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The frequency and intensity of my dreams are becoming startling. It is getting to the point I dread going to sleep every night. but one must try to rest.

I am also not watching the news anymore, dreading what I will hear, I quit telling my family about them, because they just can't understand why I do this, I am starting to feel like a freak in a sideshow. last night was no exception, I truly hope that dream doesn't come true. Glad I don't live on the West Coast,

Wow, The last two weeks have been unreal, but I have made it through my training period, work is going really good and I have made several new friends. I am working with so many people who are simply put, Just not mentally stable, but this makes it a challenge each day to see if I can break through to them and help in some small way. If I can make even a dent in someone's life, It will be well worth all the effort I put in to my work. The sad fact is that that most are seeing me each day with new eyes, as if they have never saw me before. AD has that effect, but I will continue to have hope, and most importantly compassion, which is something that is all too easy to lose sight of in the face of the daily grind of work, my prayer for today is that Today is the day for: Showing compassion to those who are in need of understanding.

Today went really well, I passed my last test, now it is time to celebrate. Love today.

I sit here and wonder, I must have married Satan himself....So angelic like, yet so devious and cruel.

The darkness of the night, embraces me in such sweet relief, soothing my soul and bringing rest to my weary mind. My senses increase, touch is more intense, smell is enhanced, sight is renewed, hearing the night sounds is like sweet honey flowing through my being. and I am one with the darkness. As I close my eyes near the dawn in dreamless slumber, I wait for the darkness to fall again.

I have two more tests to go, study time. 41 chapters in 10 days. who would have thought..... but I have done it. It is amazing what we can do when we put our minds to it, and good grades to boot, then the real test begins, the test of time.......

I am up for it.

Please continuing praying for my friend, I spoke to him on the phone his neck was broken, in two places, and he has several cracked ribs and a fractured clavicle. Gonna take a while to recover.

My eyes are swelled almost shut from alternately studying and crying, but I am getting there. whew.......what a life I lead. I truly wonder how much can one person take. I really don't want to find out.

This is a season of sadness, A dear friend of mine was in an accident and has multiple injuries, but He will be okay. so much death, injury, and illness. But as with all things, we must face them, hold up for those who mean so much to us, and be strong.

So many changes....

So many shattered dreams..

So much sadness..

or so it seems,

But if we go on..

standing so strong..

like a lighthouse in a storm

the weather will eventually calm.

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xxBlueFairyxx
11:07 Apr 22 2010

I will keep you in my meditations and prayesrs

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Sinora
17:20 Apr 22 2010

How true, hard to do at times, but true *hugs*.

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well I must say, I was right the train is jumping track, at least domestically. This is definitely one of the more sad times in my life. But as usual I will pick my ass up and go on. As long as I stay focused on raising my youngest, to realize his potential and be his best, two are grown and will be leaving here in about 2 more month's, I am getting ready for a move also with my youngest son. I will make it through this divorce, with I hope as little drama as possible. Sometimes people just aren't meant to be together,

I am just so tired of all the nit-picky little shitty things that get said, if I deserved them then I would accept it and go on but I don't. I simply want peace and quite, in life, no significant other to stain life with his pettiness.

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Sinora
12:38 Apr 21 2010

Good luck.

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Well my life is at full speed ahead right now, I feel as if I am on a roller coaster, and it is getting ready to jump track. Lets just hope I can hang on until the ride is over. These seasons in life well lets just say WOW. Maybe you never do get too old to stop enjoying the ride.

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Oceanne
00:41 Apr 19 2010

Hang on loosely and enjoy the ride! Old? Never!!

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Still curious and wondering if anyone on this site has Pre-cognitive dreams.... I am thinking about posting a forum on it, just wondering what kind of response I will get if any. Oh yeah by the way, I am still learning much on Wiccan spells, damn they really work, my skepticism is leaving very fast. first one extremely successful. What a wonderful world we live in.

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Oceanne
17:10 Apr 17 2010

Your thread might get closed at this point in time because we are to wait 30 days before opening one on a subject that has been posted within that time period.Try looking in the archives,we have alot of threads on this subject.

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I hope everyone has a Wonderful Weekend. Love to all.

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Oceanne
17:17 Apr 17 2010

Thanks! You too.

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Well it happened again, this most recent pre-cognitive dream was unlike most I have.

I dreamed of a Bear standing in my yard on raised hind legs, bawling in bear-talk vicious in actions.

then in this dream 4 coyotes came followed by another bear and several elk. The Elk went to a secluded spot in the dream and lay down to rest.

Now this dream occurred on Saturday Night.



Tuesday evening I was standing on my side porch,

enjoying the weather, I heard a bawling sound, It was a bear across the yard just at the edge of the mountain, It made such noise, bawling, Looking for a mate no doubt, this of course reminded me of the dream. but then yesterday I was walking down near the river, and I saw coyote tracks, hmmmm another sign, within the next hour my M-I-L asked me to get online and get elk permits for some family members. so now the dream is fullfilled. Not unusual because it happens all the time. Who else on here has the precognitive dreams. I wonder how much of my mixed heritage has to do with this. For it is a gift. By the way, My heritage consists of Cherokee Indian, Irish, English.

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Oceanne
17:14 Apr 17 2010

By the way,pre cog dreams are everyone's gift.Heritige has naught to do with it and it doesnt make anyone "special" .As you learn and study,you will see this is true.The Akashic record is there for anyone.We all entrain with it in cycles naturally.

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Oceanne
14:47 Apr 18 2010

I see you visited my journal.Please feel free to look under The nature of Majick and read about resonance and entrainment.I believe this might help you understand more about your dreams and my comment to you.And if you have any questions about it please feel free to message me.

Take care!! :D

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Everything seems to be going well so far. I have a test on Friday, Can you imagine a TEST,, OMG I am way too old for this......my friends tell me I am ageless, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha, Ha,.... if they only knew.....

but age is only a number isn't it. Life is what we make of it.

enjoying myself immensely. why not I have worked hard all my life and, needs must to enjoy.

Up early this morning, getting ready for this new job, so excited, wish me luck, as I will wish you all the same in everything. Blessed Be

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Sinora
11:16 Apr 13 2010

Good luck !

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Oceanne
17:17 Apr 17 2010

I wish you luck and thank you for your well wishes too.! But in truth,luck has nothing to do with it.It comes down to how well you are able to shape your world and life. :)

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I feel so much better today, things are really starting to look up. I got the Job yea!!!! here's wishing everyone has a great day.

Today is gonna be a very busy one for me, I have family/friends/company, coming for the weekend, and a million and one things to get accomplished. I know that half of the neighborhood kids will show up this evening at my house, which is not an uncommon thing around here, most I have helped raise, and they are like my own children, one of my visiting friends is a singer, most of the kids would never get a chance to see her so they are really excited. I like acting as hostess, especially to the family/friends I enjoy being around. so much food to prepare, thank goodness this is one of my talents. now I am off to get started everyone who reads this have a wonderful weekend. I sincerely hope it is wonderful for you and the ones who are closest to you.

Blessed Be.

Life in the mountains, is beginning to return to normal, the peace, quiet, are soothing. I was standing on the porch in the moonlight at 4 a.m. I felt surrounded by the life of spring, the scents, night sounds. There was a warm breeze blowing. It was one of those times you feel as if you are the only one in existence. The grief I have been feeling will pass as time goes on. So in this present I will look for the things in life that have meaning. And I will go on as we all must do. Loss of friends is but a moment in time, that brings all good memories to the forefront. Memories are one thing no one can take away.



Today is the day: for Blessed memories

So much to think about, feel so much grief for the death of my dear friend, His funeral is today. Feel so much grief for the loss of the Coal Miners, that gave their lives in the explosion in Massey Mine in Charleston,West Virginia, My heart goes out to all the families who are experiencing the uncertainty and turmoil from this disaster. 4 are still missing as I write this. The workers are drilling into the Mountain to release the deadly methane gas. I pray safety upon the Mine Rescuers.

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Promathia
11:00 Apr 07 2010

I'm sorry to hear for your loss.

A drink to your friend and the Mine workers.

Celebrate the life that loved ones have left behind.

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Oceanne
00:42 Apr 19 2010

:( Sorry for your loss.

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I finished my Job Interview, looks very promising. yea

can't wait.

Another day, today I am thankful to be alive, cause one never knows what each day will bring. The loss of my friend yesterday still has me reeling. We all must go on, for as long as we may. The interview I was suppose to have the other day was changed to today. oh to deal with it all. I will get through it all somehow. grief for all the might have been things in my life has also set in. But a ray of light is shinning because I can look and see at what I have accomplished thus far. and now wonders..... have I made a difference in anyone's life. I seriously hope so.

VR is my favorite site. so much expression, so many views. I enjoy them all.

I found out a few minutes ago that my friend passed away. Please keep this family in your thoughts. They will face such grief over the next several days and months to come please also keep me in your thoughts, it is so hard to lose a friend.

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MysticalChild
19:03 Apr 05 2010

I am sorry for your loss, you and their family will be in my thoughts

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PandorasBx
20:10 Apr 05 2010

*Hugs*

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Life can can seem so complicated sometimes, we muster through the best we can. We deal with so many changes, and so many tragedies. One of the many things that I am dealing with currently is a neighbor/ friend that I help take to Dr. appts. sometimes has been on life support, Yesterday they were suppose to take it off. There is a very little chance of survival without because he was totally dependent upon it, I haven't heard back from them yet, I wish them well. Because I know first hand that grief is such a depressing process, we all must face, yet go through, out of all gifts that can be bestowed on us the gift of life is the most precious and most unique. Many people take this fact for granted and end their lives needlessly, because they feel there is no hope, we can change our lives, sometimes it requires much effort and a stubborn mind. But if you are on the edge, maybe it is time to take a step back, reevaluate and say to yourself. I have no choice I will change my life. Then do it. Don't let other people drive you closer to that edge, they cannot control your thoughts, be you not what others would have you be.

I have a job interview, I am very nervous and hope all goes well. This is a changing time for me, I am beginning to enter into another season, after shattered dreams once more. I now know what to expect. There are to many pieces this time for me to bend down and try to pick them up, so I will leave them at my feet and walk away smiling, knowing that I could have done nothing to change my circumstances. I now have renewed hope that I can only fully depend on myself for what I want to accomplish, so today is the day of independence,

We may walk many miles to get to our destination, all the while learning as we go, growing as we learn,

with each step we take we may grow weary, but we keep moving forward, moving toward the goal we seek, and one day we will find that each step was worth it all the while, our goal is accomplished, and we can finally be free.

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demonman101
12:35 Apr 01 2010

inspiring. i like it

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blackenedSoul
09:47 Apr 02 2010

I hope you get all you want out of life.

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