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Ghoul:
1. One who delights in the revolting, morbid, or loathsome.
2. A grave robber.
3. An evil spirit or demon in Muslim folklore believed to plunder graves and feed on corpses.
4. Someone who takes bodies from graves and sells them for anatomical dissection.

My personal knowledge about ghouls is that of Humans who become ghouls. Basically a person who loses their soul and humanity, become a shell of their former being, often easily taken over or possed. Mindless puppets that blend in well, 'cause so many humans are now ghouls.


"You give your opinion quite decidedly for someone so young. Pray, tell me your age." 'I am not one and twenty.' (Pride and Prejudice)

You will find That I give my opinions very decidedly for someone being young as myself, this doesn't not mean I have experienced and the wisdom that comes with age, but that I have learning and experiences and wisdom enough for my opinions to be given decidedly. A person who cannot decide what their own opinions are fail themselves more so than a fool does.

*takes off her hat and bows* I, m'dears, am a philosopher, a fool, and only God knows what else. *Grin* Please do not be afraid, or read on and find that I am as harmless as a pillow not being used to sufforcate someone.

To quote someone I love very dearly

"Love screws up your life. Life destroys your death. Death destroys your life."

I'm not sure just how much I believe that, yet it seems undisputable. At least a screwed up life if worth more than living without love, even if it's destroyed by death, which it seems isnt' so bad afterall. Maybe it should be that Life destroys life, and life screws up love, that love isn't the one at fault but rather life, death just is, it makes no attempt to stop love, one's true heart doesn't stop for death. Mine hasn't.



Down to details: i'm 5'11", red curly (dyed) hair, green blue and brown eyes. I have shaply eyebrows... nice lips, rather pleasant hands, largeish feet, but hey, i'm nearly 6 ft! I have scars and plenty of stories for the ones I can remember the origions of. Two tattoos, and I know i'll be getting one more, but over time I might have a total of 5. My ears are pierced 9 times, 4 and 5.

My eyes are definatly my favorite feature. They are three distinct colors and can turn gold or silver (as noticed so far). My left eye has the most brown. By brown I mean a ligher warm almost honey color. It creates a spot on the inside of my eye, there is also that brown surrounding my pupils with the green and blue intertwined with the rest of my eye, brown threads interspersed.


If you decide to send me an e-mail (shadow-fyre@hotmail.com) It will go directly into my junk mail box, so make the subject line something that doesn't sound like advertisement and I'll take it out and put your addy on my safe list. Or e-mail me at blue_icediamonds@hotmail.com instead. Thanks!



I am what I am. This lifetime has given me a bit of a mess to sort out so what I know so far is that I have vampire blood in me and that I may or may not have been fully embraced in a past life. I know that vampires exist, and if you ask for proof I'll ignore you. I also have some lycan blood and something else, not sure what it is but it's very possible for it to be demon. I am also or mainly, for now, a witch.

I don't practice wicca, i'm not in a cult, and I don't practice a specific type of magic.



I tend to use herbs, candles, and oils the most, but, inspite of all my spell books I just feel what I need for each spell using what i know about the ingredients and how they speak to me.

That's how I do most of my magic and natural ability. I "feel" things, energy, auras, etc etc. I read tarot cards and occasionally runes, but that's pretty rare. Occasionally I can see people's animals (I don't care what you want to call them or classify them as). A little less often I see auras. More frequently now I see into people's past lives, but not so much my own.

As soon as I find books on it I am going to start looking into and perhaps practicing some "Dark magic" or Blood magic. There are certain presences and persons as well as feelings that point these paths out to me, and I would most certinaly like to test the waters. I realize I said Dark magic... which to me does tend to lean towards "evil" magic, but like Voodoo, it's how you use the magic, magic by it's self is not evil nor good. In fact we don't truely use magic for then it is only an illusion rather the magic uses us. I'll put the quote from a very good book I recently read here soon so you can understand why I think this.

I am a seer. I hate calling myself one because I really can't stand almost all seers... maybe it was just a couple bad experiences before I was called one. According to a very 'stuffed' seer, all seers know their number yet I don't seem to appear on anyone's radar.. YESSS!!!

Hmm, what else about me magically... meh, nothing I can think of... perhaps later.



Just a side note. Verbosity is one of my specialties! When I'm not hating words I love 'em. If you're the type of person who can't stand people who miss spell words, please feel free to drop me a message letting me know where my grammer or spelling went awry.




Silly how much time I spend on the computer when I love books and music so much. Good thing about music is that to listen to it you don't have to be the one playing it, but still... I think I'd die without my books before I'd die without my computer, yet here I am, spending my hours on the computer, but.. to make it happy, I'm here with you! My latest adventures have been my newest spell books and history books on magic and vampires. Fictional novels include Fantasy, a little Romance, and Fantasy, only the good old fashioned swords and horses with castles and forests, rivers/streams and magic for me! *sigh*



Something to Think About:

When we first fall in love we declare our love in the moonlight and treat the day respectfully. Then we get married during the day and our love is tested at night.



Currently I'm a student at the University of Wisconsin Milwaukee, but I will soon be moving to 'The North East'.

My major is English, who knows, might change it to Geology. It used to be Technical Theatre and Art, then Theatre and Music, now just English, emphasis in poetry and grammer. After I finish my primary degree I want to study Holistics online. (that is after I take a couple years off to figure out what I want to do with my life.) If I'm lucky enough I'll find a few people to practice magic with and help with our self studies.



East, east... Something about the east, something I need to find... Maybe the wicked witch isn't dead, just a little squished. Hehe. More seriously though, I will either find something huge or I'll find my true self, even if I only find love I'll be happy.



Side Note: I really hate it when people attack my friends. And I think it's horribly cowardly when they do it while they're sleeping and/or through their dreams. If you threaghten me me that way, leave knowing this. The last one who did so, also tried killing me, and failed, tried killing my friends, and failed. Even when weak we are strong. Don't be a coward, attack someone when they're awake or prepare to die yourself.



I say college and I feel that I'm portraying some young child. To be honest, I am young, I'm 20 years old in this life and I have much to learn, much more than I could possibly imagine. I'll be even more honest with maybe a bit of TMI, but, sometimes it's extremely frusterating not having a mentor or a teacher someone to learn from. I do understand the importance of learning on one's own, but somtimes a few lessons or pointers would be helpful, maybe I wouldn't have made some of the mistakes I did, or if I still did, I might know what not/to do next time. I guess that is why I love my friend Liz so much. She's been around forever and I can go to her for anything. I am always in awe of her power and knowledge. Maybe someday in a future life I will be wise and able to handle such power and magic.


This is Liz at Stonehenge. She's killed me more times than I probably will ever know. Even there where she stands. The earth has blessed her greatly and me more so just by knowing her. If you ever get the chance to meet her you will understand why I love her so.



Movies, movies, movies...

"Remember remember the Fifth of November, the Gunpowder Treason and Plot. I can think of no reason why the Gunpowder Treason should ever be forgot." V for Vendetta

"She is tolerable I suppose, but not handsome enough to tempt me..." Pride and Prejudice (a better quote will follow the next time I watch the movie, most likely tomorrow, or the next day, or the next... Hey! It's a 5 hour movie!

Last Samauri, The Covenent, The Craft, Quills, Edward Scissorhands, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Sense and Sensibility, Charlie Chaplin's The Kid, Underworld, Underworld Revolution, Fast and Furious Tokyo Drift, Much Ado About Nothing, Love Actually, Phantom of the Opera, *Sigh* So many great movies...

Music: (in literally no particular order)
Tchaikovsky, Rimsky-Korsakov, Gliere, Rachmoninov, Thou Shalt Not, Wicked, Jeckel and Hyde, Jewel, Vast, Three Days Grace, Rammstein, Beatles, Queen, Cake, Rufus Wainwright, MCR, Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Rasputana, Theatre of Tragedy, Cradle of Filth, In Flames, Stabbing Westward, Smile Empy Soul, Bach, Beethoven, Gustav Holst, Moulin Rouge, Rent, Mannheim Steamroller... and many more!

I also play the flute and piccolo as well as Native American six holed flutes. I sorta taught myself the piano, but I'm no where near good, and I'm slowly but surely teaching myself the pan pipes. I compose simple music for piano and a bit more complicated music for flute and other band instruments. I kinda wish I could play the guitar but then agian, not really. I can't physically old a guitar 'cause of my left arm, but meh, I can still listen.. and I can play Guitar Hero if I get desperate..lol

Arg, computers stink, had a great story for you all! oh well, it's probably a bit more of some fly by night indulging in the story of our lives kind of thing anyways.


"Good and Evil, and their merits, men have argued through history as well they should.

My philosophy; any child can see Good is Evil and therefore all Evil is Good.

How do you tell evil from good? Evil does well, Good not so good. Evil is the one thatis free everywhere" good is the one tha can sell.
You must decide which is heaven and which is hell!

Good men maintain evil's a curse, but is plain good's even worse. Evil's the one that they tell you to shun, good is the one to embrace. Say that and Saten will laugh right in your face!

The battle between good and evil goes back to the start; Adam and Eve and the apple tore eden apart. The key thing about good and evil, each man has to choose, heaven and hell is a hell of a gamble to lose.

But as I peruse this world we abuse it's hell that we choose and heaven must lose. Evil is everywhere good doesn't have a prayer.

Good is commendable, evil's dependable. Evil is viable; good unreliable.
Good may be thank-able, evil is bankable.

Evil is for me, you can have good, doesn't suit me to be Robin Hood. It's easier by far from the way that things are to remain good and evil, than try to be evil and good!"
Jeckel and Hyde



The Picture at the bottom, with the devil kitty is my baby, Sash.

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Sometimes we go through our days full of static and energy; hungry for life or at least for something that heats our blood. Other days we almost exist as though were were a kine turned ghoul, but at the end of the day I always turn to my loves and to my Dreams. No matter what kind of day you have there are things in your heart that you never get sick of. I pray, dear friends, that you will always be the pieces of my heart I could never wish to part with even for one day.