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50 entries this month
17:22 Aug 30 2023
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I haven't been back to Boston since...
I brought my sister here in what?
2016? Seven years?
Shortly after her dad, my step dad, died. It was a brief there and home to Texas.
I honestly never really thought I would even venture back that way.
Yet, here I am. In just over a month.
It's going to be so much cooler there.
I'll be able to wear my hoodies again.
Positivity.
We leave 10/2.19:11 Aug 29 2023
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This year has been a doozy.
It's been determined that my youngest and I will be returning to Boston to care for my mother after her surgery in early October.
She's having spinal surgery.
She has the current diagnosis:
Myeloradiculopathy
Gait instability
Significant spinal stenosis at C3-4 & C5-6
Atrophy
Spinal cord signal changes behind C3-4
Multilevel foraminal stenosis from C3-7 bilaterally
Disc bulge and T2 STIR signal changes
Radiculopathy and neurological decline
Surgery is going to be at the anterior C3- C7 anterior cervical discectomy and fusion, as well as posterior decompression and fusion from C3-T1. They are also placing bone in her neck and back, in order to help fuse together what needs to be fused.
Her health isn't the best, having diabetes and asthma.
There isn't really anyone *there* that I/we can trust with aiding her in recovery. So we will be going to help her, while my husband and son stay behind (as he has school, football, band and my husband has work) and since my school work is online, I can do that there when they sleep.
I am around, but more just reclusive.
Lots going on, obviously.
Could be a month. Could be two. Dunno how long her recovery is.
IYKYK
05:24 Aug 25 2023
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If my handbasket to Hell wasn't already secured in satin and bows, it sure the fuck is now.
hahahahahahaha
03:14 Aug 25 2023
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A spade is still a spade, regardless of the techniques one uses to try and sell it as a heart.
PRIVATE ENTRY
17:43 Aug 22 2023
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• • • • PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY • • • •
Bye, bye buggies.15:19 Aug 21 2023
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So glad we have a new pest control company coming out today.
I'm tired of dealing with the paper wasps, mud daubers, carpenter bees, mosquitos, spiders, and the fire ants.
The weather has been insane down here in Satan's Loincloth, so the flying critters and the spiders are fucking thriving.
It seems no matter how often we are power cleaning the outside, there are so many spider webs and spiders now that it looks like a scene from the movie Arachnophobia.
For instance:
Yesterday we cleaned all the spider webs off the eaves of the house as well as the carport and the trees from where we could reach.
This morning they're not only back, but twice as many. Em yelled that the end was near this morning when leaving for school because he walked face first into a web on the porch and spazzed out because of it. (I don't blame him, I would have, too.)
Then the hornets and paper wasps ... They're everywhere. Fucking everywhere. I've knocked down and cleaned so many areas that had the beginning of their hives as well as used products to remove pheromones so they fuck off, but it's been worthless.
Then the carpenter bees. Sweet Jesus they're burrowing into wood wherever they can. No matter what we do, they keep coming back.
The fire ants are out of control in my front yard. We've done every single pest control we can from the stores to no avail.
The skeeters are also insane. Doesn't help that I think we have a neighbor who has standing water in his yard as they come back no matter what we do.
So the pest guys are coming this afternoon to try and help. They are also doing preventative rodent and termite treatments because there are three houses being built/renovated and we live by farm land and lakes so just in case ... Cause termites suck and while I haven't seen any rodents (yay for cats!) I'd rather be safe than sorry.
Cause FML I hate flying and sticky critters who are trying to overrun our property.
Heh
13:09 Aug 21 2023
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It sure would be nice if we could filter messages by either user or date.
Yannow... Just a suggestion, Daddy C!
;p
17:42 Aug 18 2023
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17:03 Aug 18 2023
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Hm.
I get that imitation is supposed to be a form of flattery but I find it creepy. Why try and be like someone else? Is it for attention? For some sense of friendship? Why portray oneself as another?
I will never understand that. I don't care to impress people. That's never been my style. I've always just been myself- even when being myself is weird to others.
This is just creepy.
11:19 Aug 18 2023
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Monday through Friday my alarms are set for 0500.
Without fail, and regardless of the time frame I do actually fall asleep at, my internal alarms wake me at 0440.
Lette napped a long time yesterday, which was expected as we did a lot of outdoor stuff as it was decent outside. She didn't actually fall asleep until about 0230 and I didn't fall asleep until about 0315.
Which means she will be up by 0900 if she decides to sleep in. That child rarely ever likes sleeping in and you can hear her across the house exclaiming "Good morning Mr. Sun! You up and I up too!". Heh. Kids. 🖤
Em wakes at 0600. Bus is at 0720. Class starts at 0755. He is the second to last stop on the bus before the school drop off, as we are the "farthest route" from the middle school.
Practice and football has been good for him. He's definitely sleeping better and is in better spirits. His friends group has also expanded and he's thriving. To think that just three years ago he was undergoing cancer treatments... feels like a decade ago. You can't even tell he had it. He's actually thriving. It takes a lot of stress off me seeing the turnaround in his emotional and mental state just one week into school.
This is great.
It's starting to help ease up on my own anxiety as my anxiety is centered around the kids mostly. Hell, I may even be able to drop the dosage of my anxiety meds over the next few months. I'll discuss all that with my doc at my next iron level checking appointment.
:)
17:41 Aug 17 2023
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Gonna go pick up my son's cleats and get my daughter a football because now she wants to be able to "practice" with him.
Heh.
At least at practice there are siblings her age she can toss the ball around with. They have practice every Monday through Friday and he's loving it. He's also finally sleeping so much better now that his iron is under control and he's more active. The insomnia isn't anywhere near where it has been over the years. That is a such a great thing.
He told me yesterday that he's finally feeling "normal" after chemotherapy. That he doesn't feel like the "sick kid" anymore.
That's small blessings there.
It's official.
00:57 Aug 16 2023
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He made the football team.
I'm officially a Football mom.
🖤
20:13 Aug 13 2023
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LMFAO
You really are one dense individual.
And using dense is being kind.
But please, continue how you were wronged, when the whole reason (as literally spelled out below) was because you couldn't follow simple directions that you agreed to.
🤷🏼♀️
Then you had a meltdown over thinking I said something I didn't - again posted below for you to reread and perhaps comprehend- and went all ape shit with the entries.
But I'm the special snowflake and "psycho" (btw is how it is spelled).
Yeah.
Ok.
Whatevssss
20:07 Aug 13 2023
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Heh.
I'm the snowflake.
Says the one who threw a fit over an imaginary situation.
Oh oh wait... Situations>
You'd think if a person was really genuinely gifted, as one claims to be, they'd be told to stop talking while they were ahead as they, as always, are shown to be wrong, again.
But the delusions of one who's insane will never cease because those around them only fuel it more.
Well, not everyone.
;)
20:02 Aug 13 2023
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Finally!
Does that mean you'll shut up for once?
Murray says that's never gonna happen.
19:59 Aug 13 2023
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Hey, Pot!
You're black, too!
19:57 Aug 13 2023
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I mean, yeah... I can totally be defiant.
;)
19:55 Aug 13 2023
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Yeah, I also never claimed to be "psychic".
But you did...
How'd that turn out for the sub that never surfaced?
19:54 Aug 13 2023
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It's never your fault.
The woe is me mentality is dumb.
You may have deleted all the entries and what YOU have lied and claimed, but the receipts are still there.
I wonder if people realize just how much of a racist and homophobe you truly are.
I have those receipts too.
19:47 Aug 13 2023
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19:44 Aug 13 2023
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I am going to make my own life easier.
Cause LOLOLOLOL "I'm the victim!"
Whatevssss
19:42 Aug 13 2023
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Oh... Oh does this mean it's finally going to shut up?
Wishful thinking, I know. I know.
Pity.
19:37 Aug 13 2023
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It was a typo, which clicking on the thread clearly shows.
Here we are once again with how you need everything to be about you.
Once again, reading comprehension isn't your strong suit.
Just wasted time and space.
08:26 Aug 13 2023
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Anywho...
Any one see any new horror or thriller movies lately?
Or read any good spine chillers?
08:00 Aug 13 2023
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It's always everyone else, huh?
Page turner, that's your newest claim?
Yeah, ok.
Your chance was given, and again you didn't follow the agreement.
Like I just did prior to all this, I can show receipts of where you didn't do as agreed.
Save yourself the embarrassment.
:)
07:33 Aug 13 2023
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07:28 Aug 13 2023
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07:24 Aug 13 2023
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07:19 Aug 13 2023
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Word.
07:11 Aug 13 2023
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Funny, as that was the initial agreement.
Adios!
07:05 Aug 13 2023
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House Lunazure is now accepting petitions for Covens within our Alliance.
Like a Gemini, both sides are shown!
Only real criteria is that one specific member isn't within your Society.
Send your petitions in today!
06:47 Aug 13 2023
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You made this public.
I merely am clearing up the confusion for anyone curious as to why you felt the need to go on a tirade of things that were simply not true.
Your misunderstanding of a phrase is what made you make it public.
:)
06:42 Aug 13 2023
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LOL
At no point did I state you broke any TOS.
You, did however, breach our agreement for you to be in my House.
Here, allow me to show you the message I sent your Coven Master when I kicked the Coven.
Cause now you're grasping at straws:
At no point was there any mention of TOS.
And quite frankly I don't give a damn what is being said in other Societies by other members.
The issue lays within how you responded to things, when you agreed to be decent and civil about things.
That's all it was about.
So, stop laying blame on others for your own actions, yeah?
Yeah.
06:32 Aug 13 2023
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You still don't get it?
My goodness.
At this point, it's just too comical.
I cannot help but laugh.
I have no problem telling a person "fuck you" and I have zero issues with admitting so- but that isn't even what that sentence says.
There is no way to break that down anymore to explain to you just how wrong you are and I promise you everyone reading it doesn't see it the way you do.
But hyper fixate on those two little words, maybe they're the only words you fully grasped from that whole message.
I dunno.
But have fun playing it out, though.
xD
06:26 Aug 13 2023
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To make it easier, I highlighted it for you.
Read the WHOLE sentence, not just the two little words:
06:23 Aug 13 2023
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Safe to say comprehension really is not your strong suit.
Because anyone reading that can clearly see exactly what it says.
Hahah.
06:20 Aug 13 2023
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At no point did I tell you "Fuck you".
Reread the line again, actually here:
Hell, there were a lot of people rooting for you and hoping you would actually turn your behaviors around, but sadly that was a huge disappointment and quick frankly a huge "Fuck You" to me on your part.
Meaning, your behaviors were you telling me fuck you. Not me saying Fuck You.
*eye roll*
But whatevsssss. Heh.
06:13 Aug 13 2023
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The past?
No, I was referring to today's actions.
Your agreement to follow my House rules were not that of the past. Not until this evening when I made it clear to your CM when I kicked the Coven from my Alliance that because you breached our agreement, you had no place within my Halls, which ultimately meant neither does that Coven.
Spin it any way you wish to.
I really don't care.
It's not me that's done any lying.
I attempted to work with you but you chose your path.
Oh well. No loss on my end, as I mentioned before.
06:05 Aug 13 2023
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Actually the account to which I blinded then traded to Purgatory had been in my House since I inducted it on the 9th of this month.
Regardless whether it was your main or an alternative account- the rules in which I gave you were still the same across the board.
Actually, allow me to refresh your memory, since it seems to be quite short termed:
Now I did block out information that didn't apply this particular situation.
But those were the terms you agreed to and couldn't follow.
Woe is me, huh?
Ahhh gonna have to spell everything out for you again, huh?
05:51 Aug 13 2023
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Again, comprehension isn't your strong suit, I get it.
Look at the image.
Clearly defines what was asked.
05:29 Aug 13 2023
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No lies.
Proof:
At no point was I upset you left under your main account.
Your actions today- prior to my message- is what sparked your removal and the removal of the Coven you are now an ACM at.
Play the victim all your heart desires.
You're the one who fucked up and went against our agreement, not me.
Again, post away.
05:21 Aug 13 2023
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Absolutely.
There isn't a single thing I said that isn't accurate or true.
Nor anything I wanted to hide.
Post away.
PRIVATE ENTRY
05:00 Aug 13 2023
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• • • • PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY • • • •
01:59 Aug 12 2023
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What an interesting chain of events.
Pity.
The fact this country has not only gone to fucking hell, it's taking it's children with it.07:31 Aug 11 2023
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I can honestly say that today was a fucking doozy.
Never in a million years would I have thought I would need to sign consent forms for a middle schooler to have permission to be administered Narcan in the event of an accidental overdose. Then I looked into why and WTF.
Kids are sharing "spiked candies" and doing stupid shit like that. Sometimes without even telling the other party it's drugs. Not only is there an opioid crisis in this county but fucking meth and heroin busts are happening to high schoolers?! In fact a kid OD last year on the high school campus grounds from it. During school hours. DURING. How. The. Fuck...
I literally had a full blown panic attack from the amount of shit thrown in my direction today regarding the drug issues within this county. I knew it was an issue within the country as a whole. I grew up in Boston, opioids are one of the worst drugs people are strung out on up there next to heroin. Four years we've lived in this county and not once have I heard about this shit. But it makes sense now, they keep it out of the main news sources. They want to promote different aspects of the town not the problems.
Fuck that noise. Once my mortgage is paid in full, we are moving. Yeah, yeah I know that it's an issue everywhere. But holy shit... Twelve, thirteen, fourteen year olds?! That's fucking nuts to me.
This country is going to shit.
Ohhh forced inductions.21:07 Aug 09 2023
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Been a decade since I got to do that.
😜
I am NOT emotionally prepared for this. At. All.19:22 Aug 07 2023
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Wait.
Waitttttt.
Am I about to have two school aged children?!
Middle school and EE?
Why are they growing up so fast?!
When did this happen?
How the hell did the summer fly so quickly that I have less than a week left with them before they both venture off to academic adventures?!
I'm at a loss for words.
Quack.11:57 Aug 07 2023
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So much to write.
I took the day off the site yesterday. I ended up getting a bit sick from the heat and sun (damn sun allergy) to the point I just pretty much relaxed with the kiddos and made a list of different breads and cheeses we want to attempt to make from scratch. Going from El Paso which was dry heat, to Ruidoso, NM where it was cool, back to Northern Texas where there is an excessive heat warning and intense humidity definitely affected my reaction to how the sun and heat got to me.
I will be responding to messages and I will be updating who and what needs to be updated (IYKYK).
Message me if you need to, as always I'll respond when I get a chance.
12:30 AM and it's 95 degrees.06:27 Aug 04 2023
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Texas, get yer shit together.
I've had a few people ask me why I am interested in becoming a mortician. Here is why.06:11 Aug 04 2023
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I've had a personal relationship with death since an early age. As a toddler, we escaped a house fire (thanks to my loving dog Max, may you RIP you beautifully, golden and fluffy golden retriever, for saving my life and alerting the family to the danger), I witnessed a decapitation at the age of six during a really bad rain storm- The car in front of us was struck by downed electrical wires that were struck by lightening and the wires severed the head of the driver and the windshield of the car. I remember sitting in the back seat, in the middle, watching through the Volkswagen windshield as there was a bright blast, the car in front of us swerving all over, and then a horribly loud crashing sound and seeing something kind of bounce and roll around in the rain in front of the car, and my mom gasping and saying "is that a fucking head?!". I lost my beloved grandmother when I was nine, witnessed a neighbor be shot in the head when I was ten, stumbled across a fatal overdose when walking home from school when I was eleven... let's just say I had attended more funerals than birthday parties before I was even eighteen.
I have witnessed horrendous funerals- where the funeral directors butchered the process- making the deceased look worse than they did coming in there, or forgetting to do something as mandatory as a fucking embalming (that one is still recent so it still pisses me off), didn't follow the families wishes (to the best of their abilities), to seeing that they were more for the "profit" than the "service" of the job.
I want to be a mortician for the service of the job, not the monetary gain that can accompany it.
Morticians, Embalmers, Funeral Directors, and Undertakers are called "Last Responders". They respond at the last chapter of a person's life. They are never considered as essential as medical teams and EMS because those they serve are the deceased and the families they leave behind. They are the ones who care for the deceased. Cleansing them, dressing them, preparing them for the families to have their final goodbye with. In some instances, those who cross a Mortician's table have never known kindness or had suffered for a long time prior to their demise. The Mortician would be the last person to show great care and respect to the deceased. To honor them as they were and prepare them for their final resting place. To be the listening ear to a grieving family, the branch that connects them with help navigating the world without their beloved.
In the days of Socrates, Plato, and Alexander the Great, it was common for women to play a significant role in preparing a body for burial and this continued for centuries. Women were looked on to care for the deceased, as they were for newborns, as it is considered that women have the empathy and nurturing nature that (most) men do not possess in order to care for the deceased. Men only really dominated the field around the Civil War when it became profitable. Even to this day, according to the ABFSE (American Board of Funeral Service Education) show that statistically, over 72% of graduating students from FS are female.
Death doesn't scare me. I find a familiarity with it, a sense of finalization that accompanies the role of a mortician, and the compassion to the life that once was. It is a way to show honor to those who pass, giving acknowledgement to their presence that was in this world, and a thank you for their contribution to the world they depart from. It is the final touches on their legacies and the ability to aid those who are left behind in their wake, find a new path and/or purpose after they are gone.
I want to help families honor the legacies of their loved ones while ensuring that the deceased are treated with respect, care, and dignity and the families can grieve without fear of worry.
COMMENTS
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Vampirewitch39
19:07 Aug 30 2023
Get your twang warmed up. ;)