Every night I’m lucky if I get an hour of sleep. Worst headache but I feel like my body is on overload. I need blood and sadly my ex’s are in New York. Also I’m trying not to consume blood. I’m biting my lower lip constantly and the inside of my cheeks are so cut up. When I get home I will look up somewhere to find donors in NYC or Long Island.
I love storms. I get so much energy from storms. I feel refreshed and ready to take on the world. Then again I should be driving up to New York today but since the roads are still not cleared I have to wait till tomorrow to drive up. It would be so much easier if I could develope flying abilities so I don’t have to deal with traffic of horrific drivers. On the bright side I finally get a day to rest.
So excited to finally go home and see my family. Haven’t been with them for a while. Also away from the hospital so won’t be near blood as much. I will try to control my energy absorption. Also need to find a mentor to help me get back into consuming blood. I’m hoping after these two weeks of leave I can come back stronger and refreshed.
Seeing all that blood makes me so thirsty. Why I always fight the urge I don’t know. I know I’m getting weaker and I feel like my body is slowly failing on me. It sucks when you feel so alone in this with no one around you to help. On a high note I only drained one coworkers energy today.
Taking a bath trying to will my energy out in to the water. Happy I’m going home so I can will my energy into my food I prepare for my family and friends. Usually drain pretty fast and able to sleep better. Good note whatever ailments my family and friends have usually go away. I know I should drink blood to sustain myself but even tho it is way more concentrated I feel bad afterwards and I feel weird afterwards. I need to find someone to show me the ropes. Also hate feeling death. I connected to my aunt before she died. I helped her pass from this life. I was sick for almost a week afterwards. I need blood but can’t seem to actually go through with it. I’m scared tho if I don’t drink blood I will drain someone to much. Made 2 of my coworkers sick today. Will try to control the draining.
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