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So by the time I finished dinner, it was 10pm. I'm sitting around with pups now simply so I don't go to bed with full tummy (causes insomnia and digestive issues- not that have issues with either) but man its been a long day.
Sharing because some of you might appreciate this: I was reading a Reader's Digest and it was a story about a teacher who had recently moved. She was upset that there didn't seem to be a place for her to "teach". To which her husband responded, "perhaps it is your time to learn".
I loved this on so many levels. I often forget the cycles we all go through, and forget to honour them when they aren't "what or how I want", I'm taking this reminder to remember the best teachers, also have to learn so they have more to teach.
Here: it serves as a reminder that those who "have to teach and mentor you" may not be the best examples to follow.
I'm hoping I sleep well tonight. I seem to have killed the pain, but now am dealing with massive dizziness.
Good thing is that these symptoms actually are a clear pattern that I can shift to avoid this happening again soon. But still my failure for not getting enough down time. *sigh*
Got the message at 1:20 this morning that mom gave birth to a baby girl. :) Always a great thing to feel like you were help in.
Today I feel like poop. Migraine. Full blown, thankfully no light sensitivity so my morning coffee is keeping it at a manageable level. Still glad I only have one more client and phone calls today. This calls for nap time with puppies. BLERG.
I am exhausted. I was asked to come into labour assistance tonight. It is always awkward to meet a client for the first time at their home, but there is something about working with active labour that I simply LOVE. Don't know why, probably because we want things moving... but it's just something I enjoy.
Made today a long day, and it might be longer as I might have to go back in the morning for another treatment- we shall see how they do. But for now, I need to sleep as 8am comes fast... ok, nevermind... I just got the text that active labour is NOW. :D
I get to sleep in. But still what a great celebration of a full moon, than to assist a woman bringing life into this world. I have to say I love what I do. I honestly don't consider it a job. Ok time for rest.
Tonight Kat's daughter preforms a murder mystery dinner. Kat bought my ticket because I had declined and her daughter told her she really wanted me to go. SO, even though they only have a pasta meal (I just finished a good healthy meal, so hopefully I don't have to eat too much of the pasta) I'm going.
We had another blow out at work today. This time one of the massage therapists had said, no more after x. Well they did book another after x- and what is worse they didn't allow for any time between patients. I really don't know what to say. I've complained over and over for the past six months about my schedule- and was viewed as being difficult. Because of that, I'm not willing to speak out and suggest because I was told to butt out. What bothers me is that every time I have a difficulty, it has proven time and time again to spread.
However now I'm looking at how I can treat my clients better and more importantly- how I can focus more on my practice than letting this stuff get in the way. I'm looking at online bookings and really taking back the work that my rent supposedly pays for. Still I'm rather shocked at how little all this is bothering me. In a way, it is like a relief- I see the issue, I am working on my ability to fix it and other than that... Nothing more feels like it needs to happen.
I was thinking about online behaviour, and how people "fight" over the internet. Some would tell you that it is silly (sometimes they are correct)... but I then thought about one of my closest friends here and how she and I have fought many times (full on disagreements), yet even if we never "apologized" we had no issue agreeing to disagree.
That is someone I value and trust on so many levels.
Because for us to move on, we didn't have to not be who we were, we just had to say, 'hey, are we done with the discussion?"
Yes it deserves all capitals. I am so proud, excited and just SQUEEE for her. This is the woman who I have been pulling shenanigans with since our teen years. Most of my life from 14-19 was at her house.
My heart over-floweth, for her to get this sort of recognition. I know how hard she works, and the support of her husband who she met at the end of her 18th year, has been enormous. People always say that kind of life is only in books or movies, well folks, I've watched it unfold. I've seen the ugly with it, but it still exists and is exceedingly beautiful.
MY BEST FRIEND DID A TED TALK! (now I'm just bragging) LOL :P
So I'm back to work again today. I didn't get nearly enough done; but I did rest. Sounds off doesn't it? Well with my working out again, I am on a constant low level of fatigue. Body is starting to shift again, so it most likely is the toxins from last year.
Probably why I'm also going through all that SHAT from last year, again. That is the true poop about loosing weight, and why so many fail. You go through to some extent each and every feeling that "helped you gain" the weight. It's actually a reverse process, so you feel better over all, but man it can mess with your head.
I keep thinking, why am I "like this"... I am happy... yet I feel like I'm forcing myself to say it. WTF?! And then, bam... I start looking at the big picture, and there it is... all that crap. A part of me wants to explain all this, knowing full well now is not the time.
Now is the time for me to learn, complete the healing cycle, and create stability.
I'm so close on so many fronts, I just hope I keep the energy to do it all! lol But for now, I will journal then do some laundry and finally head in to work.
The shitty thing about when you develop a gluten intolerance?
It often appears as IBS - you know irritable bowel syndrome? Most don't realize that going from hard pebble like stool to loose with painful gas and or bloating is "IBS". A greater portion of people don't realize it is from gluten because symptoms don't start until the food hits the small intestine and colon which for many people is between 6-24hrs. Often when having difficultly due to inflammation, people will not have a bowel motion every day. All of these things are abnormal and typically due to the north american diet.
I ate cookies this weekend. Ran out on Sunday. Yesterday and today were... ick. Basically I done got my bowels in a uproar. And yes it is the gluten. I never have gas or bloating- except when I eat gluten. Same thing with the seemingly possesed "movements". I can't wait till later in the week.
Only a friend's daughter is doing a dinner murder mystery for a fundraiser. I'm going. And they only have lasagne. OH BOY. I get to repeat this again next week -.-
OH YAY! I have to start saving my pennies.... This year's rock in the park has Journey. While they aren't my OMG Favourite *like someone I know*, they are a group that even when it was uncool for me to like- I liked.
Morning run done in the rain today. Ick. Thank goodness for hot showers. Today I have to get a BITCH TON of work done. We'll see if I am up to it. First I'm going to answer emails and nap.
Finally just got the last of "ask" off my computer. Effin' hell. Who uses Chrome (a google product) and wants to use lame ass ask to search the web. Thankfully I'm back to google. BAH computers...
Effing Ask toolbar. I didn't install it, but probably ended up doing that being too quick with something else bah, multi-tasking.
Now instead of using google, my chrome uses ask -YUCK effing hell. GET IT OUT.
And yes I uninstalled the effing tool bar already and restarted. Sometimes I dislike computers. Too much time looking for bloody stuff that you didn't even want. *sigh*
Well it happens. I was going to try for 9:00 am yoga, but the dog walk and the minor clean ups I've done hindered that. It's ok there is a 10:30 and a 12 that I can go to. I'm actually considering both.
Why? Because while this is my work from home week, I want to really start "punishing" my body. I've been going regularly and so far it is responding very well. But I still haven't started "the big" workout. Why? Because I need to be in better shape (going to do this to succeed) and I need my nutrition up.
Funny thing about being broke- I make WAY better choices. Irony of that? I already make good choices. But the limited funds mean that there nutrition first, and "fun" second. It's actually a very good thing because otherwise a transition like this takes me months. And yes, it does happen with me.
Who remembers the Gyro story from 2010? Yeah, that was because I had gone so clean with my eating I hadn't had ANY grains in over 3 months. Enter white bread, and hello feeling like the flu. I watched Food Matter's movie last night. Great stuff and it is on Netflix. Go watch it. They are a bit heavy on the juicing (I prefer to make certain I eat because even if you juice it is nutrients and sugar- it has to be the right veggies and fruits or it is just as bad as candy bar. For example: Orange Juice? Good for you, right? Wrong! Why? Because it takes between 6-10 oranges to give you one 6oz of juice. That means you are taking in WAY more sugar than you would if you simply ate an orange.)
Now when you get to the point that you are eating enough and STILL not getting enough nutrients; then juicing is a GREAT way to supplement without vitamins.
There are exceptions to this: If you LIE, and will eat and eat and eat... then juicing is great way to start to decrease amounts you eat without "changing" everything to start (point made in movie). Or if you simply are too addicted to sugar from all the hidden places it is in our foods, then guess what. Juicing.
Anyways. I am going to have more coffee and consider making my shake (with frozen fruits because I need the fiber) :)
Put broth, water, garlic, and onions in a pot and put on high.
Slice the lime into quarters and squeeze in broth and then put rinds in.
Add the Lentils - bring it all to a boil.
While you wait for it to boil mix in a separate bowl the beef and the spices. Add the bread crumbs when spices are fully mixed in, and last add the egg. Once everything is completely mixed make into walnut sized meatballs and put into soup. When you finish adding these in it should be about to boil.
Remove lime rinds.
Add kale when mixture boils, stir and then cover and put on simmer for about 10 more min.
And Chipolte Meatball Soup with lime, lentils and Kale YUM
Oh and did I mention WINE?
Yoga tonight was great, had a great class and a really peaceful walk home. I did get the "busy" work done today so I'm hoping tomorrow I get more of the "meaty" work finished. I only have three more days of not seeing clients, and I feel the tick tock. And keep in mind, that is if I actually take a day off.
I am so sore today! I did 2 hot yoga classes last night back to back: Power yoga and regular. Thank GAWD I'm doing yin tonight. Although I will walk there to loosen things up!
I've been getting things done for work, but really ended up spending most my time answering emails and getting 'caught' up in a few things. My tasks for tonight are more laundry, patient flow chart, more handout work and then web work on what I want to say.
DAMN, I know I have four days for this; but I already feel like it simply is NOT enough time :(
Forgive my excitement. I have only been talking about this for the past six years.
However I read something that BAM hit me right between the eyes. The past six years I haven't written because it was my time to learn, to experience, to fall flat on my face and then, well- that's what I'm doing now.
Funny how these things go. We know we need to do x- y and z but we simply cannot get ourselves to DO THEM. Many of us stop and throw our hands up and give up then and there...
But some of us, we keep on. And guess what? It may not be what we thought, it might be better... but it is authentic because we allowed the process to happen. We worked, we struggled, and in the end we have something that we either learn from or we use.
Problem with living in a different country for going on seven years?
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SPELL.
GAH, seriously all these added ou's and such; I never know what spell checker I have on... and typically SOMEONE notices I use the wrong form. The right word, but wrong form.
*sigh*
I think from now on I will speak my own language. Yeah, that's gonna go over SOOOO well.
Had a great 4km run this am. I can't wait for hot yoga tonight.
I set up my next blog post (it's up if you have my web addy- but I'm not emailing about it till tomorrow for those on my list; or on FB).
I've had 2.5 cups of coffee, and have been rather productive this am. Time for my mid morning nap. :)
That's a major benefit of getting up early to work out and get some work done. However, I will say to those who say "I wish" just remember I don't get paid holidays, sick days and often I work until 8pm. There are great pay offs, but the bottom line is, it is work. More improtant, if I don't do it- I WON'T get paid.
Seventeen years ago today, my high school youth minister was killed by an oncoming drunk driver two blocks from his home. His wife is also from my church growing up, I had known them both since the age of 5. They were "family". He left behind 3 children.
When I went home this Christmas, it was like I walked into a scene from my past. There in the band, was his son. Sitting in the same area. And his wife, is very much like his mother at that age... and pregnant. That he is 20 years younger than I, made no difference. I could feel the pull of time, fate, and that aspect growing up that I would hear the "old people talk about".
Sometimes even when it passes, it never does. Sometimes you only heal enough to keep on going, loving and being a part of the world.
And sometimes, you get to see a piece of the bigger picture, and are left humbled and stoic.
We sold a T-shirt, hat and stickers. We have also potentially gotten 3 new sponsors as well as at least 6 motor cycle clubs interested in our ride. To the extent we were asked what we think about colours.
Wear them with pride, but keep your "issues" away from our parade. From what I heard they were good with that. Hell, they are all at the show, so really? I don't care who you are if you're out for charity.
However, I'm stupid exhausted. I keep forgetting that today is day two of no exercise after 9 straight days and I've been working. But it feels odd to be so tired after a day like today. Normally I'm jazzed. Then again, I had to shovel how many times yesterday? LOL
I'm just used to doing and doing and then sleeping. heh. Perhaps it's time ;)
Day one of the bike show went well, even though the "snowmeggedeon" kept most people home. So far we are accomplishing getting people interested in the ride, as well as interested in donating for our ride.
We also happen to be located right across from one of our sponsors last year. Tis a good thing, let's them know we are still around and still serious. :)
Today I'm still wanting to go to yoga, but seriously wondering if that is me pushing because I set a goal or if I should stay at home. Why? I still have to shovel the drive (and it's long with a foot of snow- no place to shovel to, you have to take it out of the drive as it is between two houses- serious pain in the arse). Plus I will be at Bike show for 4-5 hours tonight.
I just don't think it's in my best interest to do the class (an hour of walking plus an hour of class= less time with pups to be out as they have 8 hours already planned for today) as I also should be doing some of my cleaning today. Now tomorrow's class is a for certain, so in truth it's only two days. Which is typical for my "days off" and looking at it yesterday was my first day off in 9 days.
Last night I tried seeing if the pups would do ok sleeping with me again. It was fine (I move more than they do, and unlike Holmes and Megan who would get fed up with how much I move, they just go to the foot of the bed and stay out of the way).
My big concern now is marking.
See they didn't pee on the bed during the night. They MARKED the bed because it is where Spazz sleeps. Nuh-uh are we allowing any of that. So, we'll see how long before I have to kennel them again. In truth because I can have such long days, I really prefer to have them out at night, as they are more interested in cuddles than destroying the house. It's just a matter of maturity with them... and that means a decade I'm certain.
I made a lentil kale soup that is SO GOOD... well it is so good I didn't want to stop eating it before yoga; which if I had done that would have been HORRID for everyone else.
So I went to yoga after one bowl and have now had two more.
Plus the butter cream frosting I made, with extra cinnamon and allspice with a touch of nutmeg? Well, in my defense, I start by putting on the pumpkin cupcakes I made... but it is SOOOOOOO tasty.
I woke early to be surprised that there isn't more snow on the ground (yay!) but my asshat neighbor still refuses to do any shoveling (we share the driveway). I'm willing to do as much as I walk on, because with walking the pups so often, it is easier and equates to less ick tracked into my place. Still it would be nice if he or the upstairs would help out at times. No biggie, I view it as bonus work out :P And it only takes 10-15 min to do the area I do, 30-40 if I do the driveway back (which when I'm driving, I do).
Kat's coming over today, so I'm taking a gluten free vanilla cake mix and making pumpkin muffins :D I'm going to do a butter cream frosting with lots of cinnamon and nutmeg. Should be tasty :)
Butternut squash soup and then yoga this afternoon. Till then, tons of laundry, some vacuuming and general "tidy" since tomorrow is my only other "day off". I think that is what is the mind adjustment to me, getting back into work days I work. Not that I didn't before; but with last couple of years, the routine broke and I ended up working ALL the time.
Now, I have days where I get personal stuff done, and days where it is work stuff. I'm still WAY behind. But it's better than it has been in past. I also might have a lead to a new potential, but at this point- I'm just waiting to see. I feel like things are "heading in the right direction" I just need time... and boy do I need lots of it. Like 72 hrs a day. But since I don't... back to laundry and a bit of looking up a tasty soup I can make today :)
So it's day three of yoga. And today started the 28 day challenge.
I'm going to do what I can to go to yoga all 28 days this month. Simply because the pudge I gained last year now needs to go.
I started my return from Seattle detoxing from the foods I'm sensitive to, and then after two weeks started to focus on the nutrient levels and balancing the ratios again.
After that, I started yoga 2-3x week, and for the last week it's been every other day. Now I'm going to see what everyday and half way through this month, I hope to add in my more "intense" workouts so that I can gain some of the fitness back in a faster manner.
Good aspect is the pain in my shoulder is starting to subside now that I'm getting more active and the Network Care Chiropractor I see has also helped hugely. SO, now that it's all getting into order, time to get back on track and move forward.
Truthfully, I needed the "year off" last year. True I worked out, but not nearly to the level I like. I was on all accounts a year for me to heal and deal with my shit. Now I'm still dealing, but over all- I'm doing so much better with getting an idea and working with my schedule than I ever had.
I honestly think the coaching has been huge. I am truly going to miss it this summer, but if I can accomplish my next goals I should be back to it in the fall. Plus I have debt to move out of, and into the next phase. First, I must finish this phase and lay the ground work for the next one.
Second day in a row of hot yoga, only today I walked 6 miles in addition. It's two miles to the studio, which means two miles back. Plus I walked to work today.
Only down side is that we got 1/4" of snow in the 20' walk with pups. I think tomorrow my walk will take longer but because I just will do it once will be easier for me (only four miles total).
But for now- time to get cozy in bed and some shut eye.
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