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im just trying my best



this world is such a mess



doing my best



is hardly enough



to keep up



as we all fall into such disrepair



when i try



im looked upon as



ignorant

selfish

satanic



everyone thinks that you have to be



pippy

hippy

happy



to do charity



but not me



i like to show up



to help



in my

usual

blackness



but

im shunned



out of



hate

spite

and misunderstanding



i dont go back to them



instead i do the things that give us all such bad names



that made me feel so misunderstood in the first place



oh well its the past and i feel



pippy

hippy

happy



in my own dark oblivion-ish way

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ChatDeLaNuit
20:19 Nov 23 2010

Love this poem, especially the part "i like to show up to help in my usual blackness" :)

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Dans l'obscurité de la nuit, j'entends des hurlements, il semble ont été faites pour moi d'entendre, ils demandent pas vous voir appelant à mei crois qu'ils veulent danser et hurler en vertu de l'oubli obscurité de la nuit mais si je pars je ne serai pas de retour ce n'est la vie alors adieu



ENGLISH TRANSLATION :)



In the darkness of the night

i hear howls

it seems

were made for me to hear

they are calling dont you see

calling for me

i believe they want to dance and howl

under the dark oblivion of night

but if I go

i wont

be coming back

this is life

so goodbye

my moon the brightest of all my muses



why must you be so bright



yet



live in a world of darkness



you came to



me



covered in scars



and you still



covered mine



in doing so becoming the love of my life

Oh how the moon taunts me



sitting up there in all your glorious ecstasy



while lowly me



stands under the



and dances like a gypsy

love is like a

dagger

constantly being pushed into your

heart

constantly being twisting pulled and pushed

by everyone

while you are

crying

withering in pain

screaming at a random passerby

bleeding dry

dying in a blaze of strange fiery emotion

love is

agony

how can you love if there is none to love

how can you be loved if your nothing

love can be

compassionate soulful willful amazing heaven

but for me its

hell

how can you tell if you are in love if you have never felt love

how can you tell if he loves you if you have never been loved

love is

a leap of faith

a shot in the dark

butterflies in the stomach

heat on a cold winter night

blossoming flower in spring

a cool drink of water in the summer

love is

you & me

love is

everyone everything

im not 6 feet under

do you hear that thumping?

yea baby that is my

HEART

im thriving

living

without

your love

im not 6 feet under because

i left ou there

to

die

alone

in

my

coffin

that you had built up all around in in broad daylight

but i

vanished

and in my place

is

YOU

yea do you hear thumpin now?

its dirt covering you

because that is exactly what you diserve from me

your

DEAD

to me and im NOT digging you back up to even

save MYSELF

all i hear in my head is

----------blah

---------------blah

---------------------blah

i read your lips but from what im seeing it is

-----------blah

-----------------blah

----------------------blah

what you are saying makes since now only because i think of it as useless shit



im no mind reader but i can plainly read on your face

---------------------that your treating

----------------------this////me////us

---------------------------like shit

so now all i can

-----hear

-------see

--------watch

from you is

------------------blah

-----------------------blah

----------------------------blah

and all you can

-----hear

-------see

----------watch

is me walkin down the street middle finger still

----------------pointing at YOU

i cant breathe

-------im struggling to live

your smothering me

-------in love

let me be free

--------let me live

your drowning me

--------its to much

i can do anything,...... no everything

--------ON MY OWN

let go

let me simply

be me

or i will very soon see

-------------------------THE END--------------------------

i fell apart

down through the cracks

into the dark despair

of hell

no one can

see me

find me

hear my screams

of pain

of anger

of love

of being



i see everybody

nobody sees me

i hear everybody

nobody hears me



i am everything

the air you breathe

the earth you walk

the pen you wright with

i can kill

i can cause

physical pain

mental pain

your pain



im evil

im destructive

i am the cause of death

i am death



HELP me



im scared of

screaming out

yelling in pain

crying in anger

dying alone

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zodiak13
09:55 Nov 19 2010

this is a good poem, i like the way you write

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when will my gothic king come for me?



my knight in black armour



oh how i yearn for him to be with me



i jump fearlesly from my imprisonment, i fall waiting for the hard impact to kill



but insted his open arms await me



i fall soundlesly down into them



only to melt at the meeting of our lips



i can see us in the distance riding away from my tower



oh how i wish all this were true



for i awake my knight is not there and im back in my lonely tower



how i scream and shout in pain



when oh when will my gothic king comef or me?