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I'm not sure how I feel about this one

"Who are you on the inside?"

Unpredictable.

You are upbeat, but that can be disrupted by a sudden storm and leave you feeling down. You mostly prefer to be alone. In your eyes there is nothing wrong ...with you... if the rest of the world can't understand you, then that is their own problem. They all have a hard time reading you, and you have no time or patience to let them decipher you. You have a strong spirit and try not to let others bring you down, though it's hard at times because you're not as tough as your exterior leads people to believe. Despite this and your frustration in others' ignorance, you are beautifully talented person with a great personality. Those who know you well, know this. You tend to hang with the 'creative' type of people who feel the same as you do. .

There are days like today where I wonder what the hell is the point of my life and living? I am so fucking tired of certain things. Just got to tell myself to hang in there and things will get better...they always do



Not that I would ever take my own life...but just one of those things that if I died in an accident how would I be remembered? And would people who say that I matter to them really mourn me?



I don't know...I have the power to change what is going on and what is making me feel like this...I just do nothing because if I did it would help me but hurt so many others...damn me for caring so much about my family

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Fallenxx
03:54 Sep 24 2009

I understand exactly what you mean hun..i have had days like this myself.

I definitely think you would have alot of mourners..me for one!!

You are a dear friend..always there when i need you,with a kind word or a shoulder to cry on..you mean the world to me.

Do what meakes you happy hun..because in the end..thats all that matters.

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So i randomly checked my horosocpes the other day and decided it would be fun to post it in my journal with notes of what I thought of the day...most of the time I don't see the horoscope til I post at night so we shall see how accurate the horoscope is gonna be...



I have a feeling this is gonna be interesting



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Date Visits Time Spent

09-21-09 324 2 hours, 25 minutes, 36 seconds.

09-20-09 692 4 hours, 25 minutes, 36 seconds.

09-19-09 353 2 hours, 12 minutes, 37 seconds.

09-18-09 410 1 hour, 34 minutes, 4 seconds.

09-17-09 527 2 hours, 6 minutes, 34 seconds.

09-16-09 673 3 hours, 27 minutes, 8 seconds.

09-15-09 67 20 minutes, 21 seconds.

09-14-09 103 36 minutes, 41 seconds.

09-13-09 205 1 hour, 0 minutes, 30 seconds.

09-12-09 553 2 hours, 40 minutes, 41 seconds.

09-11-09 433 2 hours, 36 minutes, 11 seconds.

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GlimmerOfSin
21:04 Oct 01 2009

you know that's not right...you are on here way more than that

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I've decided I really don't like my sister's fiance...he's an real asshole. He's rude, inconsiderate and just an overall jerk.

This is so how much I suck lately...I used to average 3-4 hours a day but lately I have been sick and have had a lot of family and personal stuff going on I will try to do better- but whatever...family is coming first right now no matter how much i love my families here on VR



Date Visits Time Spent

09-11-09 120 42 minutes, 32 seconds.

09-10-09 122 45 minutes, 37 seconds.

09-09-09 22 3 minutes, 24 seconds.

09-07-09 23 4 minutes, 42 seconds.

09-06-09 175 56 minutes, 26 seconds.

09-05-09 120 30 minutes, 6 seconds.

09-04-09 376 1 hour, 28 minutes, 55 seconds.

09-03-09 22 5 minutes, 36 seconds.

09-02-09 145 42 minutes, 39 seconds.

09-01-09 126 39 minutes, 55 seconds.

08-31-09 4 31 seconds.

08-30-09 37 5 minutes, 10 seconds.

08-29-09 182 1 hour, 9 minutes, 31 seconds.

08-28-09 135 57 minutes, 59 seconds.

08-27-09 137 39 minutes, 46 seconds.

08-26-09 12 1 minute, 24 seconds.

08-25-09 60 19 minutes, 59 seconds.

08-24-09 50 26 minutes, 14 seconds.

08-23-09 86 24 minutes, 3 seconds.

08-22-09 35 11 minutes, 27 seconds.

08-21-09 58 15 minutes, 51 seconds.

08-20-09 220 1 hour, 18 minutes, 59 seconds.

08-18-09 191 39 minutes, 37 seconds.

08-17-09 91 46 minutes, 9 seconds.

08-16-09 92 53 minutes, 38 seconds.

08-15-09 192 1 hour, 8 minutes, 25 seconds.

08-14-09 27 3 minutes, 42 seconds.

08-13-09 43 14 minutes, 24 seconds.

My little brother pisses me off sometimes...but then again I don't know what he is going through over in Iraq but he just broke up with his girlfriend whom I love like a sister...and we as a family have pretty much told her that she is always welcome here no matter what.



and then he tells my mom he loves her and appreciates all that she has ever done for him...then he tells her goodbye...which he usually ends with talk to you later...urgh...

Honoring the fallen:

My thoughts and prayers are with their families...this is the first loss my brothers unit has had since they arrived in Iraq in July.



Oregon National Guard-41st Special Troops Battalion, part of the 41st Infantry Brigade Combat Team



Pfc. Taylor D. Marks of Monmouth, Oregon

Sgt. Earl D. Werner of the Amboy, Wash., area

died after an armor-piercing projectile struck their convoy in Rashid.



But all I can think is thank god it wasn't his vehicle that was hit...and that after talking to him that he is okay (or so he says)

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Zilaheteb
12:21 Sep 01 2009

I will keep Brad, his unit, as well as their families in my thoughts and prayers.

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rajakitty
04:26 Sep 08 2009

Hope he is doing well and ongoin with his family!

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