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Lost
21:57 Jul 13 2011
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So I woke up this morning not in a great mood at all. You would think that I would be happy having a new house that I'm fixing to move into and happy that I have a great family... right? Well, it's wrong.

I woke up crying because I realize how much everything has fallen apart. I'm 27 and have an 8 year old son by a man who never loved me. It was all fake to him. I gave him almost 4 of my best years and he traded me for my very best friend. The girl I told all my secrets too... the girl I have spent every summer with since we were in 2nd grade. He left me and the baby he created to run off with her! It hurts me every day. It has for 8 years. I was told he was even seeing her while I was pregnant.

I have tried to move on and to let go.. but guess what... today I just can't! Today I want to scream and drink and just do whatever I can to reverse all the hurt I have. But I know deep down inside that I can't. Nothing will ever change the events that have happened in my life. Nothing! There is absolutely nothing that will ever be able to fill those holes... and it sucks so bad!!!!

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A New Day
07:12 Jul 07 2011
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Today was a new day for me. It was the start of something better for my life, for my soul, and for my future.

I love all the new friends I have made here on VR. Although there was a challenge within the past 24 hours, I have conquered through it! It actually only made me that much stronger.

I hate that people feel the need to be childish and act like they are supreme ruler over everyone else. I guess that is part of life though. In my world, though, karma is also present. So I encourage everyone reading this to think before you make actions that could hurt others in the end. I understand it happens sometimes, but if it was not intentional, make it right with the person!

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