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It is funny how fickle and trusting the heart is when it is in love

And how the mind, though it is above the heart, loses its purpose

But then, where does happiness stem from?

Can the brain really perceive what joy feels like?

And how come is it that the body still functions

Even when the brain loses its "control"

Yet when the heart gives in, everything collapses?

Here I am again trying to find release

As I write down such gibberish in my journal...

This is how I try to numb myself and let my mind work less I cave in

And the tears begin to fall without me even knowing it

Thank goodness for the friends who keep me sane...

Slender candles sitting on a chocolate frosted cake

And memories dimmed but not forgotten

Tenderly lace the sweetness of the moment

I begin to wonder was it all just a wonderful dream

That I just wove in my mind to keep me alive all this time?

I take the knife and slice myself a portion,

Imagining that he is just there in front of me

As if I was serving the dessert to him on this day

But as I look up, there is nothing... no one there..

And as I slowly pick up the fork to my awaiting mouth

I tense up as if I feel his presence near me..

Am I being haunted by my own mind?

Or is it really just him trying to reach out to me?

I shake off these fleeting thoughts

Knowing they are nothing without him

To acknowledge all that I feel to make me live once more

I must try to divert my thoughts and keep the heart at bay

One hour at a time... each night as it passes by

By this winter, I will have known you for a year

And if things did turn out as we planned,

We would've been together by spring...

This is all just a lovely dream, woven by heart

Adam and Eve... in their secluded Paradise

Where there would be no one else but them

To keep them away from the bitterness of the world

I suddenly hear my cellphone beep.. and I am cold...