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forgiveness is a virtue,

that was not mine to give.

love is just a feeling,

that turns us into pigs.

I once could laugh at life,

I once could could feel no pain.

I once thought i was special,

but we are in fact the same.



death is not an answer,

it wont stop all my pain.

My hate could full an ocean,

like a coblet full of rain.

Its said i will get better,

that time and drugs will do the trick.

But when you feel rejected,

there is no such quick fix.



I spend my time here ranting,

telling stories of things to share.

I open up my brain here,

to people that just dont care.

I have friends who claim thier with me,

they say the have my back.

but in the end its all just bullshit,

lies that lack real facts.



so read this if your willing,

weighed down in mire and much.

but if you think i give a damn,

the truth is I dont give a fuck.

I look at all the things you do,

and all the things you say.

I wonder if all your mistakes,

are all my debtd to pay.

I shudder when i look at you,

and think of who you are.

I am scared to think I'm just like you,

I am an ending to where you start.

Off all the things in life I dread,

I dont fear, life or death of truth.

Instead te only think i fear,

is growing up to be like you.

you ask me to be happy,

for all the choices in your life.

you ask me to support you,

as mother and as wife.

you say you met your partner,

the man that makes life sweet.

you say you finnaly know the truth,

real love laid at your feet.

you want to get my blessings,

with me to share the news.

i dont see this as a good thing,

marriage is just abuse.

dont ask me to be happy,

to offer you some support.

instead I offer you a rope,

and a really speedy horse.

i offer you some poison,

i offer you no trick.

unlike the way your killing me,

i hope your death is quick.

fight the system,

fight the pain.

fight the people,

who are all the same.



In a world of all circles,

some of us are just squares.

In a world of detachment,

we all want someone to care.



In a world of ivory towers,

we forget all the slums.

In a world of celebs,

we are all just the bums.



fight the system,

fight the pain.

fight the people,

who are all the same.



Wake up in the mornig,

decide your own life.

Push back at the system,

fight for whats right.



The world isnt so stoic,

fixed on a path.

Its up to we people,

to raise hell, kick some ass.



fight the system,

fight the pain.

fight the people,

who are all the same.



fight the system,

fight the pain.

fight the people,

who are all the same.

the angels have all left heaven,

the devils not in hell.

the horrer is not in fiction,

its in the place i dwell.

as a boy my heart was open,

i loved and had my faith.

as a man I feel a vacum,

a stranger with a loved ones face.

I wish that i was younger,

that i was still that boy.

whose dreams still had some measure,

whose world was filled with toys.

I wish i had my faith back,

the know some safe belief.

Instead i feel the vacum,

and no peace when i fall asleep.

My pain was once my power,

its flow sustaning me.

my body was once my refuge,

in which i held belief.

But now my mind betrays me,

my thoughts are not my own.

I just done feel like i am myself,

that anywhere is my home.

If i listen really closely,

I can hear my own heart beat

But it doesnt matter how strong I am,

when i cant stand on my own two feet.

I cant think of any future,

I cant trust or believe.

I cant see the forrest for the trees,

I just dont feel like me.