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Mom comes today :)



But the futon isn't going together quite right. I have to run to Home Depot as one part is missing from before. Even better... all the sewing boxes are in the room with her, and there is still room.



Huzzah to small victories with space. Granted we still have to come up with a working layout- especially when she's staying longer periods of time, but over all- it's going to work nicely.

Seriously? You call a friend saying you "can't get a hold of me", yet you were able to text me?



More importantly if the CBSA is really trying to get a hold of me, why are they not using the number I GAVE THEM?



You are one seriously eff'd up piece of work. I trusted you, that was my mistake. Now my gut response is you are just playing whatever kind of game you can. Funny, still no response to the text I sent, or the message I left...



I can't express how grateful I am to not have to deal with your lies, and inability to behave in an adult manner. I wish you well, but this bed- you made. I'm dealing with my own, and you have made certain to make that harder for me.



More importantly, if you really needed to get a hold of me.... why didn't you simply facebook me? BAH. Big old bag of drama lamas.

67



That was the number of patients that I personally saw this week. Record number, that I now am working on breaking.



Why? Because it isn't yet "known" that I'm taking over, and that the owner is moving - and while our plan is that he will continue on as an employee until he leaves (with me taking over the admin as of April 1st). That gives a month to two months of transition. Longer that I expected and honestly I'm grateful as I think from a patient perspective it makes sense and also allows them time to "say goodbyes" and get used to the idea that he is leaving.



It's very bitter sweet.



Although in good news someone is rumoured to be considering a Community Acupuncture Clinic in London. I'm hoping they follow POCA, not because my time with them has been awesome, but the resources are great; and more importantly the boundaries for patients is idea. It is all coming together...



Today I will hopefully be closer to having my room cleaned, because then when Mom comes I should be able to do the dinning / sitting area (since I don't have three rooms and the bedrooms are awkwardly shaped) along with the sewing room so she has a place, and can "sprawl" out when she's here. Over all, I think it's going to work out fine, it's just been a challenge without square walls. Who'd have thunk it?



Ah, Kansas...

One of the sad elements of life is realizing how some people always can, and will be asshats. No matter how much you see the good, they simply will not rise to it.



And it is also great with those that do. Give and take, keeping it real and mutual. Even if that is a, "I'm thinking of you".

Let's see how bad auto correct is while doing this entry on my phone. I'm always surprised when I log in on my computer with the grammar and spelling mistakes that happen when I'm using my phone to post. Anyone else notice the same?

Et Tu Brute?



So it seems that crazy boss, just went crazier and cancelled a check that was for patient visits I saw. It was understood that I need to supply refunds and have monies to pay for new car insurance, license, tabs, etc... but it seems that cancelling the check worked better for her. But it also puts her at the bottom of who I will pay back, because it screws over my clients, makes it so that I'm scrambling to get money into that account (that I counted on for my insurance). Honestly, I keep saying I'm glad...



This is why. There is simply no way of working with someone who refuses to take responsibility for what they do. I gave them a real chance with what they said they were doing and how they wanted to change- but how this is playing out shows it isn't changing at all.



People like this always hang themselves with rope of their own making.

So I walked to all the major stores around me (I'm in an industrial park, so all the super Walmarts, Targets, etc are literally across the street) and I think between walking all the stores, and getting the small amount of shopping I needed done... I walked about a mile.



Came home, unpacked on box, and hung curtains.



Now I'm heading back to netflix. I'm still pretty wiped out from the past month, and I'm in no hurry *only have to get the guest bed up in two weeks for mom, as she's coming- she can say she's not happy, but the fact that it took three years for her to visit me in Canada, to the aspect that it's only 3 weeks for Kansas; says it all.



I work tomorrow afternoon, and well, I am simply tired. So Netflix, maybe a box or two and then bed. Sounds like a plan.

Yesterday was the first day of clinic. I have a LOT to learn. Not that the others do anything wrong; it's just my style is so VERY different. However, it is more effective than my style for certain types of pain. YAY I get to learn that :)



Seriously, I'm excited.



The hard part is going to be altering my style to this current style- then fusing the two. It will happen, but I have to review many things I "know" but don't use.



A part from being scared, I'm actually excited. This will probably be very good. Plus my cousin is being an absolute angel. Without her help I would have crashed and burned.



When people say it takes a village, it does. I'm just so grateful for all the people in my "village" that made this move possible and as little on the traumatic side as it could be.

Kansas.



Let the newest chapter begin.

Last day of clinic, and I'm excited. Sad, but really looking forward to getting on with it.



By it, I mean life :)

I realize some of you may not still have my code, feel free to ask. I just encrypt because, well these are things I would say to friends, but not in the "general public".

I really think I'm dodging a bullet regarding staying here.



Don't get me wrong, but things are coming to light where certain people are most certainly not what they portray themselves to be. This can be said of all of us at some point. Still there is an accountability that I'm not seeing, and patterns that I was assured were being changed- are not.



More over, the person is lying to themselves. They are spreading partial truths about myself, and while the complaint is real, they leave out the part of it that is paramount... they failed to do what needed to be done, and what they committed to in April.



Yet they still expected pay, and more importantly more than what was agreed upon. Now, well they are acting as if I'm being just given everything; and in a way- that very well may happen. What they are not seeing, is my methodical work towards this end. I am not chasing any dollar that comes my way. I am not saying "yes" to more than I can commit to. Because of this, it is happening for me.



But you know how people who "know it all" are, they fail because they refuse to see their failure. That's pretty accurate description of how it goes down here. How you do anything, is how you do everything. Slow and steady... work hard, and smart... rest and renew...

YAY! So no downtime on my internet. They will be there to install it on Saturday evening. So even if I'm delayed it will be up and running by the time I get there.



Hydro is also being connected, and well- now it's just getting the truck and loading up.



Wow. This has been fast.

I leave Friday night...



I still have a hard time believing it. I keep waiting for the "OPSY, you can stay"... only I can't, and I know it.



Two more days of clinic- and I have to say they have been great so far- I'm really happy with how well all of my clients are taking this. But I'm still so very sad at the same time... *sigh*

With everything happening right now, I'm really at a loss for what I'm feeling.



Right now seems more the time of "doing" instead of the time of "being". 3 days of clinic here, and then... back to the unknown and creating more possibility.



Still some key things are happening.



1. I won't have the stress of being an immigrant. This is huge, it is a massive weight that has weighed on me for the past 6 years.



2. I have work in place, now it is just a matter of follow through and getting there.



3. The love and support that have surrounded me has been massive. I am grateful.



Ok, back to packing a few more boxes and getting on with today.

Tonight is probably the only time since 2006 that I wish I were in Seattle.



Party on, party hard, and live this moment friends :)

GO SEAHAWKS!!!

About 60-70% done with packing.



Am very overwhelmed right now. While I have an apartment in pieces, it still doesn't seem real...



I might be gone for a while with how much is going on, but message if you need anything.

I know it's real, but it honestly doesn't seem like it is.



I can't shake the conflicting emotions and feelings; as I'm rather numb to them. There is point where I see how my actions put us here, and I'm sad for that. Yet I can't deny how much better things are going to be once I'm finally there.



It's truly a huge relief.



And that is what I don't like to say. Because it makes me feel like a failure and that I've let people down. It is what it is. Now there is no changing it, except to follow through with it.