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You know I'm proud that I've only ever been dedicated with my work.
My work ethics have always been strong...I've only have ever worked,
never a time in the last 29 years have I NOT worked.
Holding down usually 3 jobs of various roles usually at all times
Nursing is one of the most rewarding careers there is
From a business owner, to Head Nurse on a Nursing Unit...is
a great accomplishment...HANDS down the BEST JOB
is a MOTHER.
Raising MY CHILDREN, being there for them 24-7 and PROUD I am
still there for them every second I can be. OH and they want me to
be and they know how much I love them, and would do AND HAVE DONE
anything for them
Tonight I heard giggling coming from behind me...
My 2 babies were standing watching me, well laughing.
I asked them what was so funny, they both said...
"Our mommy loves us"
When I replied with yes...TOO MUCH sometimes. (Kidding)
I was taking the tails off the shrimp I was cooking for them
and I had my nursing disposable gloves on while I was
ripping apart these little gross critters that were hot covered in
garlic / butter. You see, I HATE seafood...however I never
passed on my hatred for seafood to my children, I always cooked it
for them regardless if my stomach felt like up chucking the entire time
(Gloves keeps the smell off my fingers, even after washing my hands 100 x's
I can still smell the seafood)
So them I dumped the now tailless shrimp into the 4 cheese tortellini I had waiting
so they could enjoy seafood pasta.
I however enjoyed just the pasta..no shrimp for this momma.
you have always been an amazing woman.your work ethic is by far second to none.
They should consider themselves lucky to have someone so dedicated.I have know you for a very long time and I know how loving a mother you are as well.
You should be very proud of all you have accomplished in life..in your job..in everything you have done.Congrats on being a modern day super woman
amd a true Queen.
So I've actually taken the time to read about the changes to Photobucket..
So in order for the "links" to work within this site (3rd party hosting) the highest "pkg"
will need to be purchased.
So I don't need the site for "storage" options...
I'm currently only using 0.4 GB (2.3 GB) however I will REQUIRE 3rd party hosting.
So the account/plan I would need to purchase is the following:
PLUS 500
502.3 GB Storage
$39.99 / month
Billed Annually
= $399.99 / YR
Are you fucking NUTS PB?
Websites don't even cost a fraction of that to host and buy your own domain
however you're jumping from a "free" service to $399.99 Year.
Well Cancer does have the option here within our "premium" memberships to store photos...
So I'm not sure how large that storage is here within VR, but that might be a more useful feature now that PB is being what I feel a little unreasonable.
I also feel that there will be more sites like PB that will be 'popping' up...to snag all the disgruntled PB users!
Thats an idea.... I guess I have to learn how to use the storage option here on VR. Thank You Sis for the advise on this. I was irritated when I saw my profile.
Waking up..reading, seeing all the damage and out of control fires in my province, is just disheartening.
Really puts things into prospective just how quickly your "world" can be taken.
Here I feel selfish...thinking about my life as of late, well when families are losing their world.
Simply - life's not fair.
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Lately however I have a lot to smile about...
Ridding toxic negative energy is so rewarding on MANY different levels
What toxic energy?
Relationships...in whatever form you have them.
This for me was my work relationship.
I've recently stepped back from a toxic friendship that was hard, yet VERY required.
TOXIC was an understatement.
Work + friendship = HARD when a position of 'power' gets taken advantage of
I have a true friend that has NO ulterior motives, just a positive voice...that is educated,
successful business owner someone I've known for a very long time that
I would share some of this toxicity with.
When I would share I'd hear him saying to me MANY times "know your worth"...
I would start to say something else, when he'd lean forward to me, saying you're not listening to me...
"know your worth"
A positive reinforcement was what I was obviously lacking and needing.
When I started to be open and sharing the things that bothered me,
to the people that NEEDED to hear them,
shit started to really change for me. I had always been honest in what I didn't like &
called them on their bullshit. I would also ALWAYS present the
concern WITH a suggestion to improve. Concrete things, not personality but perfectly concrete concerns.
NOT just say 'bullshit' or ' I don't like that" but most days fell on deaf ears,
till the day it SUNK in to the person that needed to hear it.
A lot has happened in the last few months
A lot that caused heart ache + pain
A lot to smile about in the same breath
I'm happy, and I mean really HAPPY
I can enjoy doing what I'm doing without this 'apprehensive' feeling -
THIS IS AN GREAT FEELING
I'm grateful that I was heard, that I AM heard
I'm grateful that I was valued, that I AM valued
I'm grateful that I didn't bail, and truly stuck this out.
Being validated is a "reward" I will graciously take.
Work is VERY different lately
Walking into the office and seeing your new shiny name plaque on the door
is something that gives me goosebumps still to this day.
I'm learning everyday how to be better, truly learning from my mistakes.
Lord I've had countless ones over my years...but it's not the fall to focus on,
it's the getting back up improving what you've done to better it.
There's nothing like before you even start the day/conversation with a lump
in your throat just knowing/waiting for the shit storm to repeat.
I've been there more times then I can count, until now.
Life's about learning lessons, that I am still 250% learning.
Thank you to the handful of friends that have in-boxed me asking if I am effected by the fires
within my province and who actually give a shit about REAL LIFE situations.
Not the latest fucking video game(s) or who misses who,
or what passive aggressive person makes yet another journal entry.
It means A LOT to me...
Funny thing about people & where THEIR priorities lie.
Are you being passive aggressive yourself for pointing out a behavior?
sanctimonious
holier-than-thou
self-satisfied
smug
priggish
complacent
pious
moralizing
preachy
superior
Time out of a 'toxic' place really sheds come clarity on said situation with a
good deep reflection
of said events
I love when someone has a "holier-than-thou" attitude of events or a situation...
It's really the lack of insight of the other side...with this fucking constant selfish response
For example: IF something is sitting somewhere and I
constantly "see" it... I am reminded of it
HOWEVER
Remove it from my sight...I WILL forget that is was there, eventually
But please let's see how you flip this you self righteous fuck
Of all the things i ever seen on vr journals, i think this is a first...... and the least expected thing i would of seen here lol ty for knocking me off my chair.... lol :P
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