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On my Black Friday wishlist~
Surprisingly, not much this year🖤
I did also spend a few hundred at Killstar, but most of it is for resale. I've got my family vacation coming up in a couple weeks, but I always end up spending money on my nieces, and nephews instead of myself. Except for food, I will absolutely put money down for my fatass to eat whatever I want xD I'm just not a souvenirs/collectables person. As much as I love the beach, I don't enjoy the beachy aesthetic, it's not me. Maybe gothic beachy...
Killstar has become the new Hot Topic, I pretty much shop there for stuff to sell moreso than to wear. Their designs are just redundant, it's the same things over and over. One of my favorite things to wear are oversized hoodies, they're just cute and comfy, and Killstar doesn't do much of those. Actually my favorite hoodies come from Dolls Kill, which I hate to admit because they are 100% a shitty fast fashion garbage company... But they have good hoodies.
There's been an owl outside the house... making MONKEY noises all week xD
Which apparently is normal for owls, but it's pretty freaky when you go outside to find your cat, and it sounds like there's a goddamn monkey in your tree.
My mom first noticed it while she was out one night putting an offering out to Hecate. My mom who was super Christian all my life, she's going through this whole self-awareness journey, and it's funny because it's like... The same thing I went through when I was like 11 years old. The whole witchcraft, power in nature, power in self, energy occult stuff. Both my mom, and my oldest sister have been going through it. If we could get my other sister on board... Then again my mom, my oldest sister, and I are all Libra, my other sister is the outcast Capricorn xD Anyway, she was putting out an offering to Hecate, like ya do, and this owl swooshed above her head, landed in a tree, and started screeching like a monkey which she recorded, and showed me the next day. Interestingly, Hecate has a strong connection to owls. But so does Hades among other gods and goddesses. I don't know if I'd personally take the monkey noises as a good sign or not though xD It's very on par for this family for THAT to be the sign we get from the Universe💀
I did warn that owl though while I was out getting my cat... Like, listen, big bird... I don't care who you're a messanger from, better leave my cat alone. Cause owls are fucking big, and I don't want to fight one. I don't know who's crazier, me yelling at an owl in the middle of the night or the owl screeching back at me like a chimpanzee~
My eleven year old niece bought me a present...
It's supposed to be a cute little bear.
I think there was a malfunction at the bear factory... cause that's a fucking goblin xD
Still love it though~
I was wondering if this one would ever make it around to movie or TV... Any time I'm talking to someone about Stephen King, I recommend The Long Walk. It's just very underappreciated for how good, and fucking brutal it is. Sure, Stephen King has about a billion bangers, but this has always been one of my favorites. A lot of things go back to me being 12 years old, and finding my dad's closet full of books. I have this specific memory of sitting on the closet floor, opening one of the Dark Tower books, and reading about Roland banging some demon succbus oracle creature. It was then I knew... books are pretty cool xD Probably one of the reasons I'm so antisocial, I would rather have spent time with books than people even as a child/teenager. And now it's video games because reading makes me sleepy xD Occasionally I'll crack open one of my old Ravenloft novels, but I know those books so well I can lay back, and play them like a movie in my head. That's what I often do when trying to sleep, so I'll think about Jander and Strahd, ok back to the asylum in Waterdeep... What if Sauron got pulled into Ravenloft? I can't decide if he'd totally dominate the other Dark Lord's or not. Obviously he could take Strahd, Strahd is basically just a vampire. But Soth or Azalin? Does Turn Undead work on Soth? I'm gonna say no... but that would be hilarious. Hmm🤔 I... need to get a life xD This is the direct influence of an impressionable young girl finding her dad's closet full of D&D adventure books at a precious young age. You did this to me, father. Though to be fair... there are worst things to find in your parent's closet. For sure.
I guess I can kinda see why The Long Walk hasn't been touched much because... it is basically just a group of boys, ya know, walking. Obviously I recommend reading it because you think it's just walking, but it's Stephen fucking King so, it ain't just walking. I'm curious to see how this turns out~
He's so chonky xD
He freaked me out a few nights ago. We were in bed, and I had my phone sitting to the left of me, watching some video. And he's staring up into the super darkness of my room towards the ceiling, and he starts looking to the left then looking to the right then back to the left then back to the right, like he's tracking something, but it's completely dark. I actually had a really vivid sleep hallucination recently where I was asleep, and when I opened my eyes there was this tall, black robed figure standing above me, and when I sat up it very quickly backed away, and disappeared into the corner. I've had sleep hallucinations my whole life, sometimes they're really vivid figures, sometimes they're just voices, sometimes I can move, sometimes I can't, and they don't usually scare me because I've had them my whole life, but occasionally... Get the fuck outta my bedchamber, Nazgûl lookin motherfucker~
Or don't😈
Random Bunny brain nonsense... Timothy Treadwell refused to carry bear spray on his adventures because he, in no way, wanted to harm a bear even though the spray is nonlethal.
But in his last moments, while fatally being attacked by one he was screaming for his girlfriend to bash the offending bear's head in with a frying pan.
Wut😐
Like, what was your plan though? Did you seriously think you'd NEVER get attacked? That it just simply wasn't a possibility? Sure, maybe you never would, but completely dismissing the possibility to the point of having no defense is insane. Like I love my cat, I don't wanna hurt my cat, I'd never hurt my cat, but if he comes running at me with the intention to eat me, I'm spraying him with something, I'm pretty sure the thought has crossed his mind before, what if I just eat this annoying human who keeps taking pictures of me, and calling me fat xD
You want to live like a bear, be a bear... Bears kill each other. And eat each other. Congratulations, you lived your dream much more realistically than you ever imagined. I don't mean to be insensitive, but...Holy fuck. And in the end being a hypocrite because you were, in fact, ready and willing to hurt/kill a bear to save yourself. All these documentaries talking about what a hero he was. I don't see that. Wanting to protect wildlife is heroic, and bears are cool. But when it came down to it, he crumbled, he begged for the pain, and death of the one thing he vowed to protect, and ultimately multiple bears were killed directly because of his actions. Being a dumbass is not heroic. I guess you can chalk it up to you don't know how you'd react to something until it happens. Maybe he always thought he'd be ready, and willing to lay down as a meal for the animals he loved if it came to that, and when it did come to that he decided that being eaten alive actually sucked tremendously. Who can say~
I love a clown. The creepier, the better.
I don't like Art the clown.
And... I dunno. The Terrifier movies are just mind-numbingly stupid to me. Like there's good stupid vs bad stupid. Like Rob Zombie movies are fucking stupid as shit, but they're also hilarious, and artistic to a certain degree, they have a uniqueness to them. They have depth within the stupidity. Terrifier does not, there's nothing there beyond a guy killing dumb people because they're fucking dumb. It's a lazy horror movie. It's not funny, it's just redundant and boring. I've been forced to watch it like three times because, "Have you seen Terrifier? It's awesome, you'd love it." No. It's bad. Art the clown is not a compelling villain, I just don't like him. I would take the Killer Clowns From Outer Space over him any fucking day xD Again, a very, very stupid movie. Better than Terrifier though. I don't see the mass appeal🤔
Goddamn, I needed that laugh xD
Imagine being so pathetic... you play dress up with a cup xD
You don't use it to drink out of, you dress it up like a fucking whore, and put it with your other cups to socialize xD
If you thought putting your dog in a sweater was bad, I guarantee these ugly-ass cups, this one literally the color of baby vomit, have sweaters too. Somebody knits those, cackling with depravity while they do it.
This is why you don't model heels yourself that you're trying to sell...
Or why you DO😈
Sure, buddy, I'm sure you're just looking at the shoes👍
Look, I don't get the feet thing, it's not my kink. I don't particularly have anything against feet, they're functional, they look cute in shoes, but they don't exactly get me going. But ya know, if someone is willing to pay to oogle my adult, consensual feet, that's a victimless crime xD
Personally, I think there are better assets to oogle~
And honestly, it's weird to me when people go looking for this shit on resale sites when they have entire websites dedicated to "tipping" people for pictures. It's gotta be some kinda shock value thing. You've come to the wrong person for shock value xD
Actually, I only know one person who is into feet, and it's funny because he always tells me it's kind of a shameful thing for him. And I'm just like... dude, there are MUCH stranger things people are into. Feet are pretty tame in comparison to just about everything else I've seen. Like, feet are borderline vanilla at this point, let's be real, no shame xD Attempting to get foot pics on resale sites... Shame💀
For Halloween, I ended up taking 6/7 of my nieces and nephews trick-or-treating, all but my nephew who lives in Texas. It was kinda a spur of the moment thing, I wasn't even supposed to be there, so even my 15 year old nephew went with us. Though I suspect he went with us more as a bodyguard xD He's at least twice as big as me, and he's a good boy. He was talking to me about his girlfriend while we walked, and I like his girlfriend, she's cool, she loves anime and gaming, could definitely use more women like that in the family. But of course, she's got a lot of issues. He says to me, "Why did I have to fall for the most broken person in the world?" Yeah, ok, I wouldn't go that far... I wouldn't put her up against some of the people I've fallen for. But that's a weird thing in this family. My dad fell for the most broken person he knew, my brother did, and I certainly did. Like some kinda fucked up family savior complex. My former best friend used to say to me, "You need to stop trying to save broken men, and find one to save you." Which I always thought was an odd thing for him to say because Wolfie was the only truly mentally ill person I've fallen in love with. My exes, they were just douchebags, they weren't broken people. And I never saw Wolfie as broken. He was hurt, he needed help, I tried. My nephew asks me what he can do to help his girlfriend. You tell me. I mean, don't tell her she's broken, obviously. But someone else's trauma is... a lot to handle, especially when you're 15. From what he's told me, and she's told me, her parents were abusive drug addicts who eventually abandoned her, her grandpa tried to drown her, and then she ended up in the system, and was ultimately adopted by some hyper religious family, and that family is now under investigation for sexual abuse charges from their numerous adopted children. Because isn't it always the hyper religious ones? It's always the ones playing most righteous who have the darkest demons. As weird, and fucked up as I seem, I'd rather be surface fucked than pretending to be all glowy and perfect with all the real fucked up shit underneath. You know what you're getting with me, and personally, that's what I like. You think I was with all my exes because they were immediately douchebags? It's one thing to have a bad day, and act like an asshole, but it's another thing entirely to portray yourself as a certain person then be completely different, to genuinely just be an asshole. That's one thing I always appreciated about Wolfie, he was very upfront about his issues from the get-go. He was the only man ever genuine with me from the start so therefore the only man I've ever genuinely been in love with. He told me when we met that I should run away, that he'd only hurt me given the chance, damn near promised it. Worse, that part of him would enjoy it... Still. I don't regret that I didn't run, and I still wish every day he'd come back. He knew I wouldn't. He knew I'd never run, never leave, even for my own good, even if he did turn into a monster, even if he was hurting me, he knew it would have to be him... Did he have secrets? Absolutely. I have secrets too. Don't we all?
I swear to fucking Hades, people are so fucking dumb, and collect the dumbest shit.
What do I think? I think they're cups. I think they're made to be functional/used. I think when you die they'll end up at a thrift store being fought over by old ladies. I think you need to find better things to do with your time/space/money than collecting literal cups.
Gee, I bought a cup at Hot Topic a few weeks ago...
And like an absolute fool I've been USING it instead of putting it on display💀
To the people who say there's something wrong with me, that I need help... at least I don't need cup validation xD
The fact that there are entire groups of raging morons dedicated to cup validation... get me off this planet NOW.
That's hysterical. A travel cup display case, like they're treasures or trophies.
07:17 Nov 02 2024 Times Read: 794
I'm gonna protest the "unreliable."
The rest of it though... yeah, I can't argue with. I feel like I've really gotten a good grip on my emotions though. By just kinda not having any xD One extreme to the other. Chaotic to empty. There is no in-between. There is no normal.
What the fuck is normal anyway? It's like they want you to think just having a personality IS the disorder. Like having thoughts, and opinions, and traits, and emotions, and not kissing ass, and falling in line with the rest of the brainless means you must be fucking sick.
I'm only really harmful to myself. And I'm a masochist so... you know how that goes. Is being a masochist also a "disorder"? I'm sure some people would say so.
I know that I'm chronically antisocial... Half-ass lazy attempts at conversations like this are partially why.
It's just so boring😭
You're giving me nothing to respond to. So... I'm just not going to respond. And the next time you message me, I'm not going to reply because you literally have nothing to say. I fucking hate when people who don't know how to have an intelligent conversation try to talk to me. Like, what's "chilling"? Sorry, I'm not 12 years old, I don't do "chilling." I fucking hate when people try to start a conversation with me, and expect me to carry said conversation. Motherfucker, you came up to me, you better have something to talk to me about. Or are you that fucking boring? Cause if you are... why the fuck are you trying to talk to me? I'm not here to entertain you. If you want MY attention, you better flip that, and have something interesting to say.
I know I sound like a huge bitch, but seriously, I hate lazy conversations. If that makes my standards too high, oh well. And it's one thing if we already know each other, and you bullshit small talk me, that's whatever. But imagine walking up to a girl, "Hey. How are you? I'm just chilling."
K. Well good luck with that?
That's all I can say xD It's so fucking tedious.
All this from a guy who's profile states he's, "Looking for females 18-35." Aww, shucks, I'm too fucking old anyway. Totally my loss, totally not creepy💀
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