woooo one step closer y'all I have my card I need to be able to do my name change on my ID. Keep rootin for your girl here . Finally some good things happening.
Trying to still figure out my living situation, but had to put some good stuff up
This is so good for me finally will be able to say I'm me without issues just need to hop over to the dmv to get that done and maybe actually get my license
Not sure but may have a solution to my rent problem.
wish me luck.
I'm letting myself go where I never have before.
This is in terms of a relationship. I'm finally exploring the things that make my heart move.
It's been amazing to not have to hold myself back in terms of sexual encounters.
I'm a slut plain and simple.
Still no update on being able to raise the money I need to pay my rent.
I'm disabled and now it looks like I'll be homeless.
I hate this.
My rent is due at the end of the week I won't get my ssi til the following. I think I'm screwed.
Dating is hard for me
Dating is hard for me in general. I never know what to say what to ask. I'm like a deer in headlights. Like oh someone wants to talk to me PANIC. Then it's a search of trying to find the right person for me. I'm just starting to explore my own sexual desires cuz frankly I've been afraid to. Also not 100% sure if I like certain kinks til I actually do them. So finding someone I can trust to not only help guide me, but trust to keep me feeling safe. Though I spend some time trying to get to know someone, I just end up ghosted. Maybe they are impatient with me idk.
Why does it have to be this hard?
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Ahhh I've always felt like this. I found it easier to go on dates to places where just talking isn't the main focus
The reality of me having to move to a smaller room and know that my ex will never walk in the door has kicked in.
My biggest fear is me being alone.
I was kidnapped and human trafficked when I was alone.
Stuff I don't even talk about what happened to me and why I'm so messed up and damaged goods.
Nothing ever goes right either i screw up or it's a toxic relationship.
I just can't win.
The move is on. I guess I have the weekend to move according to management.
It's going to be very exhausting.
I'm in polyam relationships but none of them live even close to me.
Being by yourself hurts though.
Just no one to really talk to and vent to
No one to help with the move.
I'm mentally drained.
I just want love
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My door is always open to vent fizbop. Just to listen if hats all you want
Packing is hard to do when you are packing by yourself.
Lifting things I shouldn't be my shoulder is begging for mercy.
I need more boxes don't have them but need them. Lots more to pack away. beds kitchen and finally desk
I wish I had some help.
I wish I could stop crying.
All I do is screw up
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Don't be so hard on yourself . Im sure with time you will heal your pain. I know how sad moving on is but things will get better just give yourself time
Moving is a new beginning....wishing the best
Things will eventually get better, change can be good, you just have to find the good :)
I'm just scared.
I feel like a fuckup.
A screw up.
worthless
pointless.
unattractive.
It's hard to get reassurance
I don't know what the future holds.
I'm scared that I won't make it.
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we all are that way hang in there, you'll do great
-big hugs-
Everything will be ok, you will make it, we all have your back on here
you are not any of those never give up hugs your loved
So my former partner just turned in her key to the room.
Now they will be moving me out of this room into a smaller room
Not what I was planing not sure what will happen as of right now..
Just had my ultrasound will know in about 3 business days the results.
maybe longer cuz still trying to get an appointment w/my primary doc so they can discuss the results.
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Good luck hate the wait is more stressful than anything hang in there
Praying all is well. Good luck.
The wait is always the worst, stay strong, we are all here for you :)
Upcoming Appointment
I'm getting an ultrasound done for a possible cancer on friday.
I haven't said anything about this because I also have a colonoscopy at the end of the month. 01/31/2024
I'll keep you updated on my cancer status.
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Blessings to you
Positive energy.
All the positive vibes coming your way Fiz.
I hope everything comes back ok, i really do! Positive energy
here's hopeing i find love that will last.
i thought i had it but it wasn't what I had thought.
In the end it's time for me to move on
last years things now move apart.
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