There is so much I have to do now... My head is pounding... My mood swings are coming back... Fuck... I'm pretty sure I'm gonna meltdown soon... Everything has been going so well, though... I'm working again, my family is (finally) happy with me... I am this close to just giving up again...
...from life.
I dunno... I wanna go somewhere... Anywhere... I just want to up and go off for a trip somewhere... I'm getting kinda bored with my life around here...
Well, I figure I'll put my latest update of my life in here, if for no one else but myself... I started working again (finally!) at a property management company about a half an hour away from my home. I'm only a receptionist, but I make half-decent money doing it and it's not manual labor or food service, which makes me happy. I have begun breaking away from a few of my friends that are bad influences on me, and met a lot of new and interesting people, thanks in large part to this site. I won't name names or anything, but you people know who you are, if you read this.
I finally get my car in about a week, which I am also thrilled about. Now I just need to get my license and the parts I need to get it running again, which should only take me another couple of weeks. After that, though, I think I'm gonna be doing a lot of driving and road trips. If anyone reads this and they want me to come and visit them, drop me a line and I'll see what I can do... ;)
In the love department, well... I don't exactly know about that... I'm so confused and I don't want to hurt anyone anymore, which I seem to be good at... I'm just happy that no one knows my past with that kind of thing, or I think I'd be lynched and run off the site. Well, maybe not that bad, but still, I think I am...
I start going to school again on January 8th, which is another thrill. I finally get to further my education and make something of myself. I'm just gonna be taking a couple of classes to get back into things and figure out what I want to do, but it will still be tough with working full-time. I'm going to be taking German, Psychology, Sociology, and Vocals classes, at least, those are my current choices.
Speaking of vocals, I've really been practicing my singing lately, and I think I've made leaps and bounds. The world has a cruel sense of irony, though. Like the robot that loves to play classical piano and has mitten hands, I love to sing and want to be in a band, but I have problems singing in front of other people. I also feel bad that I can only sing, because everyone says they can sing and wants to sing in a band, but no one can play an instrument, which is another reason I'm not in a band...
I have finally decided I need to get out of this too-many-horses-to-mention town, as well. I am currently choosing between three places: the San Jose Bay Area (where I grew up), Oregon (nice place, have some relatives and friends there), or Washington (always thought about moving there, I probably want to visit there first). I know, huge gaps in between the three choices, but that's how my mind works. Only problem is I have to find work in any of the three places before I move, which is probably the most difficult part of it all. A roommate wouldn't hurt, either.
Well, that's about all the latest on my life... I just needed to get it off my mind, since I never talk about all this stuff with anyone...
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