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my mother is dead. the person who loved and cared for me is gone, she told me her self "stop looking for that person shes gone" so now i am, I'm forgetting her.



the person she left in her place barely tolerates my existence, I'm leaving as soon as i can afford it.....



the worst part is i still love her.... ill never stop loving who she was... wishing for that person to return and love me again...

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Sinora
10:35 Jul 25 2008

I hope the hurt you feel now over this will soon pass, that you can find a way to deal with it.



My own Mother hurt me terribly when I was young, and I spent alot of years trying to get over it.



Parents are not perfect, nor children, I hope you keep loving her because not doing so may set you on the wrong road, the road I took once.

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thats what she told me when i was growing up, i asked her would she and my father ever get back together and she said no he wrecked my life for 13 years i was his personal whore, and now look at her, back with him, back making him happy, it making me sick. now she says she never spoke ill of him when i was a child, but its a lie, if she thinks its ok to be with a man who reduced her to only a whore for 13 years how can me being with a man who loves me be wrong?



sometimes i think shes jealous at my age she was pregnant by a man who wouldn't even acknowledge her as his lover or me as his spawn. yes she lived on "her own" not at my grand moms, yes she paid her own bills but no she had not found a man to love her for her, only for what she could give , i might still depend on her financially but at least i found some one who loves me, loves me, through good and bad and trust me my mother have done her best to make it get really bad



i love my mother, and i always will try to help her no matter what she does to me, but i wont leave the man i love just to make her happy, i cant, i deserve to be happy to...... don't i?

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Slain
23:28 Jul 25 2008

You have every right to be happy. And don't worry, she will one day wake up and realize what she has done is wrong. SHE won't ever stop me from loving you.

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