 fires first.

18:09 Jan 11 2025
Times Read: 1,147

The Kenneth fire is all but contained at this point. It's at 80% containment right now, and I don't see that going backwards. I'm thankful for that. The Palisades fire, on the other hand... The winds have picked back up again, and it's really fueling things again. We went out for breakfast around 8 then ran a few errands, and in just those two hours between leaving the house and getting back home, the smoke really got bad. So... Who knows. From the looks of it, Topanga is burning. So.. Yeah. The situation is less than ideal with the wind, but Logan is still safe. It would have to burn through Topanga and Calabasas first before it got to us, and then hop the 101.

Still worried about it, though.

05:50 Jan 11 2025
Times Read: 1,194

I got to Logan's around 7 and this is the view of the Palisades fire from his driveway.

We were hanging out at the hookah lounge in Encino for about hour, and the amount people panicking, the roads are a mess, reckless drivers all over the place. You can see the fire cresting the hillside over Encino.

Logan's put a lot of my fears to ease, but just being here in all this, you can't help but be scared of what can happen.

18:26 Jan 10 2025
Times Read: 1,233

I'm going to Logan's for the weekend. Normally that's just a whatever statement, but with all that's going on, it sounds stupid to say. I'm going to hurry up and rush to a place that could be threatened by fire at any minute. I've been constantly changing my mind about going, when the fires started I was not really sure, and yesterday, when Hidden Hills was actually threatened by the Kenneth fire, I was against it. I thought it would be highly irresponsible to do so. They also didn't have power, and that was another reason not to go. But then they got power restored, and Logan did easy my worry a bit. It's probably still a stupid decision, but if I don't see him this weekend, I won't see him until the second week of February. Plus, I'm a nervous wreck right now, so, it's either be a nervous wreck here at home, constantly watching the news, or go spend time with people who have lived though this before with the 2020 fires. Plus, if things do go south, I can at least be there to help get important stuff out of the house.

05:09 Jan 10 2025
Times Read: 1,280

Be grateful that the worst thing you're dealing with is how you think you're treated on a website. If that is your biggest problem, I seriously fucking envy you.

These last few days have been a living hell. Not just for me, but for all of Los Angeles County. We've seen unprecedented destruction in just days. Entire cities burned to the ground. Communities, businesses, schools, places of worship... People have died. It's going to take so much to recover from all of this, and it's not even close to being over. So many people are still in harm's way.

But no, do tell me how fucking horrible it is that you, of all fucking people, are being treated so badly because of your own actions. For once, I'd love to see you actually take accountability, but I know you won't. You refuse. You're forever and always the victim. On the fucking internet. How utterly pathetic.

I'm so tired. Of all of it.

02:36 Jan 10 2025
Times Read: 1,321

I talked with Logan and he said things are doing better there. The mandatory evacuation orders were lifted, so that's always good news. They aren't out of danger yet, with the winds and everything, the fire could swing back towards them, but now that they are doing airdrops, it's really squashed a lot of the areas burning near Hidden Hills. Thousand Oaks is completely fucked, but Hidden Hills will be okay.

When all of this is over, it's going to be so weird to see just how much has actually been lost. PCH is going to look completely different. And God help us when it finally rains, because all of this charred earth is just going to be ripe for mud slides.

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02:22 Jan 10 2025
Times Read: 1,329


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01:06 Jan 10 2025
Times Read: 1,350

The Kenneth fire West Hills/Hidden Hills. Logan lives in that circled area... The red highlighted section are mandatory evacuations, the yellow highlighted section are those under warning. This is getting really bad.

Logan also doesn't have any cell coverage, so that's only adding to my worry. We've been contacting via Facebook Messanger, but I won't know if something does happen should he have to leave, because he won't have internet.

23:34 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,379

Fuck! A fire started right outside of Hidden Hills in West Hills... So far about 50 acres have burned. Now I'm really starting to panic. Because that is so fucking close to Hidden Hills, it's literally right there. And if it hits Hidden Hills...

Nightmare. This is all just one neverending nightmare.

23:20 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,386

I am exhausted. Emotionally drained. The last few days have been a waking nightmare, and no matter where I've gone, I just haven't been able to escape coverage of the fires. Which is understandable because I do live here and this is all impacting me on some level. I feel as though I could sleep for a week, and it still wouldn't be enough. I haven't heard from my brother, but he works stupid crazy scheduals, often working double shifts, so who knows. I'm sure if anything happened or if he was in any danger, he'd tell Liz and Liz would let us know. Logan finally regained power, so that's a positive.

I took this photo last night. I'm 50 miles outside of Downtown LA, 45 from Pasadena, 73 from Pacific Palisades, which is funny because it's farther away by the coast, but it's the same distance as Hidden Hills is from me. Anyway... All I'm saying is that I'm not super close to anything that's been burning, but if you look at that horizon, those aren't clouds. All of that is smoke. Just a wall of smoke. And if that's what it looks like 50 miles away, you can imagine the hell it is for all those who do live in LA County.

16:51 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,408

You know, I'm a horrible sister. In all this worry about Logan and Mina and Willow, I didn't even think about him. He's an LA County Sheriff's Deputy, and with everything going on, it's very likely he's been called in to help aid during these fires. I don't know why that didn't even register with me until just now as I was watching a press conference.

The winds have finally died down enough, so hopefully some progress can be made for containment. The Woodley fire is fully contained. The Pacific Palisades and Eaton fires are still at no containment, th Lidia fire is 40 percent, and I couldn't see anything on the Sunset fire, but I do know evacuation orders have been lifted, so that's good. But... It's the Pacific Palisades and the Eaton fires that are the biggest and the ones that have no containment at all.

Logan is still without power and water.

This has just been a fucking nightmare. To watch your county, your home, burning to the ground like this... It's so fucking hard. People I know have lost or are having their homes threatened.

06:12 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,446

I'm not doing okay. I can't escape the news of what's happening around LA County, I can't escape my thoughts. Not having Logan to talk to, to calm me, is really rough tonight. I'm just a mess.

02:37 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,482

The Hollywood Hills are on fire now, too. I am concerned about this one, because Willow and Mina live there. The fire isn't that far away from them. Logan talked to Wilow and she said they're packing up now... All of this devistation. All of this loss.

Logan's been without power or water all day, with no idea when either will come back on. It's just... A lot. All of this is a lot.

01:05 Jan 09 2025
Times Read: 1,497

At this rate, a Pacific Palisades is going to be burned off the map all together. I've been on Facebook, which is my first mistake, and I've been seeing comments from people laughing and making light of all of this. "Oh, they lived in an affluent area where median home prices are in the millions, they'll be fine!" It's disgusting. Losing everything you own, whether you're rich or not, is not something people can easily recover from. A lot of these people won't just be able to pick their lives up after all of this.

18:00 Jan 08 2025
Times Read: 1,534

These fucking winds, man... While I woke up to good news regarding the Getty Villa, I also woke to devistating news about places that did burn to the ground... Our wildfires are devistating year after year, but this... This destruction... This feels so much worse right now.

09:53 Jan 08 2025
Times Read: 1,585

Vampirerave.com is a privately owned website, you do not have the right to say whatever you want without reprocussions. Freedom of speech does not apply here, we are all at the discretion of Cancer and the rules he set. If you don't like that, you are free to go elsewhere.

07:38 Jan 08 2025
Times Read: 1,617

Tonight is going to be hell for all fire departments here in SoCal. There's the huge fire in Pacific Palisades, a fire that started in Altadena, and now there's one in Sylmar. All forcing evacuations. No matter how prepared we were, how much in advance we knew these winds were coming, you just can't anticipate the reality of how bad it is out there.

03:18 Jan 08 2025
Times Read: 1,633

01:31 Jan 08 2025
Times Read: 1,650

I'm watching the news footage of the Pacific Palisades and it's bad. They are right outside the Getty Villa on PCH, and you can just see the hillside burning. The Villa is recessed in, behind all those hills, but it does look like the house that sits right on the hillside outside of it is on fire. I don't think anyone would allow the Villa to go up, but really, how can you protect it? I'm, sure they have measures in place to protect some of the antiquities, but those grand marble statues? The fresco, the tombs... I know that a lot of it is marble and stone, but it can still be damaged. The Getty says everything's been sealed, so that offers a lot of protection, but what if the building does catch fire? The Villa is my absolute favorite museum in all of SoCal, I'd hate to see all, those amazing artifacts damaged or losses all together.

23:21 Jan 07 2025
Times Read: 1,669

Pacific Palisades is on fire with thousands being forced to evacuate, which bothers me. One, because the Getty Villa is located right off PCH there and there are a number of spots burning very close to it, and two, because while I know there's an entire canyon between the coast and Hidden Hills, with these winds, embers can go miles. I know Hidden Hills has all the money to throw at fire departments, I just worry. There is a lot of dried and dead brush out there. Bah. I know if Logan was ever worried, he would tell me. So, hopefully my worries are just me being silly, but I'll be more at ease when these winds die down.

20:46 Jan 07 2025
Times Read: 1,677

We may not have snow here in SoCal, but we are dealing with windstorm, which is always fun. The power is out in a number of areas, I've been talking with a few friends who are in the dark right now, including my mom at her work. Thankfully the power hasn't gone out here. Hopefully no fores start, because with the winds as bad as they are, God, it would be devistating. It's been predicted that winds could reach up to 100 mph in some areas.

06:54 Jan 06 2025
Times Read: 1,741

So, I'm watching Riverdale with Logan, because he insists on makining me watch shitty shows. Anyway, these characters are supposed to be what, sophomores in high school, so like, 15/16, right? Why is it so hypersexual? I was in high school once, 20 years ago, yes, but still, my high school experience was nothing like this. And it's not that I didn't go to parties or anything, I did. I was popular by association due to my brother. It just makes me wonder why we, as a society, think it's totally cool to sexualize children. Yes, they are adult actors, but they're portraying kids, literal kids. And you have one fucking the music teacher. Like, why is this okay? Why do we do this? It's all teen shows like this, they all hypersexualize the underage characters so much. I'm not a fan. It makes me feel icky to watch it.

07:33 Jan 05 2025
Times Read: 1,780

I got home a little bit ago from watching the kids for the night so Liz could go outside and interact with adults. She always acts like it's such a huge thing for me to watch them, but honestly, it isn't. I love getting to spend time with them. And while it may exhaust me sometimes, I always enjoy it. With the move coming this year, I'm more than happy to get in as much time with them as I can before I move 1,300 miles away. I played Barbies with Gwen and watched Lucas as he played Fortnite. Silly, simple things that I'm really going to miss when I don't get to do them anymore.

04:45 Jan 04 2025
Times Read: 1,832

And with that, Christmas is officially over. The kids were so happy with their gifts, Gwen with all her Barbie stuff and Lucas with his transformers and nerf gun that's ike a little minigun, so many darts everywhere! But, I'm glad they were happy. Liz and Kevin were both happy with their stuff, too. It's hard, once you really hit adulthood, to be excited for socks and pj sets and trash cans for your car, but it's what was wanted. I got a Target giftcard from my brother, and Liz and the kids got me a new headset for my Xbox, so that's awesome. But now, the holidays are officially over with and done, and I'm relieved for that. Like I said before, I don't know what this year will have in store in regards to Christmas, so I'm glad I was able to get this last bit of time in with everyone.

Tomorrow I'll start work on some updates for Nocturnal Retribution, and work on leveling up Nike a bit. I think I need to put another PM on one of my Sires, so I'll take care of that as well. I want to be a little more active here than I have been in the last handful of months.

00:23 Jan 04 2025
Times Read: 1,851

I think this year I will actually take time to focus on Nike and get that account up to Sire. I think it's in the low 30's right now, so, it will take me some time. But, I have a year to get it done. I don't think I've actually sired an account other than this one, nearly 18 years ago. Every other Sire I have, has been graciously given to me. So, it's about time I just buckle down and get it done. Though there are more levels, I originally hit Sire when we were still on the old leveling system that only went up to 28 levels, the bonuses do make it a bit easier, I just have to stay out of the red. So yeah, between the House and that account, I have some things to work on. And maybe, if I get to a point where I'm comfortable, I can work a little on Logan's account. I know he's not too invested here to take the time to level up himself, which is totally fine, so me hopping on every so often won't be an issue.

02:52 Jan 03 2025
Times Read: 1,891

I just finished up all the wrapping of the kids' and Liz's Christmas presents. My back is in protest over the way I was sitting for the whole thing. After tomorrow we will officially be done with the holidays. It would have been sooner, but with the kids being in Oregon and then with New Year's spent over at Logan's, tomorrow is when all our schedules matched up. It'll be nice to spend the evening with the kids, Kevin, and Liz. Despite how things are, it's nice to be with them as a family. It may very well be the last time like this, because I don't know what Christmas this year will look like. So, I shall enjoy it while it lasts and then be thankful that that's the last of the Christmas stuff we needed to do.

Right now, though, I think I'm gonna go use that massager I got and see if I can get my back feeling better.

02:16 Jan 02 2025
Times Read: 1,933

Welcome, 2025. While there are a lot of things I'm dreading with this year, there are also many things that I have to look forward to. It's nice to have some serious life changes to look forward to.