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What is life??

A blessing,

Or a curse.



Where is life??

In your home,

Or in the earth



When does life begin??

When we die,

Or when where born



To me life

is one big mystery

which no

one person can solve.



Life is different

to each and everyone of us



Weither good or bad



Just never let life go

not as long as you had

the life that your happy with







(aint really a poem as such but i put it here anyways)

Once was here

now is gone

I will always

love forever

the laughs

the tears

the smiles

without her

my life has no direction

no ups nor downs

no smiles or frowns

I miss her

I cry

I see her

I lie

what ever went wrong

I can mend

I will always

love forever

my very best friend



(This poem means a lot to me as it is real about the way i feel)

Four o'clock in the morning

Afraid to open my eyes

Another day of grief,

A day of fear.

All alone I feel.

I try to justify all the pain,

All of this guilt before my eyes.

Another day of confusion,

A day of wondering.

Is it ever just going to go away?

All this pain that I feel,

And all this anger, is it going to stay?



Ten o'clock in the evening,

Afraid of the nightmares.

Again my breathing stops.

All I can do is stare into the night.

What is it that causes this feeling?

Another night of crying,

A night of hiding,

Alone once again.

My heart feels empty,

And I can't cry another tear.

Another day wasted on insecurity,

A day of wonder.

Is this ever going to end?

Like tyrants assembled with tears

Trembling like a tomb

And singing like a statue

I am as empty as the ocean.

My blind eyes scream in silence

So this eternal echo will be known.

Given to the foils of time,

And shattered like plate glass-

You freeze within the fire.

Darkness now lives at daylight,

And shadows turn to the ghosts.

With all that shined is hollow

You imagine unconsciously.

And pretending to sleep you realize,

Nothing is what it seems.

Laughing.

Laughing.

At my jokes.

Screaming.

Crying.

Inside of me.

Having

fun,

with my friends.

Streams of tears

drip down my

heart.

I smile,

when I

see

you.

You smile,

when you

see

me.

I

bleed,

when I

see

you.

You smile,

when you

see

me.

Screaming.

Crying.

Inside.

Laughing.

Smiling.

I

wave

to

you.

Your beauty intoxicates all you encounter,

Yet you fail to notice,

This is your blunder,



You've had a rough time,

Though now it is over,

But yet you continue clinging to what is left over,



And in doing this your depression grows deeper,

Pulling you apart at the seams,

Causing you to unravel and fall to you knees,

Pondering desperately: "How much worse can it be? "



To ease your mind of your terrible burden,

You bargain with Satan (as if he cares),

Giving you a release, in turn for your soul:

That you believe tarnished and not worth much at all,



When all of your friends have been with you till now,

But here comes the crossroads up ahead,

They give you a choice: "Stand tall or fall down."



You have your beauty and charm,

Your intelligence and grace,

Good friends and your health,

What more does it take for you?

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness

and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under

I yell for help but no one is there to hear it

I begin to see the water at eye level

and I kick and flail

fighting to stay above the darkness

But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me

and I slowly begin to give in

to the feeling that lies below the water line

the waters starts to fill my lungs

the lungs that once held so much life

yet now they allow the murky water to replace that

I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness

But why doesn't someone grab my hand

pull me from darkness's grasp?

because no one knows I stand at the boundary

the boundary between light and dark

so I give in to the thing that holds me

All of the strength and all of the courage

that I once held in my heart

can't save me from the water

So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness

undetected by the occupants of that world

I don't want to fight anymore

I've given into darkness

Harsh words & violent blows

Hidden secrets nobody knows

Eyes are open, hands are fisted

Deep inside I'm warped & twisted

So many tricks & so many lies

Too many whens & too many whys

Nobody's special, nobody's gifted

I'm just me, warped & twisted

Sleeping awake & choking on a dream

Listening loudly to a silent scream

Call my mind, the number's unlisted

Lost in someone so warped & twisted

On my knees, alive but dead

Look at the invisible blood I've bled

I'm not gone, my mind has drifted

Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted

Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow

The sun died out, the ashes sifted

I'm still here, warped & twisted