19:42 Jun 18 2025
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Update I guess as just going to write stuff.
We doing alright. Seem to be getting into a schedule.
I'm trying to keep my 8 hour work day outlook. Meaning fishing trips, etc all done during weekdays. As is Dr visits, shopping, shower giving, haircuts, cleaning. You know what I mean. And my weekends my own.
Well as much of 'my own' with a 178 lbs 72 year old mental challenge adult attached at my hip can be.
But brother is learning when my bedroom door closed- not to bother me. He is learning alarms are always on when he tries to sneak outside. He is learning I hate clutter, and keep a clean house. It might be old ( built 1954) but it's as clean as I can get it.
What I learning is I really am solitary person. I really dislike having eyes on me 24/7. But he is learning standing over me, just watching its good for him to do. I mean- sit down. I hate being stood over, watched from hallway. You want something- speak up. I don't play guessing games.
Safe to say he is learning to stop as I tell him to sit down. As I don't watch western shows or cartoons, he usually gets bored and goes back to his 55 inch tv in his room.
I do miss my alone time.
I miss having free time, not time I'm so mentally worn out, I feel like doing
nothing.
I miss knowing family here. Juanita calls, text everyday, so do a few others. But no one visits. While I'm cool with that it just seems shitty ad people know I'm dealing with Ray on my own. How about a " hey, can I take Ray out to lunch?" Or " car show this weekend, I'm going. Want me to take Ray"
Nope nothing. Just...sinking in how alone I am. And if something happens to me how Ray be left alone.
That brings up a point- I need to get stuff sold. Settled. Apprised, sold. Get it off the hands of who handles my stuff when I die, and off my own shoulders.
July I'll start taking those steps. I have all the court papers now. Just have to deal with my one sister not seen in over 4 years.
We reached out after my other sister died about selling, never heard back. Guess it's courthouse steps, which is fine as I only have to come up with 1/4th price. Hey, if I can get rental houses cheap...you better believe I'll screw her over.
We offered to list, over 3 years time, the rentals houses with a realtor and never heard from her.
So some big ticket, gut twisting, stress, sleeplessness nights dealing with her.
But time to get stuff started. Hanging over my head ain't helping either.
I don't see me being on VR as much. So those who hold any if my other profiles in Houses, Covens if you need me to take them, let me know. I'll put them in storage in my own House.
Anyone else watching Black Dagger Brotherhood? I'm liking it. As I'm about 8 books into the series.
Ok- mind dump done. Hope you all doing well. Luvs ya, miss ya.
COMMENTS
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MorningStarAldan
14:34 Jun 19 2025
Love your mind dump and miss you in the House :::huggs::: ❤️
Lilleth
16:42 Jun 22 2025
You have so much on your plate. I admire you big time.
CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
18:49 Jun 24 2025
Love and miss you Ratty! I know I'm not physically close by but you can call me anytime and talk, vent, cry, anything you need. I hate how alone you are feeling and I wish I could do something to help. I know how busy you are and haven't wanted to bother you so please send me a text sometime when you can. As far as LBO goes, don't worry about it, you always have a home within its walls, Real Life First Always.