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Today, I feel great that another day has paseed and that my job was finally over. And the good news is, tomorrow would be my rest day so I have the right to stay up late.



Right now, we were celebrating my parents' 25th year wedding anniversary here at my aunt's house. Actually, the date was April 20 but they have decided to celebrate it this friday. Twenty-five years of happy marriage. My sister and I are very lucky that we don't belong to a broken family.



True. There are tough times that my parents encounter in their relationship as husband and wife just like any other couple. But I'm proud to say that until now, they are still together because both of them are making efforts to make the relationship intact.

I just came from work. I'm tired and exhausted. I want to cry because of stress and pressure in my work. But I can't give up because I need the money.



Plus, if I quit, my family would be truly disappointed especially my mom, aunt Noie and my grandmother. And of course, I don't want that to happen.



Please don't let me quit...please! please!

On April 21, I will start to work as an accounting assistant in Save More market. So maybe, I may not visit vampire rave more often but I would still try to find time to update my journal.



The coming days for me would be very busy. I'm nervous though because I'm not sure of what to expect in work but I'm hoping that each day would become productive.

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”



**This are the things that I want to say to Ian but I don't have the courage to do so because I am afraid that this might end up our friendship.



I'm also afraid to face the truth that Ian would only reject my feelings towards him.

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Silverhawk
20:58 May 15 2010

Nothing ventured...nothing gained. If you feel so strongly, you should at least let him know you care deeply for him, but if not...then as you say..you will never know. Never fear living your life to the fullest potential and going for all that your heart desires most!

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satiah
06:26 Jun 01 2010

@ Silverhawk: I guess your right but it's probably too late for me to do that... Anyway, thanks for the advice...

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Gomapseumnida / Komapseumnida (Thank You – 2nd Track)

Singer: Hun



tangshinun paboneyo

chongmal komapseumnida

na hanabakke morugo

akkimobshi ta chun saram

tangshinun chonsaneyo

ttaerol him-deul-go chichiltende

amugotdo bolkodomnun saramul

pyonhamobshi midochuneyo



isanghajyo kudaen nunmul-sae-mi omnapwayo

apado nalwi-hyae nurusojuneyu

kudae gyoteso



nan haengbokhaeso uneyo

mok kkute cha-in-nun ku mal

chongmal sarang-hamnida

pyo-hyon-do motharun mon-nan nae sarang

ijesoya marhaneyu nan

kudae-isso sarakajyu



isanghajyo kudaen nunmul-sae-mi omnapwayo

apado nalwi-hyae nurusojuneyu

kudae gyoteso



nan nomuna haengbo-khan-saram

hae-malknun kudae-misonun

narul pi-chwo-chu-neyo

mon hunnal sesangi dahanda-hae-do

itji-malgo giokhae-sho-yo

kudaegyote na issumul



nan haengbokhaeso uneyo

mok kkute cha-in-nun ku mal

chongmal sarang-hamnida

pyo-hyon-do motharun mon-nan nae sarang

ijesoya marhaneyu nan

kudae-isso sarakajyu





ENGLISH TRANSLATION:



Thank you (Singer: Hun)



You’re a fool

I truly thank you

You’re true to me and

Gave me everything

You’re an angel

You must be tired and find it hard

To everlastingly believe in someone

Who is a nobody



Strange, it’s like you’re devoid of tears

You smile for me in illness

When I’m next to you



I cry tears of happiness

Words are stuck in my throat

I truly love you

My love for you, which I cannot express

I can finally tell you

I go on because of you



Strange, it’s like you’re devoid of tears

You smile for me in illness

When I’m next to you



I’m feeling very happy

Your smile

Shines on me

A long time from now, when the world ends

Remember, Do not forget

I’m always with you



I cry tears of happiness

Words are stuck in my throat

I truly love you

My love for you, which I cannot express

I can finally tell you

I go on because of you



**https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aweUNZiaK0



**This song is from the korean drama series "Thank You (고맙습니다)". The story is about Dr. Min Ki Seo who went to Blue Island to fulfill his deceased girlfriend's last wish to find the single mother and her little girl who was infected by HIV and to apologize to them on her behalf as she had unknowingly given the girl tainted blood when she was being treated at the hospital. Lee Young Shin, the single mom, was having a hard time caring for her grandfather who has Alzeimer's and keeping her daughter's HIV condition a secret while teaching her how to live with it. Min Ki Seo was an arrogant person who looked down on people and in meeting Lee Young Shin who accepted her fate and tried to make the best of it despite all odds, he slowly changed for the better and became a warm and caring person.



**I love this. Everytime I hear this song, funny as it is, but it always makes me wanna cry.

The slow, soft melody and its lyrics is so beautiful that I kept on playing it on my mp3.



The singer sings this full of sincerity and passion.



Definitely, this is one of my favorites.

Its tuesday today so I went to my aunt's house because aerobics class with the senior citizens are always being held at the covered court of their subdivision every tuesday and saturday.



If I have time I always join the aerobics class. That is, if I don't wake up late 'coz the class starts at 7 o'clock in the morning.



The aerobics class is something that I look forward to every week because its fun and its also good for the body. Though, I was really exhausted after the whole session because the weather here is so hot...sheeesh!

Not Like The Movies (sung by KC Concepcion)



I’m your average dreamer, I’m a true escapist

Always expecting a happy ending

Maybe I’ve been watching too many movies



Maybe I should grow up and stop pretending

When I saw your face thou, everything was slow mo

And I started wondering why..?…



Why can’t it be?

Just a pathway with full of roses

Leading to a sunset view

With the one you’ve always dreamed of great



Why can’t it be?

It was like a movie scene, the way I felt for you

Only you didn’t fall, now it’s not like the movies at all

(…not like the movies at all..)



Should I kept my heart charged

Should have been more patient

Should I kept deny on my addiction



What was I expecting

Did I have a vision of a scene

That only lived in fiction



Now I know that you are not gonna be my co-star?

And it starts to wonder why...



** Watch KC's "Not Like The Movies" music video

on youtube:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqXMi9WlqyI



** I love this song. I like the melody most especially its lyrics. I could really relate to the song. As a kid, I always believe that life is like a fairytale and until now, I stick to my belief that someday I could have my own happily ever after just like in the movies...



Though there are circumstances at present, that things don't turn out the way that I wanted it to be. I'm just thankful that I am surrounded with people who always gives me words of encouragement that helps me to keep going and telling me not to stop "believing in what they call MIRACLE."

I think Ian is avoiding me... Usually, he would open his facebook account around 11:30am until 2:00pm.



But this past few days, he doesn't do it anymore. I think it was my fault. Maybe he got annoyed... Its sad, because I really like him but just when I thought that he would feel the same, something would happen that would only proves that he won't really like me in a way that I like him.

I was looking for a real vampire chat room but unfortunately, I didn't find one and I'm not sure if there really is one. Until I got into the vampire rave site. I signed up because I find it kinda different as compared to other social networking site.



Anyways, I feel sentimental today. I'm bored and have nothing else to do. I try not to worry about my future but as days passes by I can't help but to be nervous and scared of what will I become someday...will I be the person that I really wanted to be?