00:15 Sep 07 2024
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Hello journal. Now that I have a laptop, with a keyboard, I want to write again. How I missed you.
But then I sit here and wonder what I shall write about?
My life at this time is very .... boring. As caregiver to two family members the days just run together it seems. One day of the two I get to stay home is taken up with housework. Not that I have a large home to clean, but more like the lazy way of working for 15 to 20 minutes, then rest for an hour. Been known to watch a movie between the normal of vacuuming, mopping, dusting, cleaning the bathrooms, laundry, doing the dishes that piled up all week. This leave the one day to be total lazy. A self-care day if you will.
You would think, since I am not married and have no kids, I could do some of these duties after the day of caregiving but when you spend the day cooking, doing laundry, bathing people, dealing with one who is mentally handicapped, all I wish to do when I get home is rest. Maybe cook, thus the piled-up dishes. Do something to release the stress. Craft, tv or movie, reading. It is not putting my hand on a toilet brush and start cleaning.
Some weeks the normal routine- on top of all the normal laundry and cooking, cleaning I have set days to do certain things as it helps my brother with his mentality. Monday and Thursday is his shower day. As someone who hates to take showers that usually turns into a three hour battle of out waiting him, nagging, and even using the MOM voice that I hate to us. Then Wednesday is homestead house cleaning day. Friday is cooking day to make meals for the weekend, to keep me from having to come back down unless something else happens.
There is a reason I never had kids. My brother is older- in his 70's. But the whole family had a hand on taking care of him. The old saying of "take a village to raise a child" was and is very true for my family. And I am sure one of the many reasons I never desired to have a child. When you raised one all your life you really rethink about having your own. As my parents started, owned and ran several successful businesses- we all got called into the raising of my brother. And I can remember at the age of 16 meeting a friend's child of my sister. He was 6 years old and would not sit still at the restaurant we had meet to eat lunch at. To this day she and he both can recall me giving him a stern look as she told him to be still for the 100th time- You are the reason they make birth control.
I still hold to that today. Thing is the older I get- the wider range of ages are moving into that classification. Not just kids piss me off these days. Reason might be I rarely go out into the 'world' anymore, and all my hobbies, crafts, joys are solo ones.
So not much of a day to day journal it seems. Different day- same crap seems to fit my life of late.
COMMENTS
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STABB666
17:38 Sep 19 2024
I wish I could believe that it's all going to be ok, but I'm hoping for the asteroid tbh.
Earthgrinder
18:38 Sep 19 2024
Indeed perhaps you should gaze upon you visage in your mirror. Oh that's right you don't have one since you are Vampirewich39. You are setting a terrible example and should be ashamed. I certainly am.