15:07 Aug 30 2013
Times Read: 1,897
wow such a wonderful soon to be admin.....your job is to uphold vr rules and tos...not let lord dipshit run amok
The fact you attempt to even insinuate that I don't do my job as an Acolyte is rich. It really is. I have been an Acolyte for five years, a Dominar for one, so I think it's safe to say I do what I am required, and I always have. There is a difference between upholding the site's ToS and then going along with your absolute bullshit. The fact that I don't want to involve myself with you in any fashion doesn't mean I don't do what I am expected to do. As I said in that response to you, I have been part of the Admin team in some fashion since before you were a member here. And, hey, I got that title all on my own, no one had to take the test for me.
I didn't want to have to resort to a public entry like this, but the fact that you keep sending me stupid messages, trying to stir up drama is getting on my nerves. I do not block people, but I am really considering making an exception just for you. Like is said, try and be the better person and let things go. Just try it for once. I know that's asking a hell of a lot from you, but you never know.
12:28 Aug 30 2013
Times Read: 1,907
It's half past four and I am still awake. And my cat, Aphrodite, has taken over my pillow. She looks up at me every so often like, "yo, I am a cat." And I am just like, "yes, yes you are." Then she puts her head down and goes back to sleep. It's weird. And I am too wide awake right now. Sleep, why must your forsake me? Wae?!
I want sushi... And George. And George's delicious liquor.
But mostly just George.
And some spicy tuna rolls.
But still, mostly just George.
Yeah...
I don't even know.
Now Aphrodite is purring in my left ear, like a creeper.
Awkward.
21:51 Aug 29 2013
Times Read: 1,948
I think I may just be a little too old to do the whole getting drunk out of my mind thing with Tommy. I don't quite recover like I used to. It was fun, and I really missed hanging out with that boy, but the drinking kills me. Still no hangovers, but I am not really completely on the ball today.
I do want to go back to Genki with him though. That place is amazing.I mean, it's just a sushi bar, but damn, the people make it awesome. The servers all know Tommy by name, and they stop your bill at two hundred dollars, if you buy enough liquor, which is, as I found out, seriously easy to do. And the servers and sushi chefs will drink with you. We dropped a few saki bombs last night, one with one of the chefs. Then when George brewed his soju yummyness we had a good amount of shots with him, and with the other sushi chef. Though, I don't think he liked it quite as much as the rest of us. And the K-Pop on the television. Yeah, I felt like Genki was my home.
01:34 Aug 27 2013
Times Read: 2,009
Where do you go?
When those darker wild eyes show,
If I lead you straight up to,
The loneliest landscape you knew,
Boy would you care,
If you lost me there?
04:41 Aug 26 2013
Times Read: 2,032
Mistakes
It's too much to discuss sobre, I know
Just why you think,
That you need an anaesthatised mouth to
Say all those bladed things,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here
It's too much to discuss lovers I know,
How much you've lied,
It's too much to discuss numbers,
I know, how much I've let slide...
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here
Time is always, harder on the quiet days,
Brings back up that old sacrifice,
You cost me more than I ever knew before,
And looking back I can not deny
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here.
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here.
03:00 Aug 25 2013
Times Read: 2,060
Got home about an hour ago, and I am absolutely exhausted. It's always draining to see my mom's family. I did get to hold my baby cousin, Landon. He is so adorable and tiny. I don't think I have ever held a child that young before, so it was interesting. So fragile and dependent on others. He was beautiful, though. Absolutely beautiful. I also got to see my older second cousins, Haley and Eric, who are my cousin Andrew's children, and Joseph and Johnny, who are my cousin Chris' two sons. Technically only Joseph is related to me, Johnny is Chris' wife's son. But yeah, it was nice to see some of my family. Though, I didn't participate much at the shower, I am not a big fan of baby showers, so I spent more time talking with Andrew and his girlfriend, Heather. I found out some pretty disturbing things about my aunt Stacy, and about my Nana. Things I am not at all happy to hear about.
18:48 Aug 24 2013
Times Read: 2,080
I have my little cousin Brenna's baby shower today, and really, I haven't gotten enough sleep to take on my mom's side of the family. But, I am excited to see and hold my newest baby cousin, Landon. I have only seen pictures of him since his birth on the seventh. It should prove to be a fun day, even with my lack of sleep. I always love seeing my family.
23:56 Aug 22 2013
Times Read: 2,221
I don't like not being able to trust someone when they tell me that they care about me. That I am the only one they want. I don't like that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that they are full of shit, that they are lying, that I'm nothing special to them. I also dislike being kept a secret. It makes me feel like there are other reasons for such. Yes, I understand you don't want people to know all your business, however, looking at it from another vantage point, some might say "why?" Why are you hiding it?
It all boils down to trust, which I have very little of for most people. I can count on one hand the people I trust completely, or, as completely as I am able. I feel as though I'm being played the fool. Again. I'm so tired of finding out I have been lied to, I have been played. I am not a toy.
Just give me something real.
21:56 Aug 20 2013
Times Read: 2,266
The service was really nice. He had TAPS played, a rifle salute, and a whole bunch of Marines in Dress Blues. It was lovely. And now I am hanging out with Tommy and his brothers at the reception. It's been too long since I have seen these guys, and it's sad that this is how we got to meet up. I have missed my Tommy.
Also, this place is right on the beach in San Pedro, and it is beautiful here.
06:37 Aug 11 2013
Times Read: 2,641
I just got home from my birthday dinner with the family. It was nice, just my parents, my brother and I. Liz went out with her mom, so we were denied her company. But even sans my sister-in-law, it was really nice. After dinner we had some cake.
I had a good birthday. Talked to an amazing person most of the day, awesome dinner with my family, lots of birthday messages. It was good. I'm not into the partying or the drinking or the going out and all that. I never have been. So a quiet day and a nice dinner is all I really need.
I am going to visit David's grave on Monday, since I'll have the car. I hate that I couldn't do it today, but, that's the way it goes sometimes. So long as I get out there Monday it'll be alright.
00:43 Aug 10 2013
Times Read: 2,693
I got my first "happy birthday." And, while I still have a good seven and some odd hours to go before midnight here, I can forgive it. He's in England, so technically it was August 10th there. Plus, he's adorable, so yeah, totally forgiven.
I don't want to get old! Can I just stop right now? I really do not need to be twenty-six.
22:39 Aug 07 2013
Times Read: 2,757
You know, it already passed, the day he died. And, though my birthday is only a few days away, I don't feel half as bad as I tend to around this time of the year. I've had a number of people keeping me distracted lately, and keeping me from spending too much time alone with my thoughts. And for that, I am so very thankful to them. When I'm alone, I tend to think, and when I think I tend to dwell on the bad, all that negative. I would be far more withdrawn right now if it wasn't for the constant conversations. I miss David, insanely. But, it's not as bad as it used to be.
Also, my little cousin, Brenna, had her baby this morning. He's beautiful.
16:37 Aug 06 2013
Times Read: 2,825
I have really got to start getting myself to bed at a decent hour.
You know, I say that now, but I really know that I will be up until three or four in the morning, talking to him. Sleep seems to never factor in until I just can't keep my eyes open any longer. Then I wake upat seven, eight, and I just want to shoot myself.
It's that time difference. The eight hours is killer.
23:05 Aug 05 2013
Times Read: 2,840
I watched Devil today. It was on HBOGO and I was bored. I had had the ending ruined for me a long time ago, but back then I never figured I would watch it, so I didn't care. I don't know why I watch M. Night Shamalamadingdong's movies anymore. Every film he has done after The Sixth Sense hasn't been very good. This one was no different. Unbreakable and The Sixth Sense. Those were his only good ones.
Also, I finally got my hands on Daft Punk's recent album, Random Access Memories. And oh my god! I am in love with it. I hadn't heard it all the way through before, just a song here or there. But damn, I am in love. I think it's got to be one of their better albums. It's got that amazing '70s disco feel to the songs, and it is just amazing. AMAZING. I am so glad I bought it.
08:11 Aug 02 2013
Times Read: 3,076
And... Take two. Someone suggested golds, and I ran with it.
Also, that awkward moment when you're asked to create a Crest, Mark, and Rep for a Coven you already submitted once. The Coven of Kings... It was pretty funny to think that people believe themselves so creative and unique. They actually wanted everything pretty close to what I had already created years ago.
00:05 Aug 02 2013
Times Read: 3,108
The beginning of August is always bad for me. There are two days within days the first 10 days that I do not look forward to. My birthday, which is a double whammy, and the date of my cousin David's death. So, if I am less than social, or short with you, do forgive me. This month puts me in a rather unfriendly mood.
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