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The last two days have been unproductive as hell!

Yesterday was spent watching horror movies. I was napping on the couch when I was wakened by Japanese violence. Battle Royale then an attempt to watch The Eye 2 led to watching both Dead Snow movies in the wrong order.

I did make stuffed pizza though.

This morning woke up at 4am a played Diablo 3 until noon.

Then I napped.

I am such a lazy bitch this week.

From time to time I go on a spree of looking up long lost friends on the Internet. I was born in the 70's, most of my social life predates Internet and cell phones. My family moved a lot, this means lots of long lost friends. A dozen school districts worth at least.

Sometimes I actually reconnect and sometimes I just say, "oh good. Still alive." The search alone is usually good entertainment at least.



One person has haunted me a bit over the years. Firsts often do and he was special. First long term, non-sexual boyfriend relationship; based solely on common likes and dislikes and social magnetism. We kissed and held hands. That was the most of it for the lovey doveyness.

The break up was amicable, bottom line we wanted to share the same future but in different places. We remained friends afterward and even almost got over our differences but in the end it was just not meant to be.



Sounds like a lousy fiction, right?



Total fact. His last words to me were, "see you later"

Those words were the worst. They gave me hope and made me want to keep an eye open for him in this big wide world. I kept track of him through a mutual aquaintance for a year or so and then he fell off the map. I used to walk into pay phones and ask information to do a search, with no luck. I even wrote letters and addressed them to him in the city and state I believed him to live.



Since getting the Internet I tried a few times to find him but again with no luck.

Until today. I found him and it really threw me, in a bad way. This was a guy who I trusted and cared for, enough to worry over him for all these lost years. I have no desire to rekindle our relationship. I just wanted to know he was ok.

Now I don't know, he seems that he is not.

I am sorely annoyed. My husband came home tonight and his mood was foul. He hates Friday afternoon traffic and I knew he was mad about something from earlier today. Generally the irritations from work don't usually stick with him

but today,

today was something else.



He works as a mechanic fixing big diesel trucks. The job is hard and dangerous. When he does maintenance and repairs sometimes lives rest in his hands, he needs to focus. The drivers should never be in the mechanics bay. They distract the mechanics with their chatter and bullshit. They also aren't covered by shop safety. If they are hurt, it costs the company.

The drivers are a known hazard and annoyance but even they, alone, do not cause this foul a mood.



Today he was faced with a new weapon in the driver's arsenal.

A driver was riding him(as they often do)about making his truck a priority. Often the repairs are set up in order of appearance.

This driver actually had the nerve to play the race card, calling my husband a racist and accusing him of withholding services because of skin color.

Such an absolute load of crap! No wonder my poor guy us still pissed.

Hotror and anime are a good way to start the day.

I don't actually have anything to say. I am bored.

The last two days I have started the day with a headache.

I wish I could understand the humor of some people. I seem to always mess up their funnies with my logic.

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Isis101
02:10 Jul 11 2015

Oh shit. There you go ruining everyone else's fun AGAIN, dammit!

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moonkissed
14:05 Jul 11 2015

I know. I am such a bitch. Haha

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Unmotivated today.

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Isis101
02:11 Jul 11 2015

Unmotivated most days (except for when I'm writing)

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moonkissed
14:07 Jul 11 2015

It mostly happens when I get depressed. Then I end up playing video games all day or watching dramas all day.

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When I see feathets on the front porvh the first thing I do is look for a body.

Why would anyone think it is cute or funny to allow their two year old to call a total stranger? Even if that stranger is a family member.

Really very annoying.

Another drizzly day.

It is really too early for me to read or type.

The part of me that knows I should finish making dinner won't let my butt off the couch. I just sit here and keep playing with my tablet.

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sahahria
02:38 Jul 03 2015

You must be a soul sister of mine ;) lol.

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moonkissed
02:42 Jul 03 2015

One never knows.

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I stayed up too late last night and slept badly. Before I slept a grim horror movie played in my head an I insisted watching it all the way through. After which I dreamt if murder. The worst part was only getting two hours of sleep!

I really feel bad.

VR, I just can't quit you

It feels like a listless sort of day.

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frayed
13:18 Jul 01 2015

I hope it picks up :)

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moonkissed
20:31 Jul 01 2015

Slow is good now and then.

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Sometimes it is difficult to relax.