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28 entries this month
#truth
22:00 Apr 30 2014
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I work hard
I pay my bills
I maintain myself
I'm independent
When you see me
Know that's all me
I'm NOT kept
I do the keeping
06:46 Apr 29 2014
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I sat tonight on a beach with a dear girlfriend of mine...
She's one of my best friends I'd reach out for any-time day or night for.
We have been through so much together.
She used to sleep on my couch night after night when we were 20 or so.
Man thinking back, she was the best house guest,
as she would clean up the kitchen and do all the dishes every morning before my boyfriend and I had even got up and out of bed!
Some mornings we'd find her jumping in between us...
before she'd vanish off to work.
What we did, where we went, the good choices we made back then
shaped us and formed who we were tonight sitting on that beach.
Laughing and sharing a few tears.
Remembering how fucking wild and reckless we were,
yet still gathered our shit DAILY and moved forward.
I sit tonight and think where I was in my 20's and how I've lived on my own, and only ever supported another human...
Working 2 jobs, sometimes 3...to make those ends meet...
Then had my beautiful children with NO help financially from anyone.
Boy am I proud of that...hard work
So all you little pukes sitting in your mother home using
likely HER internet...eating HER food, judging others,
NOT trying to "change it"
here's a big
FUCK YOU
Trust
09:12 Apr 28 2014
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I have no idea how this is going to form together, so let's see...shall we?
I live my life on my own terms and make no apologies for it,
however it's never at the
expense of diminishing or hurting someone.
(Oh and for "Never saying Never" I just said did)
...Honesty, respect and being forthright 100%
of the time is the ONLY way
I'm far from perfect;
I've made a mile of bad choices in my life,
I've repeated a lot of them.
I'm sure I probably have a whole bunch ahead of me,
and I'm completely okay with that.
Why? Because each of us has a unique set of circumstances in life
that are affected by them in a variety of ways;
What we all have in common is that we do what we
have to do, to get through the day...
Some days are easier, some are more difficult,
but whatever our coping mechanisms become they're unique to every individual...
We've all been wounded along the way,
we've just got to deal with it..
folks that's called life.
I have a long list of things I could do better,
I'll likely be working on some for the rest of my life,
perhaps maybe never get it done.
None of those things I mentioned diminish in any way that
I am proud of the woman I am today writing this,
what I have fought for, and where having the nerve to fight has taken me.
So this is me...
Take it or leave it...
08:22 Apr 28 2014
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I still struggle to understand humans
You're damned if you do
&
Damned if you don't.
Mother Nature
22:47 Apr 25 2014
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The weather, with all this rain sure is making everything
lush and green.
I am making a beautiful "spot" within my backyard
that I can just go and chill..
my own if you would sanctuary.
Materials:
Gazebo - check
Rustic 4 Clawfoot tub - check
Moss baskets - check
Sheer curtains - check
Flowers - check
Now to arrange a few other things..
It was nice to cut the grass this morning
just smelling the freshness,
seeing life sprouting!
Hopefully some of you will actually get off
your butts and DO something with your day.
Happy Springtime VR
Just in time
Skies are opening up - we are in for a perfect storm.
Mmm.
Inbox much?
22:28 Apr 25 2014
Times Read: 892
Preach to the mother fucking choir,
you two asshats.
Fuck some people were just meant for each other
Oh and you're fucking BORING as shit.
Period.
10:06 Apr 25 2014
Times Read: 916
I ♥ you
09:41 Apr 25 2014
Times Read: 926
I wish that I could write poetry.
I read these beautiful poems some are able to
write at the drop of a hat...
I can never understand how.
I'm jealous of their talent.
Guess I would have to try before I say
I couldn't.
Hmm.
09:14 Apr 25 2014
Times Read: 939
Do you know the things that you just
wish you would un-see ?
Well I just heard and saw something I wished I could undo.
Things you just happen to have placed in your sight
sometimes, are really fascinating.
I know I've done PLENTY of shit that
other wished they'd NEVER seen or heard,
but I don't give a fuck about that, haha.
Peace out bitches ^_*
21:47 Apr 23 2014
Times Read: 987
Verbal diarrhea is a real issue.
Some people just need to stop talking
and
Shut the FUCK up.
Well GOOOOOD Morning VR!!
20:28 Apr 20 2014
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Well Happy HAPPY Easter VR peeps.
Well mine started with a jolt outta bed,
followed by some hysterical laughter,
and a other few choice words.
So todays lessons...
1.) If you don't like to do something, you shouldn't do it
(Especially when you SUCK at it)
2.) When your little voice is talking to you, LISTEN to it.
3.) Don't be 1/2 asleep sending messages from a touch screen device
4.) That folks is why I don't do that shit,
I fucking plainly suck at it.
5.) Don't take life so seriously, really who cares.
Frig though...the inbox was rather interesting this morning.
06:52 Apr 19 2014
Times Read: 1,102
Well don't say I didn't try.
The end.
Tracking device?09:18 Apr 18 2014
Times Read: 1,181
So I've learned something interesting tonight.
Have you ever really read the "fine print" regarding a certain feature on here..
when you ADD your mobile number & notifications??
Apparently it's called "shadowing" This is where you can track,
stalk any member personally
("know when members you specify log in")
by receiving a text message to your mobile phone the second this transpires!
I'm sorry, but excuse me?
What the fuck?
Who fucking thinks of this shit?
-smh-
Sad thing...those that didn't know this existed will now not only
be aware of it...but will utilize such a fucked up thing.
Again MY opinion, but really folks,
who needs a tracking device on someone?
So in thinking out loud...
IF said "feature" is a "benefit" then someone
PAYING
to use this site, should also have the "feature/benefit" of knowing
who the fuck is stalking them, to this degree.
A very poor ass quality screenshot...
"queenofchaos" has logged into www.vampirerave.com
RANT OVER
Mhmm.
23:16 Apr 16 2014
Times Read: 1,221
You can only hear something so many times before
you give in, and just agree
OR
You walk away.
22:44 Apr 16 2014
Times Read: 1,234
Do you LISTEN to someone when they speak?
OR
Do you HEAR what they say?
Hearing someone and listening to someone
are two clearly different things.
Respect one another, encourage others to be
great and remember we all bleed the same colour.
Life lessons
20:07 Apr 16 2014
Times Read: 1,250
Putting yourself in the face of others,
proves to be a challenge for most.
Putting yourself in a place of vulnerability is for some, not an option.
Sometimes we just need to bite the bullet,
take a deep breath and enter this uncharted territory.
If you trust the person who wants to be at your side,
than do not fear.
Let them guide you, listen to what is being said
but most importantly feel the love, they're offering.
I sit often, reminiscing of past adventures,
just wishing I saw then,
what I do now.
All life lessons, to be learnt.
Listen to your gut people!
05:47 Apr 16 2014
Times Read: 1,260
You know sometimes when you wake up,
you know it's just going to be a shit
show kind of a day?
Well today I felt this when I first woke up..
actually went back to bed for nearly 4 hours I believe
Felt "okay" than tried it again, only to fail YET again.
Moral of this entry, I should have just stayed in bed.
yep
02:54 Apr 14 2014
Times Read: 1,289
Today was just a good day.
Period.
21:34 Apr 11 2014
Times Read: 1,318
OKAY Vampire Rave
ENOUGH with all the distractions today
I HAVE to get work done!
Eeesh.
21:26 Apr 11 2014
Times Read: 1,322
I have forgotten what it's like to allow your
mind the freedom to express
it's inner desires through writing.
To sit and just let it 'go there' to be
as detailed and expressive
as ones mind allows.
Short but sweet, it stirred a flame
within that was out for some time.
08:53 Apr 11 2014
Times Read: 1,345
One a side note...
I'm heading to the one the only
LUKE BRYAN
next month.
He is one hunk of fucking burning love.
Mmm, yummy man.
Life.
08:34 Apr 11 2014
Times Read: 1,354
Does anyone know the feeling when you
travel through life always feeling
like you're missing something?
You know, once you gather things...and you
start for the door, you stop
because something is missing?
Yeah, that's me as of late, but the thing is...I'm not heading for the door I'm just living.
I truly hope this feeling leaves,
because I have to say,
it doesn't feel very comforting.
Meh.
08:51 Apr 09 2014
Times Read: 1,387
Thank you for the peeps that popped in tonight...
I can't stay mad long, ever.
It was more of a rant, and allowing something to get to me tonight.
Damn family sometimes, eh?
You're damned if you do, and damned if you don't.
psst. (All good, I stuffed a sock in it!)
02:01 Apr 08 2014
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i miss you
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08:00 Apr 03 2014
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05:05 Apr 03 2014
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Great things...do come to those who wait.
10:01 Apr 02 2014
Times Read: 1,496
You know when you just have a gut feeling about something...
Like you are being fed 1 thing,
but everything you feel is completely another way?
With this feeling comes withdrawal...
pulling back as the feeling you're encompassing
is only growing stronger...
Things become clearer
The picture you've painted 'prematurely' (so you think) was in fact the start, nothing premature at all.
I am really content, and happy about this gut feeling.
One thing that NEVER lies, is your gut.
Always listen to it...
*Smiles softly...you deserve this, you truly do*
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04:17 Apr 01 2014
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COMMENTS
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DamionxApocalypse
02:36 May 01 2014
thats a great thing