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shaddows on my wall
10:58 Oct 19 2008
Times Read: 595

Shadows on my wall, a disfigurement of time,

saddened memories, breaking fragments of my mind,

just a child but it seems i was forsaken,

swallowing razor blades, with every breath taken,

my dream is this broken reality, i wake in sweat,

as the shaddows get closer, im in need to forget,

the pain and confussion, not knowing whats right,

all them times, a monster comming to me at night,

shadows on my wall, some one cut down that fucking tree,

cause all these shattered memories are really haunting me.

(c)JcMRyan

black and white
10:57 Oct 19 2008
Times Read: 596

My life is like a picture,

Always viewed from afar,

No, not colourful, but black and white,

No, no colours, not for me.

The trees are green the sky is blue,

But I am black and white.

The children laugh as they play,

I cry inside as I sit alone.

They know I’m different,

Some should care not,

Some are afraid of what they know not,

But yes different iám

I sit alone,

In the shade of morbid hues,

No ...no colours for me.

(c)JcMRyan

emptyness within
10:47 Oct 19 2008
Times Read: 601

To Jean, Gareth and baby CJ



A cherub like newborn, fresh and pure comes to breathe his first breath,

this should be a moment of happiness for life, but instead theres death,

A mother and father left to mourn, of their child that was born stillborn,

theres just confusion, A grim black cloud no linning, silver or cotton,

all of a sudden all the good times that they know are forgotton,

life alone has become their demon, a major battle, a war from within,

There is no path, no guide, stumble and fall in the dark, completely lost

reaching out, need answers,1 chance, change the past, what ever the cost,

as an angel finds his wings, and moves on to a better place,

where he is lovingly greeted, at the arch knowen as heavens gate,

for if he could talk to you, im sure he would say,

dont cry mummy we'll be together one day.

(c)JcMRyan

Fat lip Llama
06:25 Oct 05 2008
Times Read: 622






It’s my turn now, that’s my message for ya,

You took everything from me, you’re an absorber,

Unobedient shamelessly I sit brazenfaced,

Now you struggle to keep up with my change of pace,

I got to laugh; I don’t think you have heard of karma,

But I’ve waisted enough on you, you fat lipped llama,

So tired of running walked over like fauna,

Being told how to live, being shoved in a corner,

I’ve come along way, made few decisions,

Fucked up, had some major collisions,

Like gacey searching for storage room in the crawlspace,

I’m just a simple girl, trying to survive in the human race,

I got to turn my back there’s so much drama,

Dictating my life like you was Osama,

But it’s ok now; I’m back to the real me,

Like mum said, plenty of fish in the sea,

Break away you’re like a bad habit,

Back to my roots, I’m good at it,

Emotions non apparent, just a little twitch,

A moment of nothing, like a Sony game glitch

(c)JcMRyan

where?
06:23 Oct 05 2008
Times Read: 624








Feeling the negative vibe, everything I write, startin to sound like a pessimist,

Can’t find the right words, Keep reminding myself it happens to the best,

Playing over, trying to feel the beat, head down, outa time, outa place, 2 left feet,

Dream of what once was, it’s hard to tell, of the feet that once jived to the beat,

Half filled scrap books, raw blank canvas, a masterpiece, can’t draw, hands crippled,

Frustration, numbness a black abyss, my mind, despair it can’t be gone, fear tripled,

My life is fundamental, it’s all been for one cause, its elemental yes it’s sentimental,

It will come back to me, can’t be this bad, it’s just a block; surely it’s all mental,

Surely it hasn’t turned its back on me; the passion I have flows endlessly,

It’s a pause in time; I will come back, for I love my hip hop tremendously.

(c)JcMRyan