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reading....and wandering
15:21 Jan 31 2007
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the last day i dont sleep at night.....i just stay up and i usually read.i read too much.about things that make me think,make me feel,give me strenght and knowledge. as i have said,it is like travelling,you can see different worlds. i am thinking all the time about those things, its like an obssession i have these days, my mind is always there, i think that it is also helping me to find things in me that i had never imagined that they existed. its very exciting for me.on the other hand....... i told you i dont sleep at night.i rarely get up in the morning,when i really have to. i sleep during the day. it is not so nice, i miss the day and all the other are sleeping when i am up or want to talk! this period will help me a lot though. i am searching for things that were in my mind for too long and now it is the time for me to find them. i feel i need to.i have to. its not just the books or discussions i have.its these things i get. you'll think it is strange. i cant explain it better.maybe one day i will be able to.

why cant everyone believe whatever they want?
00:55 Jan 18 2007
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ok this is a subject which is being brought up so often that is starting to piss me off! i am refering to religion as well as politics... but as about religion i think that it has to stop, everyone should leave the other believe whatever they like and dont judge them or even reject them because they are different and dont agree with them. why should there be standards and everyone accept them and dont do what they feel? i hate apologies, you dont have to give an apology to anyone, who has the right to say what is good and what is bad,what is wright and what is wrong? humans created so many things,an one of these things are religions. almost everything that humans made is sooner or later falling apart.i am waiting for the time that religions will fall apart too. unfortunately i dont think that i will be living to see that.. religions as well as political beliefs,seperate people. ok but if you have faith,you dont really need religion,think of that too. you dont really need a guide-who is as well human as you are-to tell you what to do,what to think! i have my own belies,i dont force anyone to agree with them. i wouldnt like to start a religion with my beliefs,and even if i started,forcing people is the most easy way, people should come because they really want to.religions have slaughtered people, i am totally against forcing people,puting violently things in their minds.that's really wrong. if something is true,it will be until the end.truth must be found from each person,some may have already find it,some may find it tomorrow,and some will delay a little but they also will.but they shall not be forced to accept it.not ever.

what is wrong with women??
00:14 Jan 11 2007
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i think this was the most suitable title for this paragraph! as i might have said, i have many mae friends.that does happen because its more difficult to me (as i realised) to make REAL female friends. in the past i had boyfriends that were very jealous about that but i think that is not so right cause i believe in friendship between a woman and a man, i really do. i had many female friends but ...they use to get away from me after some time.i had female friends that i thought they were different and i loved them very much but something goes wrong and they get mad at me or just go away! the thing is that i can accept mistakes and they obviously can't.thats very unfair i know. now i have some friends that are very close to me -males- and stayed here, supported me when i needed somebody and i am so thankfull, and surely would do anything i could to help them with anything. thats friendship for me. so at last i can say that its better now because the people who leave you when the first problem comes up are not real friends and will never be. i would like to have a female friend though...lol but i can say i am fine now, if she comes, when she comes, i will be here

Photos...
14:29 Jan 03 2007
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ok as this is about me,i will have more thing about me,and more personal thoughts and opinions than those i have in the other sections of this journal..and i also will have photos of me here... i know you've already seen a lot!! i know i have too many pics of me on here (profile and portfolio). i really dont think that they are sooooo beautiful, i just like playing with my cell and my camera! then i like making them better with my pc-although i dont know how to make some things,at least i am trying!. so its not that i have an... obssession (?) with myself, i never had and i never will. to be honest i dont have enough self-confidence,really. i am trying to have as much as i must but i dont know if i am managing it.

so let's start
00:28 Jan 03 2007
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I dont really know the difference of this one and the other sections but i suppose that i shallmake it more....personal,as the title says.... the journal is under construction, i will spend some time and add some thing at once, and then when i have something i will put it here,not in my profile cause it is already big enough.so, come back and i hope you'll like it... i am open to any suggestions too.