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I have to say this was the best day of my life. It simply was the best day of my life. Do i need to continue, it was the best day of my life, end of story.

does anyone here talk to themselves. I understand that it is considered insane but i am willing to bet that more people do it then dont. Because reading or thinking in a way is communicating your thoughts, and if there is no one else to counter your thoughts then communication is taking place with out another person.



I was thinking and I kept on getting thoughts about death and that in the end we are supposed to be in some tranquil perfect state that our soul goes to eventually. So i continued to think, what would my paradise be like, and who would be there and such. I came to a list of people and places and situations that i wanted to take place eventually in this paradise of mine.



Then i kept thinking about my life and all the problems and bullshit I go through on a daily basis and how easily i could escape all of my problems and go to this perfect little place where all of my dreams would become actual.



So all together i basically told to myself that i want to die and that if some unknown force killed me, hopefully painlessly, then i would not blame that source because it would really be sending me to a better place.



I guess they say not to talk to yourself, not to not do it because that would require you not to think, which may be what they want, but they don't want you to do it because eventually you get around to thoughts like that.