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Can you feel my emptiness?

The blank whole that you filled?

Perfection has left me behind.

My tears flow freely,

Unstopped by your tongue.

Do I dare to breathe?

My mind cannot think

For it is only filled with memories.

Memories of your kisses;

Memories of your purring beside my face,

Lulling me to sleep.

I cannot sleep anymore

Without mind numbing pills

That allow me to fade into dreamless nights,

Only to awaken to the jarring reality

That you are no longer here.

Would you return if I were to leave?

I offer my life in trade for yours.

Such pure love does not deserve death.

Such pure love should never fade.

Do you see me here crying?

Does it hurt you?

Can you understand?

Understand why I feel I cannot go on?

Understand why my arms are stained once more?

Can you forgive me for doing what I know you would not want?

You were the soul of all perfection before you,

The one who could soothe my ravaged mind,

The one who knew when I needed you most,

The one who came to me as the first teardrop fell.

Your love and caring shining bright in your pale blue eyes

As you kissed away my tears and eased my pain.

You were my reminder of why I should stay alive.

Without you, will I succumb to my sharp instruments of destruction?

Can I make it past this moment,

Get through this pain,

Come through in one piece?

I feel you here with me although I can no longer see your beauty,

Feel your warmth,

Hear your voice.

Will you give me the strength to survive?

Help me to fight my dark desires?

I will never stop loving you,

Never stop missing you,

Never stop wishing you were here.

Please be with me always,

Love me always,

Fill me with your desire to live.

Always you shall remain in my heart,

Aqua who loved her two mommas best when together.

May your soul fly free.

May your heart find mine.

May you be forever a part of me.









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Aqua Enigma

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