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I wake,

But am I even,

Really awake,

Fuck it slit my wrists,

Fuck it pop too many pills,

Fuck it just die already,

Light shit on fire,

Just to see it burn,

Light it on figure,

Just to try and fill the void,

In my mind,

Claim insanity,

For the last time,

Claim I’m a juvenile,

For I am,

Claim I paid my debt to society,

I really fucking did,

I’m off,

So try fucking pulling me in again,

Just try,

I’ll be gone so fast you’ll,

Never find me a fucking again,

Not even family will know where I am,

So don’t try to find me,

Fuck heads

Wow... This one and the next one that I am adding are OLD! I just forgot to add them in here. And they really suck... but oh well.





Come on bring your best shot,

The worst you can call me,

Is what I’ve heard all my life,

Bring it on rich asshole,

Live where I lived for 14 years,

Then tell me how you feel,

No,

Just because I’m poor,

Doesn’t mean I’ll degrade,

Myself like that,

If you even think that,

Be prepared,

For you to never be able to fuck again,

What you don’t think I’ll do it,

Don’t even start,

I don’t want to ever hear anymore,

Just shut your mouth,

But look at,

You got what you want,

You wanted me to get mad,

Good job,

Now I’d back off,

If I was you,

Rich asshole

COMMENTS

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DeadHeir
11:20 Jun 21 2009

aggressive and blunt

very strong style :)

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Everything’s falling apart,

And I am starting to see things so clearly now,

It’s almost sickening,

But hell at least it’s real,

I can’t continue to be something I’m not,

I can’t be the perfect little creation that you’ve insisted on,

I just need to figure all these quirks out and figure out what I really want,

Nothing feels right,

I won’t ever know why your actions has continued to haunt me,

You can’t even see everything you’ve done,

How you’ve changed me into something that I don’t even know,

I can’t continue this little show,

Faking all these smiles and telling you I’m fine,

When I’m really not,

Nothing fine,

Nothing’s good,

And I am not happy,

I won’t continue to fake this,

It’s almost as if you set me up,

Just to watch me fall,

You just sit back and watch this show,

Watch me fall to pieces and become crippled by your actions,

I wish there was some form of escape from you,

From this all,

Every word that has ever been uttered is like a hit,

A bruise is growing ever bigger,

And now everyone can see,

What are we going to do now?

Scratch that,

What are you going to do?

I want nothing more to do with you,

I need to find myself,

And you are no where to be found,

So I will continue on and find the thing that I need the most,

Myself

Laying down,

Sleeping everyday,

Sleeping every hour away,

It doesn’t stop the fact of the matter,

That things didn’t turn out right,

But when have they ever?

When has anything ever been sound in my life?

When have things ever been normal?

What the fuck does that word even mean?

Has anything ever been normal for me?

I am supposed be the child,

But in so many ways I am so very much the adult,

Live up your youth,

You don’t have long in it,

When have I had time to live it up?

When have I had time to push aside everything you spew?

I was behind you all the time,

Helping you along the way,

And now when it’s my turn,

When I am completely falling apart,

And holding on for dear life,

Where are you?

Where are you?

You’re off somewhere telling everyone how great you are,

And just how fine I am doing,

Can’t you see threw these smiles there’s nothing but pain,

And hatred for everything that’s happened?

I really need some help,

How hard is that for you to see?

I can’t continue to be this emotionless blob,

Turning everything off when it becomes too much,

No,

I just can’t do it anymore,

And I shouldn’t have to,

No more,

I won’t stand beside you,

I won’t stand behind you pushing you further,

While keeping myself so broken,

I need some help in return,

I really need some help,

My reflection isn’t even the same anymore,

Everything is changing and no we can’t just stop,

And think things over,

I’ve tried that too many times,

Now I need help,

And for fuck sake,

Give it to me