I don't mind being called FallowWren, Fallow, or Wren! I'd rather keep my birth name private, but if you're truly curious perhaps we could talk.
I am male, born and raised (for the most part) in Canada (I have lived elsewhere in the the Pacific). I am an amateur writer although I want to be professional one day. I'm currently writing my first book! I also compose poetry, short stories, and meditative essays.
I like literally all kinds of music. Too me it's less about genre and more about what I think sounds good. I love listening to songs that other people like so go ahead and send me some!
Now that I've introduced myself as I would on the street, I'll talk a little bit about why I'm here.
For most of my teenage life I have felt somewhat "lost." In school I was always one of the quickest, strongest, and intelligent kids. (although I hate the term intelligent) One would think that I couldn't be happier, but the reality was quite the contrary, I was plagued with depression. I always felt like no matter what I did I was somehow capable of more. It seemed like others always expected so much from me that it became a weight that I constantly had to bear. As a result I developed expectations for myself that were not realistic and constantly fell short of them. This lead to social anxiety and continued depression.
Before this sounds like too much of a sob story I will point out that my life was not and is not terrible. I have a fairly small circle of close friends, but am only really comfortable with a few of them. I've also enjoyed relative success in school so far.
Like I mentioned before I've always felt lost. Being raised by Christian parents severely limited my exposure to other religions at a young age, but as I grew and began to think critically about our world I discovered many new ideas that I wanted to explore. The internet helped a lot with this.
I spent time pondering Buddhist and Hindu teachings, I experimented with Wicca, Witchcraft, Pagan religions, and general forms of spirituality. I've always felt a great connection to my surroundings. I began to practice meditation, attempted to astral project, and eventually moved on to energy manipulation. Eventually I landed in this part of the internet.
I'm very green when it comes to these things so forgive my ignorance, but here are some of the things that have led me to consider the possibility that I may be a psychic vampyre (vampire?) I really don't know myself, so I'll hang around and maybe we'll both find out.
1. Sensitive to bright light (especially sunlight) and prefer the cold winter months.
2. Much more active during the night than during the day.
3. Recent consistent feeling of fatigue
4. Cravings that aren't satisfied by food or drink
5. Recent stomach cramps that have been unexplained by doctors (could just be a weird medical thing and not energy related)
6. Lack of energy
7. Combination of speed, strength, agility, and intellect
8. Strong draw to energy manipulation
9. Strong urge to satisfy partner in bed rather than be satisfied myself
10. Energized by powerful surroundings (ex. deep forest, Grand Canyon)
11. Energized by close/private interaction with individuals
12. Sometimes seem to cause others to grow tired or bored.
13. Have made some people feel uneasy although I said or did nothing that would usually invite unease.
14. Blood is somewhat attractive to me (I don't think I'd like to drink it, but I'm not sure... The idea of writing in blood, or blood and sex is alluring/romantic. Life essence is powerful and intimate. Completely unattractive in a clinical setting though!
15. I spend a lot of time alone, but regularly need exposure to some sort of close companionship or powerful environment... tend to dislike the energy of crowds though.
I'm just listing these things so that people can form an idea about why I'm here. I've never tried feeding physically or psychically, but I am drawn much more towards the idea of psychic feeding.
There we go! That's me. A brief little run down, my share of every child's problems/insecurities, and then a little summary of why I stumbled into this place. I know I put a lot of info in here so I hope it's not overwhelming.
