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Beltane honours Life. It represents the peak of Spring and the beginning of Summer. Earth energies are at their strongest and most active. All of life is bursting with potent fertility and at this point in the Wheel of the Year, the potential becomes conception. On May Eve the sexuality of life and the earth is at its peak. Abundant ...
Friday night did ritual, for the year!


Went Saturday, for Full moon ritual, got rid of the x-husband, and going stag this year. Yup, my Beltane Staff is Girlie Once more with pink, blue, purple, yellow, and lots of roses, that are now dried, applied to it. Added a few wild flowers where I was sitting. But, it looks like City Park is out of the question, next year. My favorite spot, where the bridge is, and running water, and benches are, are now gone. They are putting a children museum there.... so, much for the park!

As, I was tying in for the ribbon enforcing the year, some darker people were watching me. Didn't do the ending circle as I would normally do, had to adjust for the audience. Someone had left a straight long staff that would have been great. But, I really didn't need a big one like that. And, there was a spot that had sparklies, already, so I sat there. This year will be better, weather wise, promise. Lol, my poor sister. Won't be dropping the rose in the water, this year, seeing that they have dug it up and it is gone, awwwwwww. So, I will add a rose to my staff, occasionally, throughout the year, as a thanks.

That night I called Carl Jung, my favorite energy lately in. Was something about a life raff, which it looks like on his book, and a circle with his name next to it.

That morn, there was a dead mousie on the floor. It ran into my cats, didn't hear the episode, and he was stiff when I found him. So, I drew him in my journal, like the other dead lizard I found, and gave him a burial. Told cats, that they shouldn't hurt the mousy, but you know how that is.

That night, After call Carl, I had a Carl dream, I had two cats with me in this place where there was students, the arab was the professor, he was talking to them, but, cut me off when I tried to tell him something about, Time Traveling physically. Meanwhile, I went to find two other cats. One that I miss, ever since the fleas, he hasn't slept with me. And Hartz did not help much. So, I went around looking for him Found a woman that wanted to start a fight with me, but, she changed her cloths. Then there was another woman at the same time that I had to deal with. I left that scene and kept looking. Came up to a door, that had a lot of cows in it. Mon Dieu, Moooiing. I looked into the crack and no cat.... moved on....

Then as I still looked, I remembered that the cat was with me at home, and that he just didn't want to lay with me at night right now. LOL. This is the first dream, that I am sure Carl Jung would love.

Meanwhile, the Arab, came in with me and Carl. He showed a disk with a 1 on it. Carl told him see now, that isn't true is it. You have to leave her alone, and so on.....
Then at another meeting, with the arab, he used it like a hypnosis charm, warning him.

Carl said that I would have to put over me, like the dream state in material to travel. When the Arab approached he said that that probably would kill me and that it wasn't a good Idea to try.

I appreciate Carl, wish it wasn't just his energy, but him.

Meanwhile, ankle still hurts but almost there, looked at job search, nothing! Dead weekend, due to Jazz Fest.

Still waiting for check from animal place....

Edwardo, made a comment this morning referring to darkness leaving and light coming in, like in Indiana Jones, to Nemo.

Meghan Trainor - No Excuses

Official) Despicable Me 3 - Music Video "HandClap" by Fitz & The Tantrums
Saw the Component last night. Guess he wanted to see the Church. Everybody, wants to see the Church. LOL He Touched the cross a few times, while I was there. Then kissed the bottom after I left. Sweet. No playing with this one! I have no hatred towards that sect. (Was done when I was partially awake, not as much visibility.)

Don't ask me why oh why I still have the SH look. Mon Dieu! Maybe he will be included someday. Not SH, that is, unless he had a brain surgery, wouldn't put it past him!

Found the best drug at Family Dollar. It is generic, next to Aleve. Wow Great Stuff. Only a dollar. Was in infection pain. One Scab left. Yeah! It is labeled all day, yeah.

Did two apps, talked to two temps jobs.....

TODAY - Thursday, April 26, 2018

The Moon today is in a Waxing Gibbous phase. This phase is when the moon is more than 50% illuminated but not yet a Full Moon. The phase lasts round 7 days with the moon becoming more illuminated each day until the Full Moon. During a Waxing Gibbous the moon will rise in the east in mid-afternoon and will be high in the eastern sky at sunset. The moon is then visible though most of the night sky setting a few hour before sunrise. The word Gibbous first appeared in the 14th century and has its roots in the Latin word "gibbosus" meaning humpbacked.

Anytime now.

Ok my last future husband song was a little extreme, but lets see, had the tiny figure performer, lets not forget his meal, the guy that kept conking out, although he no longer exists, and Nemo. Pretty close. LOL

Trying to stay away from food jobs. Mon Dieu. Not much else!

To the police officer who did the Joker car scene with me.... this song is for you, luckily, no marriage, don't think you have a coven anyway. Stay sweet and young! Hate tampering with perfection!

Fitz and the Tantrums - HandClap [Official Video]


Well, I have the ribbon, need the mini staff. I love being Stag! Hmmmmm time for the rose!
.TODAY - Wednesday, April 25, 2018

The Moon today is in a Waxing Gibbous phase. This phase is when the moon is more than 50% illuminated but not yet a Full Moon. The phase lasts round 7 days with the moon becoming more illuminated each day until the Full Moon. During a Waxing Gibbous the moon will rise in the east in mid-afternoon and will be high in the eastern sky at sunset. The moon is then visible though most of the night sky setting a few hour before sunrise. The word Gibbous first appeared in the 14th century and has its roots in the Latin word "gibbosus" meaning humpbacked.

Mon Dieu, really need to find a PAYING JOB, RIGHT NOW!

This is for today: I had an interview, I think I put the wrong date, was sort of all of a sudden. Wonderful product, very artistic, would love to make it. But, isn't for maybe two weeks. Will take one that is offered sooner. Not going to lie. Beautiful, nice girl, though.

Here is your daily Tarot mini-forecast for Tuesday, Apr. 24, 2018.

For tomorrow, the card I drew for you is: Queen of Swords (reversed)

Tomorrow’s Overview:
Communication and dealing with others will be somewhat challenging due to a distinctive feeling of being inferior. You should seek ways to conquer this wrongful notion, by proving you are intelligent, quick-witted and sharp-minded person. Just make sure you’re not going to the other extreme, because there is a risk of becoming too cynical, judgmental and cold. Think before you speak, if you don’t want to offend or hurt somebody. Since you are going to be especially argumentative and not so sensitive, it would be reasonable to tune down a little bit of your straightforwardness. There’s also the chance to feel angry or resentful towards someone who hurt you or made you feel bad about yourself. The behavior of this person is in no way an excuse to adopt their approach and cause additional pain and grief, just to make things even. Try to be the bigger person in this situation and just discontinue the relationship with them if you think it’s not doing you any good.


This is probably, what I am dealing with... with my lawyer. But, ....
Another possible scenario is a forthcoming event or duty that makes you feel uneasy and unsure of your own abilities. It’s possible that you’ll be highly emotional and as a result you can grow even more nervous about this. Whatever you might be experiencing inside, just make sure you don’t show it. The chances are you’re going to do great, but you have to bring your poker face and don’t let other people know how you really feel. Be the best and most rational version of yourself and leave emotions for later on, when you are alone.

Tomorrow:


Here is your daily Tarot mini-forecast for Wednesday, Apr. 25, 2018.

For tomorrow, the card I drew for you is: Two of Pentacles (reversed)

Tomorrow’s Overview:

There will be a certain need for decision-making and separating the wheat from the chaff. As you have limited energy and time, the need to focus and choose one thing over another will be more pressing now. It’s possible that you’re reaching the end of your energy and patience for meaningless relationships or jobs, and you will find yourself leaving one thing to the benefit of the other. If you’ve been working and studying at the same time, you may start to feel exhausted as the balance between the two will become harder and harder. Similarly, if you have two or several part-time jobs, you should pick the one that resonates with you the most and then push for a better, full-time position. The time has come to choose between those two and decide what is more important to you, otherwise you risk losing them both. If you need a hand in your decision making, allow the cards to reveal your Life Purpose, and help you steer towards the path you are destined to take.


In your personal life you just won’t have the time and patience for childish games and on and off relationships. You will want to get rid of everything that leaves no room for growth. If you have been in a nonexclusive relationship for a while, it’s time to decide if you want to commit or not. If the problem comes from your partner, make them realize that at this point it’s all or nothing. Don’t settle down for halfway measures, because they will only drain your energy and leave you with nothing in the end.

Meanwhile, I decided to do a mini staff, connection. Just need to tie the ribbon to the staff for the year. It is all in the connection, anyway. This is for the May First ritual. Just me and the elements. Elements, being.... My God! The timing, I'm not sure of. Full moon, this or new moon next.

Meghan Trainor - Dear Future Husband

Oh, my god, I have gone through the worst week ever. Tried to dry out my ankle, and did. Yesterday someone made a commit about the scab, so I cut it partially off, what a mess, looked like I got caught in a bear trap. Leg is working well. Just a little sore! Ankle is getting there!

But, I had to get my drivers license renewal, job had not paid so I expired. Then when I did get a little pay, I had to go. First day, eyes were all puffy red, especially the right. So that day couldn't, even with drops and lots of over the counter drugs for infection. Next day bought different drops, and counter drugs and lots of coffee. Got there, and lovely lady got me through eye exam, yeah! Now I got to get a new job. Didn't get paid from the animal one, either. And my new license has a horrible red eye. Lord.

Had to clean for inspection, lord, what a clean-up I had to do. Went through roach areas, and mold. (Talk about mold, this place smells mold bad, where I am typing.) Used Too much pesticides, and chemiecals. But, I'm up! Went and got better flip flops and shoes so that I don't lose my leg again, on uneven ground. And looking for interviews. Truthfully, without a license, wouldn't have gotten anything.

Cats, I had to buy flea stuff for, someone brought them into the building. Mon Dieu. Poor babies.

Well, May first is come.... Yeah, single AGAIN! NO MARRIAGE this May Day!
Pharrell Williams - Happy (Video)

April 23
Waxing Gibbous
Illumination: 57%

ALMOST TIME! JUST ME AND THEE! Meghan Trainor - Me Too

No news today. Maybe good news.... just moving ahead!

Just Me and Carl Jung!

Number one, never put antiseptic on infected water blisters. Hurts a lot more. And the ankle gets too stiff. But, the infection is almost gone. I could put my contacts in. But, still can see pain on face.

Last job, that I almost died for, decided not to pay me. Worse, gave a document that had my name signed on, wrongly, so had to seek professional help.

Talked to sister, what horrible weather we all have had. At, least me being alone, this year, no marriage, I guarantee better weather. And maybe a little astral fun, with the Darth Vadar movie. CAN'T STOP THE FEELING! (From DreamWorks Animation's "Trolls") (Official Video)

Now looking for the next, hopefully, honest job. I'm honest!

Read a new book, regarding Carl Jung, mentioned Abraxas, Jeruselum. Didn't feel if he really would approve.

But, the book: J95d Dream interpretation ancient and modern : notes from the seminar given in 1936-1941 : reports by seminar members with discussions of dream series, is Awesome.

I liked how he talks about, a cone shaped vessel that the spirit travels through, and the two circles. One called a god, and the other man. REMINDS ME OF STONEHENGE. THE TWO CIRCLES A WAY IN AND A WAY OUT. SWEET. TO BAD HE IS NOT REALLY ALIVE TODAY. HIS STUFF IS SO SIMILAR. RESPECT.

Ankle is sooooooo bad. What to do, what to do. If I put sneakers on, they cut into below ankle. All of the water blisters, got infected. Thinking Epson Salt. HMmmmmm. Must remember never to take vitamins ever again. On the dark of the moon, could do something with the taking away effect.

Mon Dieu, another company, that did not pay me! Phonied up a document. Will I ever get a Good job! Mon Dieu.

Been in so much pain, that I didn't even give back the cloths to the company, I love! LOL. Have to clean the two shirts, and bring them back Monday.

So, need to do a spell.

Well, am sort of out of my drug deluge. Lets see, that first day, took 2 packets in the first, aleve in the second, someone gave me a hand full in the third and Gary gave me a hand full at work. Next day, just Aleve. Following, Aleve. Now nothing. Ate a cold burrito in Walmart, while shopping for pet supplies. lol. Still drying out.

I can't believe that it has been almost a year. Wasn't even thinking of it. My marriage with SH, kind of went sour. Maybe, I should be playing the death march not this: Wedding March Dark Version by U.N.P

It looks like that I will not be marrying this May First. LOL. I'm sure there are a few men that will appreciate that. I threw the old marriage branch out yesterday. Awwwww SH. Maybe that is why it snapped. And the spell starts to dissipate at the end of the year.

Chopin: Funeral March (arr. as "Final Count" by Kevin MacLeod)

This year, there will be no male to tap in, so maybe I should use this song:


Star Wars- The Imperial March (Darth Vader's Theme) LOL Just me and the above!!!!

Star Wars - Imperial March Soundtrack [Dark Version]

YUP MAY FIRST IS ALMOST UPON US....

Man O' Man, so much to say in my hidden journal!

Ok, in my other journal, lol, just like Carl Jung....

I may have mentioned about a unconscious. That being: I saw a short man in the dark, looked like he had light hair, he said that the redhead was sliding off the benches, and that the guy (that to me, had a unique hair cut) was brain washed.

At first I thought that it was K. But, no. It was the opposing team at the Air place, where I worked. Odd. The girl that worked for them had pretty real red hair. The guy, after a thinking about it, does look like that guy I talked to, who is also, on the opposing team. By me saying opposing, I simply mean the group leaving. Very weird that I was being talked to by someone with that team.

Meanwhile, even though I heard that my foot would curl up by one of them....

Truthfully, I started with thin blood. I thought from the new Winn Dixie Vitamins. What happened one night, you know how sometimes you get those little under the skin abrasions. Well, they, I only had to, got itchy, and I scratched a little and they started to bleed fast down my check. I thought that was good, because the vitamins where cleaning out my skin.

Next came my period coming back, after a very long time. I think when I worked for the moving company I lost it. And I was so glad, because then, I had had a lot of flow. Now it was back, when I started working for the Air. Wasn't to happy. But, it was female vitamins, so I figured maybe that.

But, then my leg was giving me trouble, mostly on the right, but, then a little on the left. Was excruciating pain when I got up. But, was fine when I started walking. But, at that point, I stopped taking the vitamins.

Things went wrong at the Air place, not threw my fault, just something that I thought might happen after reading the dispatches on indeed.

Meanwhile, a job that I was dying for, started up. I was working two back to back, and one night I walked home, and two days later got up to find work pants, started running and heard ..... POP at the side of my knee..... Chicky went Down.....
Couldn't get the knee to strengthen enough, to go into the zoo job, was so sad. But, I did get it going enough for the one that followed. NO MORE VITAMANS. LOL. And I had these horrible water blisters on my ankles/lower shins. Ouch, like having a zip lock water bag, under the skin. Had to pin them. Mon Dieu. They look much better now. Probably, cuz on the first day, I relied on the knee brace, not on my knee. Truthfully, still wearing brace occasionally, just caution. Till what is in my blood system is completely out.

Well so much for the politically correct jobs!

LOL. Back to the politically incorrect. I might be Safer! You know how that song goes. "No Pain, No Gain" - "Sucker for Pain"

Maybe: (Believer - Altered carbon )