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in the dark you hide from thim thoughs who make you sad.you cry every night but thay cant hear you silently crying wishing for a better life for a dad a mom a sister bruther who care for you who dont leve scares that shoe in your haret and on your skin. you silently cry for what you have and wha you dont.



a mother...father...sister...bruther...

some one who cares

i want to find love but i cant cuse i cant stand phisical contact from a guy cuse i was molesteded by my grampa when i was 8 and i was going to save my self for my husbend but that didnot happen cuse my x-boyfriend raped me that was may 30-09 of this year i tought that if i hide then no one can find me to heart me agin but even if i hied i would stell be geting hert i would just be doing it to my self by not going out thare to over come my fear of men but its stell scarry and i stell have nightmers bout him i would wake up screming but no one got why thay just dont know what ive been through

and i hope thay never do!!!

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Havic
22:38 Sep 16 2009

Im sorry to hear such sad words froma beautiful person. I have a cousin who was also trying to save herself for marraige but her mothers friend raped her. Twice, scared she never told anyone until years went by. I remeber her tears as if we are replaying that moment and im hearing it for the first time. I'm sorry again that life sometimes treat people bad and worst, but most importantly don't lose yourself and forget what you want. You want to love so do I. Do not be in a rush to find a guy and at the same time push him back. Set yourself up with standards you approve of and those that men have to ably by it. hope somewhere down the road your fear of men become your strenght. I know women who feel your way and aventually they start hating every guy. There was a woman I was intrested in but because of her sexual experience going roughly bad my chances to be with her became a closed window.

Saying all this I would like obe an associate of your and then friend. Who knows after that.

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StarScream
01:07 Sep 19 2009

im sry to hear that such a wonderful and beautiful woman as yourself was raped. i have a sister that was raped t

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im really sad today i have to move to yale i just started to mack friends with some people here ug this is a sad day pluse this is the dat that my dad died its 9-11-09 he dident die at the twen towers becuse he died of a heart atack and he was 29 i was 7 it was offull so i just wanted to right in this this is my first so im kind of happy becuse i freggn love vampires thay are so exsiting i thought that it would be cool to be one but i would rather read about them then be one becusr im a wose and i hate pain so...

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Lordpeace
13:38 Sep 15 2009

so sorry about your dad lil one

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