Lol, really?
Cleaned out the Mentorship a bit. Or.. A whole lot.. I was using it as storage for old Coven layouts and pages and such. Not really putting any work into it at all. But, I've changed the name (again) to get some use out of the Crest I had made. And now I'm in the works of completely overhauling everything about it. New starts are fun. :]
I've been laying in bed, in the dark, for the past three or so hours, trying to find sleep. Alas, I have been unlucky in that quest. I am fairly certain now that sleep is mocking me, eluding me. I am tired, yes, so very tired, and yet I just can't manage to drift off. I really cannot do another day running on a few hours of uneasy rest. Maybe I should have just taken the Nyquil..
I understand that like the real world, there will be people on the internet you just do not see eye to eye with, that you just simply can't stand to be around or acknowledge their existence. But, in regards to some of the comments left by people when they leave their negative Honor.. It paints me like I'm some mean, heartless bitch who's here just to ruin your day. And, well, that couldn't be farther from the truth. If you know me at all you know that I am timid, shy, I don't talk to many people and I sure as hell am not that mean. Granted, I am human and I do have my moments, but any friend would tell you I am a sweet person. It's my nature. So, when some anonymous person says that they dislike me because I'm underhanded, or because I'm mean and that I should go rot, that kind of hurts. Because, I do try my best to be a good person around here. I am helpful, I am courteous and for the most part, always polite. I don't really badmouth people, or gossip, or stir up the drama. I tend to stick to myself and do what I need to do around here, interacting with very few people as I do so.
I don't know, I mean, I can understand where these people are coming from, I mean, as I've said, I do have my moments. When I fly off the handle, I really fly off the handle. I have a temper and I can be very harsh when the occasion calls for it. But, that's not who I am a good majority of the time. I really do try to convey myself in a good light here, because in reality, I'm not a horrible person. It's more curiosity, I guess, though I'm sure there will be more "you're a whiny bitch" comments coming because of this. But, I really am curious. So, I pose this question to you to answer as truthfully as you can, regardless of if it may hurt my feelings. Do you perceive me as a mean person? Do I paint myself in an unflattering light here, being a bitch, being mean, being underhanded? Am I really that bad of a person?
COMMENTS
I think you are adorable and I miss chilling with you on cam.
Nicole, you are one of the most sweetest, kindest women I know. You have never been mean or cruel to me. Yes you have your moments, but hell we do. Everyone has those days when they would rather rip someone's head off before speaking to them. I have those days. By no means does this make you a heartless bitch. It makes you human. You are very shy and you don't really talk. I've had you sit in my cam for hours and not talk until its down to just a few people. I've never known you to lie or anything like that. You are honest, sweet and caring. I say fuck the haters babygirl because they are just making you famous. You are NOT a bad person nor are you underhanded. *hugs* I lovets you Nicole ♥
You are the last person, who I would even think to be a bitch. You have a always been sweet to me. I have enjoyed the conversations with you, when I pop in when you are on webcam.
I've had some of the same comments. They are such cowards really....THEY have the issues.
I think I've finally gotten over the cold I had. It's nice to not be sick anymore. Now.. If I could only get rid of these headaches, I'd be awesome.
Well.. I'm feeling a fraction better. At least my throat isn't the major cause of my misery anymore. Now it's my head and stuffed up nose. Yay! I will be so glad when I finally get over this nonsense. I do not like being sick like this.
I seem to wake up feeling worse than I did the day before. I'm fairly certain it should be the other way around. I'm starting to think it may be something with my tonsils. So, I may have to go see a doctor if this keeps up. I'm getting tired of having to pop pills for the pain and not being able to talk.
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Are you getting sensitive to light or anything Immortal?Or stiff neck?
I cant help but think Menningitis or Lyme...
You still have them? Your tonsils?
No, my neck isn't stiff or anything, and yes, I still have my tonsils.
I think I shall be calling it an early night. This cold or whatever is really kicking my butt tonight. Or.. That may just be the NyQuil I took earlier. Either way, it's a good time to just go crash until morning.
I've noticed that since I got sick that ome time in Oregon, sore throats have become somewhat commonplace with me. And, not your typiclal sore throat you'd have with a cold, it's to the point where I don't want to swallow because it hurts so much. I don't want to talk because, again, it hurts. Plus, my voice is all scratchy and constantly breaks. And, coughing is pure agony. All I have to say is that I am so glad the doctor prescribed me so much Ibuprofen the last time I got sick lile this. Or, I would never survive. Plus, the headaches are a bitch as well.
I just found out my friend Toby got engaged last night. This trend needs to stop, weddings and engagements.. I am beginning to feel like a horrible slacker here.
COMMENTS
I agree..the trend needs to stop..it's giving my girlfriend ideas. LOL
So.. Honor. Oh, this is going to be interesting. Very, very interesting. I love it. Thanks, Cancer! :]
You know what's awesome? Running on a little less than three hours of sleep and being expected to function as the nice, polite human being that I usually am. Oh, it'll last for a few hours, then as the day wears on and my body realizes that I have gotten maybe seven hours of rest these past few days, I will slip into psycho bitch mode. Oh, it will sure be interesting. I really should have gone to bed at a decent hour, and not seven this morning, but, I was having fun.
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Love, what the hell ? really? You were just about passed out when I lost power. I worry about you. Tonight's being called early, my foot is down.
I can sleep for ten hours and still wake up and not be polite. I should probably work on that.
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Enrapture
05:48 Jan 28 2012
Proposing over a kismet...
HAHAHLOLOLOMGSNORT
Kieataya
05:50 Jan 28 2012
I'll have to look back over profiles just to find them I know one is called LadyNero but there's her and one other female that came to the site from FB that profess their love for him too. Go figure....
Kieataya
05:51 Jan 28 2012
https://www.vampirerave.com/profiles/profiles2.php?profile=LadyxNero
There you go. Check that one out.
immortalxkiss
05:53 Jan 28 2012
Oh I've seen that one. I guess this kid is one hot commodity to the desperate women of this site? I mean.. You'd have to be desperate.
Kieataya
06:01 Jan 28 2012
Don't they live in different states? How can you get married in different states? And I'd KILL my man if he ever proposed to me over the internet... Just... Die...
immortalxkiss
06:14 Jan 28 2012
I do believe that they indeed, live in two different states. Which is what makes it so funny, and sad. So very, very, very sad.
BrightDeception
06:22 Jan 28 2012
-face*desk-
colormepsychotic
05:19 Jan 29 2012
Mind you're own business, biotch.
Thank you and have a shitty day.
immortalxkiss
06:10 Jan 29 2012
Lol, just lol. That is all I have to say to you, dear. Don't post shit if you don't want people to comment. :]
Zilaheteb
00:34 Feb 01 2012
@colormepsychotic ~ She is minding her own business dumb ass. She is expressing her thoughts on a PUBLIC display PRIVATLEY in her journal.
I don't know how some of these people get through life on a day to day basis.....