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I'm taking my mother to go look at fancy dresses tomorrow for Logan's ex's wedding in November. It's a formal wedding, which apparently means floor length dresses. I've only been to a handful of weddings in my life, and none of them have required formal dress, so this is a somewhat uncharted territory for me. I've only done formal when I was in high school for dances, and that was like, two times. My senior prom I wore an outfit I got from the Ren Faire. And then, that was also nearly 20 years ago, so yeah. Safe to say this is not something I'm well versed in. I'm hoping I can find something nice. Unless we meet beforehand, this will be the first time I'll be meeting Mina's mother, and I would like to make a good impression, since I will be Mina's stepmother in the future, and we will be in each other's lives. I just hate shopping for clothing, especially for important events.
Brand new Cruxshadows music! I could literally see this playing at the wedding, maybe not a first dance, but definitely at the reception. I would walk to this, but the Cruxshadows has some other songs that would be more suitable for that if I wanted to go that route. But, I'm in love with this one.
Despite it not being an exciting weekend and not going anywhere outside of getting food, it was such a lovely weekend. I'm so happy I got to spend my birthday with the love of my life. Never underestimate time spent together with the person you love. Add a little 4 month old kitten to the mix, and it was just a good weekend. It's going to be weird going back to every other weekend, since I've spent the last three weekends in a row with him. This weekend on my own is gonna suck.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone who's wished me a happy birthday here. It's been a pretty nice day, despite Logan and I not really doing much. We got in some prime kitten cuddle time with Masque this morning, which is always nice. I got a lot of messages from family and friends, the best one was from Liz and the kids who left me a voicemail of them singing happy birthday. I'm going to treasure that one. Logan and I are gonna go out a little later and pick up a small cake for me, so that'll be nice. All-in-all, its been a good day. Nothing extravagant, but I don't need that. I get to spend time with my fiancé, which is all I really wanted. But, again, thank you to all of you. ❤️
Well, we finished Umbrella Academy and... Yeah... That wasn't good at all. It's really disappointing, as the first two seasons were really good, the third was passable, but this season was just bad. So bad. Logan predicted the ending like, one episode in, and it pretty much ruined all the rest of the episodes for him. None of it was a twist or a shock. I kinda wish they hadn't continued on from season three,because what we got just wasn't it. I'd say it's on Game of Thrones levels of bad, but I didn't mind the last seasons of Got. I minded this.
Logan is still testing positive for Covid, which isn't at all surprising, so it looks like my birthday weekend won't be anything spectacular. But, I do get to at least spend it with him, which is special in it's own right. I'm not worried about catching Covid again, as I'm sure there's a certain length of "immunity" and I literally just had it, but who knows. It's a risk I'm willing to take. This does mean we'll be confined to the house all weekend, but that's alright. We'll have snacks, and Masque, and the hookah, and things to watch. There's also the pool if he feels up to it. So, it may not be a dinner out at some fancy restaurant, but at least, for the first time since we've been together, I'll get to celebrate my birthday with the person I love the most.
Sorry to hear, try en joy your birthday get well soon
07:41 Aug 09 2024 Times Read: 485
The newest season of Umbrella Academy... I don't really know how to feel about it. Logan and I watched the first three episodes tonight, and I'm just on the fence about it. I will say, it is a lot better than the last season was, though the bar for that was not at all high. I guess we'll see how it all ends tomorrow, but for now I'm just meh about it.
This is my truth. Believe whatever you want, I'm indifferent to all of it at this point.
Bottom up, as always.
immortalxkiss
Arch Sire (191)
MASTER VAMPIRE MENTOR
22:41 Aug 08 2024
Message To: vVReaperOfSoulsVv
You're going to believe whatever you want to believe, whether it's true or not. I'm over it at this point. This conversation is done. Have a good night.
06:36 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
I throw it back in you're face because you don't know when to quit to stop harassing me about being recruited the same goes for catelyn when I make a profile I'm not sorry you're covens are dead.
For that reason.
You always call me a liar what more do you want me to think of you a gift from god just because you have a MasterVampire Rave rank doesn't make you have more power then anyone else as you half to follow you're own rules not many people like you and catelyn and I already know why.
I've been told countless times to trust no one which means not you ever or catelyn ever.
Trust no one remember when I use to put that up as my kismet it wasn't for shits and giggles.
You just think so little of me with you're great power over me running a coven treating me like trash and everyone below you.
06:25 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
I don't team up on anyone, I don't ask anyone to do anything for me, nor do I do anything for anyone else. I operate on my own, always. It's not my job to ensure Cat, or anyone else, gets their way. I wasn't trying to have you join my team. I was trying to get your Adam profile so I could blind it in NR, as I did with your other two accounts. That didn't go my way, but such is life. I wasn't upset about it. As for allowing you to be active in the House, I was trying to give you an opportunity to change, like you tell me you want, only to have you revert back to your old habits. Why you're blind in my House is because of your own actions. I gave you another chance, even if you didn't deserve it.
You talk a lot about how I don't ask what's wrong or how I don't care. But as I said previously, I have tried, and every time I tried, you didn't take my advice, or you throw my kindness back in my face like it meant nothing. You need to take a good hard look at how you treat people. Treat people as you want to be treated. If you treat people like shit, you'll face the same in kind.
06:16 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
but you guys always claim I lie and make me out to be the bad guy all the time so you guys just have it coming to you as well for what you do.
Rather you like it or not that's just what I see coming from you and catelyn teaming up on me and other VR members when he or she don't get there way.
and trying to have me join you're team with her there never worked out ever since I joined the site if it never worked out then what makes you think it will work out now you just think we will all sit all cuddly in side one giant pot don't you just delusional when she constantly set me up and you both call me a liar all the time is just not how it works.
maybe you should change as well and her too.
instead of calling people liars maybe ask what the fuck is wrong for once.
and start giving a shit.
06:08 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
You can't control what anyone else does, only how you react. If you want someone to drop something or to not make journals, maybe you could do the same thing. VR is reactionary, one reaction breeds another. One journal brings about another and another. You talk about everyone else, but say nothing in regards to the things you've said about me. The many, many untrue things you post and say in messages. I've never claimed to be a perfect person, but I'm most definitely not the person you make me out to be in messages and in your journals.
06:03 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
They should of not copied my profile in the first place over one message relay.
And should of just dropped it.
And not even write a journal about it to cause more drama.
06:02 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
I've tried on several occasions to if not be your friend, to at least be friendly towards you, only to have you throw that back in my face. So, I'm indifferent when you talk about bullying and harassment. You've done more than your fair share to not just me, but to many other members here. You need to learn to take what you dish out, because people are not going to put up with your accusations and mistruths. If you don't like being attacked in return, maybe you shouldn't attack others. Just a thought.
05:56 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
well how would I have known if she didn't want to talk to tabby I was only relaying a very first message and told her thank you for responding I will tell him you no longer want any further contact then she went to far and copied my whole profile name so I thought it was you and cat because I know cat did that to me in the past and would get other members to join in like marcy.
its all the same old song and dance.
people say i'm lying when I'm telling the truth.
people say I'm a bully or the bully but they don't even bother asking whats really going on and why I'm mad making a profile of me after relaying a message was too far and now I wont ever stop attacking sabrina for that as I never copied her profile or anyone else's for such a long time since that one time. And that one time was it.
05:00 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
To be fair, you make unfounded accusations. I have never made or been involved with a profile that was made to poke fun at you. That's not my style. I'm not above using my own words, there is no need to go hiding behind anonymous profiles. You say I harass and bully you, when I don't do either of those things, either. I use the tools given to all members of VR, nothing more. So, I can see where someone would be comfortable saying you spread lies. Because you've spread plenty about me to members, your journal is proof enough of that. But, it is what it is, and I'm not going to sit here and tell you not to do it. Just do so knowing people see things you say in totally different lights.
As for all this Tabby stuff. I'd just leave her alone. It's a person's right to choose who they wish to have in their life, and you forcing Tabby on her is crossing a boundary she has set. If she doesn't want him in her life, you need to respect that and leave it be.
04:52 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
I just want cat out of the pitcher.
if I where able to get my coven back to work with it one day.
the mind jumbles back in forth.
I can't trust catelyn the same ever again.
She said my life doesn't matter.
But I say my life does matter and I do block her every where.
I've gone quite countless times.
Dray says I write lies but I don't write lies.
Just only merely standing up for my self and helping sarbeina n tabby because tabby loved her.
I wanted to fix the friend ship.
But sabriena kept not accepting.
The heavy weight is here again shadows sit on my bed then my arm was scratched by the door long time ago this site made fun of my abilities i tell the truth of.I really do see hear and smell I would not lie like the other pysics do.
Iwish I can show you in person with my eletronic device with a ram pod to show you they do go through me and that you half to touch the ram pod to go off to make it go off but then like
when I Was not touching it kept going off next to me when I moved my arm or legs and I feel something in me or on me near me. like i always do and I think its low on energy telling me its gonna come back to me showing me visions of the ram pod glowing green light like it did before.
Helping dead people and not charging the living money i just enjoy helping the living and dead together to give a message I dont like to be like TV i do it because I enjoy helping others.
04:45 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
If that's the case, the best advice I can give to you is simply to block her. Block her everywhere she has access to you. As for your Coven being disbanded by Cancer, that's a whole thing on its own, and honestly, at this point, it doesn't matter. What happened happened, there's no changing it. Constantly dwelling on the negatives is only going to make you feel negatively. VR isn't real, nothing here matters. Don't let it get to you.
04:40 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
I don't mind staying blind I just don't like it when people play games with me and I don't want to be unblind to see cats face ever again.
She very abusive.
I don't even want my coven back because catelyn spammed my coven allot.
I don't want to go through the abuse again digitally.
04:38 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
Again, the only advice I can really give you, is if you can't find common ground with all these people, maybe just ignoring them is the best course of action. No one can have a hold on you if you don't allow it. No one can get under your skin if you don't allow if. You can only control your own actions and how you respond to things. But you know this, because I've said it all to you before so many times over now.
As for being tossed around in other Societies, you have two accounts housed in Nocturnal Retribution, and those two accounts won't be going anywhere. So, you at least have that. They may stay blind, but I can assure you, they won't be traded out.
04:33 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
I just know there are allot of false things like false redumption when we all know catelyn started drama with me and my coven and thats how I lost my coven long time ago at this point I don't even want it back or no redumption because I dont want to deal with catelyn only if you heard on the phone with me and her in the call in the past to her and the other girl how they treated me so badly.
Hmmm Marcy I Remembered her just now.
They tried doing magic on me and shit with tarot cards.
saying I got the devils wings.
they don't even know me or the choices I would pick to protect my self.
I yelled at cat before to get away from me and my mom because I don't want to be friend from several years ago when we first met.
The bitch tried having other guys date me when me and her where dating she would always put other men on her profile but never really talked about me.
Now I know saberina is bisexual.
and attacks me for relaying a message like she could just totally drop it to and even if I did drop it all again like I did before several months back an didn't I got tossed back in forth in different covens because of catelyn.
04:27 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
The suspension has been removed.
As for everything else, I don't know what to tell you. I've told you time and time again to simply ignore those whom you don't like, but what you choose to do in the end is on you. I haven't done anything but try and uphold the ToS fairly with all members, I'm not trying to only signal you out. This suspension wasn't malicious, it was merely me enforcing the rules Cancer has placed on all of us as members of VR.
04:18 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
Yes I only live in the state but cancer has a world map for people to stalk on which detects the IP of the persons exact location on world map.
I fixed it.
I thought you where coming after me because I said first names but then I was like everyone says my first name.???????
and I Really don't trust cat.
Which I confess because she tried hacking to my moms email one time which I can't provide proof of and only witness to and tried asking me for my moms security question but I said IDK my mom is my mom idk what shall put and I not even gonna tell her any way and Dray keeps trying to cause drama because of sabriena and brought an admin in to rate me a 1.
I 'm attacking sarbinea because she had it coming for writing a journal about me and starting drama. with me first when I was only relaying message to which I did not know she did not want no contact of Tabby
With that being said I Was only relaying a message from him apologizing to people on the site But hey shoot the messager. Why don't she.
And have zero emapthy..))))
to steal my things I paid for and I said all my items are inside that little room and no where else and he tried making profit off of all my things but he didn't win my computer or xbox and stuff only stole my TVS and kept arguing that I owned him for next months rent when I was moving out before the date of next month.
His name is Tony and he is on Here on Vampire Rave still.
he taking in slaves and using them for sex but I left him when I lived with him because I didn't feel safe and he tried making me his sex slave he lied to me about the other women and his sex interest and such and his sexuality
when I told him the truth about mine.
04:11 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
Ah, okay. Anyway, when you removed his name, let me know and I'll lift the suspension.
04:09 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
I dont live in port huron so its okay.
04:08 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
First names are fine, if said member has allowed it. ToxicKitten has gone by Tony on VR, so I cannot say it's not allowed.
You might also want to remove the bit where you mention the town you live in. That's more for your own safety than anything else.
04:06 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
Ill go look I know I can say first names with out breaking tos.
03:46 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
File Attachment
That is his full name, taken directly from your own journal entry. That is a ToS violation. Once again, to get the suspension lifted, all you need to do is remove his name. Everything else is fine, but you cannot have his full name in your journal.
03:42 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
You need to re read the journal again.
I did not say his full name.
Re Read next time.
03:39 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) immortalxkiss wrote:
I'm not fighting with you on this. You clearly posted ToxicKitten's full name (first and last) in your journal. That is against ToS. All you have to do to get the suspension lifted is to remove his name. That's it.
I made that clear when I suspended your journal.
03:36 Aug 09 2024 (-0 GMT) vVReaperOfSoulsVv wrote:
You say my first name all the time and I say Tonys first name all the time because I know everyone's names almost on this site.
You are breaking you're own rules and stepping over you're line I reported it to cancer to deal with you.
I never had my name any where on my profiles and you guys used it just like how I said Tony first name but never his last name.
You only know my name because of catelyn which you have no proof of to provide to cancer with.
just like you say my moms name but she put it on her dashboard to let people know who she is because of catelyn if you're gonna have other admins attack me because of sarbina I will report that too
She responded some bullshit before I hit the block button. Her response is inconsequential in the grand scheme of things, she merely wanted the last word, and I don't play those stupid games.
Also, I blocked her on all but her main account because I'm just tired of her constant bullshit. The less I have to deal with all of it, the better. I'm not the first Admin to do so, and with the way she carries on, I'm sure I won't be the last.
02:03 Aug 09 2024 Times Read: 526
Covid and the headache that never quits. This is the one thing that I hate about Covid, the headaches. They always last forever and make doing anything extremely hard. And the fatigue has really stuck around this time too. I'm so tired, always so tired. I'm going to be so grateful when I'm finally over this illness and I can get back to feeling like me again.
Sorry you're sick, get better, never had covid so I cannot relate to the feelings you are going thru
09:46 Aug 07 2024 Times Read: 608
Talking to Logan tonight, he sounds horrible. I really hope he'll be better by Friday. I would hate to have ruined the possibility of us being able to celebrate my birthday together. This would have been the first year that we actually could, and now I'm unsure if it'll even happen. Stupid Covid.
Sorry you was sick, and him too. Praying he gets better.
05:58 Aug 07 2024 Times Read: 657
You can't help but spout lies and utter bullshit, can you? I'd say I'm surprised just how much you lie, blame everyone else for your problems, and otherwise constantly avoid taking any responsibility for your own actions, but I'm not. Not in the least. Everything bad that has ever happened to you is everyone else's fault, not yours. You are exactly who you have always been, and you have no desire to change for the better. It's just sad at this point.
But whatever. Certain people here just need to be the victim, they need to scream about harassment and abuse and how everyone is just so mean to them, refusing to look at the whole picture and see that maybe it's them. Say what you will, people know better. I'm tired of trying to counter the bullshit. If you want to make me out to be the bad guy, have at it. I don't care anymore. I'm not perfect by any means, but I'm not the person you paint me out to be. But honestly, the people who matter to me, whom I respect, know that. You? I neither respect you nor do you matter to me. So, carry on as you always have, as you always will.
Sad I am just getting back to reading journals after sickness, and I know who this is aimed at. Well...80% sure.
04:42 Aug 06 2024 Times Read: 707
Logan took a Covid test, because yesterday I was wondering if it could be, since I couldn't really taste or smell anything. And, welp, yeah, I have Covid and I gave it to him. I feel so bad, because we went out for food and to look at Halloween stuff... He said the test went positive pretty instantly, which means it's a high viral load so it's way easier to spread to others. God, I feel like a fucking horrible piece of shit. I should have just stayed home and isolated.
Still sick, but actually doing a bit better. Though... I did get Logan sick. But, such is the sacrifice we make to see each other when we can. It was a pretty lazy weekend, spent lots of time sleeping. With as hot as it's been, that was actually a nice thing. Stay inside in the dark with the air conditioner? Don't mind if I do. It was in the triple digits all weekend, and while we may be used to the SoCal summer, it still sucks and fuck being outside in that nonsense. It was a bit hard, though, since Masque got spayed last Tuesday, so she was locked away in the bathroom by herself. We kept trying to bring her out to cuddle with us, but no, she had to go and be crazy every time we tried. I don't mind her being the kitten she is, but she needs to relax for a few weeks so she can heal up properly. The only time she actually slept with us, was today when we were watching the season finale of House of the Dragon. Hopefully next weekend she'll be more or less all healed up so she can be her normal self again. But god damn, that girl can throw a fit when she gets locked away in the bathroom alone. She tore things up all weekend. With both of us getting sick this weekend, hopefully my birthday weekend we'll be healthy again.
I managed to get myself sick. My mother caught something from the kids when she watched them last weekend, and I've caught whatever she had. I am thankful it's this weekend and not next, it would suck to be sick on my birthday with Logan. As it is, right now it's just an itch in my throat. I've been drinking tons of water and hot lemon tea, in the hopes to try and kill it before it gets too bad, but we shall see if my efforts were futile. If I feel worse than I do now tomorrow, I may skip on this weekend with Logan. I don't need to go and get him sick, possibly messing up his work schedule.
Try upping your vitamin c and zinc intake... Or well... research that first and make sure that is ok with your needs and works with any sort of medications you may be taking.
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