My darling, every time I see you.. your tears soak my shoulder and the world becomes dark and gloomy again. I won't apologize again, and I shouldn't have in the first place.. but I love you, and I'll be here to hold you when you need to vent and cry. I'm the only one that has seen you cry? I'm sorry to be the one to cause it.. that's all.
I'm sad as she escapes into the darkness of her own sadness and I watch her ruin herself as she drinks her bottle half empty.
Just run away, run away. She's so numb. Brief memories of happiness keep her alive during the night but it's not enough..
Run away, stumble over there.. please, give me a moment to breath.. I hold her up while the bottles weigh her down..
I cried to my mother, as hypocritical as I felt.. it felt great to express my feelings about embarrassing issues as of recently.. she held me in her arms and cradled me for an eternity it felt, and I truly felt appreciated.
Kitty
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This entry really touched a nerve, you have a gift for bringing a moment to life...beautiful
xSx
I'll always tell you that I want you to be happy and that's all I want for you and believe it to be true because it is but my heart, it's screaming and tearing out of my chest just so you can listen to it.
I really do love you and that's why I'm here just with the slightest hope you won't give up on me. It screams louder and asks you questions that you won't answer..
like why the hell are you so quick to abandon me or so prepared to anyway? Have I done you wrong.. are you tired of me? Has my love not been enough, are my unique offers so dull now?
I am sure that I'm not the only one that feels this way, so rejected and humiliated just for loving. For showing those tears that no one seems to deserve in the long run. Realizing that loyalty is hard to come by. It'll come though. It will.
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