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06:03 Mar 30 2012
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Some things, like some people....never change.



































FUCK IT.

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06:02 Mar 30 2012
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03:28 Mar 30 2012
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Just got off the phone with him, we talk every day. I miss him and this house seems so empty without him here. I stand by my decision but it is so freaking hard.



Trying to look forward and do what it is I need to do for me. How can anyone else value me if I don't.

Uhmmmm, No.
08:32 Mar 29 2012
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I can see where this is going, can you?



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Heyy whats up jade how are you?



Jadee



Well I just got out of a nice hot bubble bath so not too bad but outside of that I've been a hell of a lot better. How about you?



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Nicee im just workout little tired are u at home right now?



Jadee



Yeah, where else would I be taking a bath at silly [:P]



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Do you have a skype account?



Jadee



Nope...



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Yahoo



?



Jadee



yep



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Let go yahoo



[;)]



Mert Matt Kxxxxxxx



Whats your yahoo account



?



........



Are you alone right now



?

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02:56 Mar 28 2012
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08:45 Mar 26 2012
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05:18 Mar 26 2012
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08:36 Mar 25 2012
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23:27 Mar 24 2012
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It's over. Rod's family just arrived and now he is on his way back to Tacoma, 350 miles from here. I just want to curl up in a ball and lay in bed and cry but instead I'm here pouring my heart out on the same website where it all began.



I wish you would of thought about me before you made the choice that you did but who is to say that you didn't and the outcome would still be the same. There are some things in a relationship that are clearly deal breakers and you broke mine. I won't go into any details here, it is no ones business but our own. I gave you one last chance and you fucked it up. I love you, that just doesn't go away but you broke my heart and I had to let you go. Time will tell what changes in yourself you have wrought. And maybe we will meet again.



We parted peacefully and will remain friends. We are both going to be working on bettering ourselves, it's a long hard road. And right now I'm kinda messed up.

00:29 Mar 24 2012
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Sad. Taking all these last minute pictures of one another as mementos when we should of been taking them all along.



I hear you in the other room playing games with my son and I sit here and cry silently knowing I won't hear the sound of the two guys that matter most to me together again after tonight.



This whole situation is heartbreaking. I love you.

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00:03 Mar 24 2012
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19:41 Mar 23 2012
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One more day. You know that old adage that goes "this is hurting me more than it's hurting you" ? Well it's true. I have to stay true to myself no matter the cost. Or the cost will be myself.

Your silence speaks volumes
21:23 Mar 22 2012
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Just when I thought that perhaps I was making a mistake, you proved me wrong with your silence. Am I worth so little?

Right here, Right now.
00:41 Mar 22 2012
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Now and then I think of when we were together

Like when you said you felt so happy you could die

Told myself that you were right for me

But felt so lonely in your company

But that was love and it's an ache I still remember



You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness

Like resignation to the end, always the end

So when we found that we could not make sense

Well you said that we would still be friends

But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over



But you didn't have to cut me off

Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love

But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

No you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect your records and then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know



Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know



[Kimbra:]

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over

But had me believing it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way

Reading into every word you say

You said that you could let it go

And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know



[Gotye:]

But you didn't have to cut me off

Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing

And I don't even need your love

But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough

And you didn't have to stoop so low

Have your friends collect your records and then change your number

I guess that I don't need that though

Now you're just somebody that I used to know



[x2]

Somebody

(I used to know)

Somebody

(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)



(I used to know)

(That I used to know)

(I used to know)

Somebody

20:56 Mar 20 2012
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You left me no choice, no option, maybe it is what you wanted deep down.



Regardless, it's killing me.

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02:22 Mar 20 2012
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06:20 Mar 13 2012
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I had a crazy fantasy while sitting here watching television with him. I dreamed I took the remote control and while batting my eyes demurely rammed it up his ass!



I hate it when someone channel surfs when I am trying to watch something. GRRRRR.

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08:07 Mar 09 2012
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I sighted sasquatch last night
20:35 Mar 04 2012
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So last night as I crawled into bed next to Pinja and snuggled up to him, I was freezing, I started running my feet up and down his legs and ...



Pandora: hmmm, wore your jammies to bed tonight huh baby.



Pinja: nope, that's just my furry legs.





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