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I feel the need to breakdown and cry

Now if I only knew why I feel like this

It happens everyday continuously

We never get used to it we only learn

To deal with it a little better each day

Each day I fight off these tears and

Continue to hide beneath another mask

Sometimes it fails to work as I feel a

Tear shed and roll down my pale cheek

If tonight I die,

who will cry?

Strangers with their feigned interest,

while those I love have turned away.

and if my best isn't good enough,

What more can I Give?

GO ahead --walk away.

Just leave me here alone.



And if tonight I die,

Who will cry?

All my Strength is drained,

With nothing left to give.

Drowning in the depths of sorrow,

No tears left to cry.

A silent voice and distant eyes

that no one hears or sees.

And if tonight I die,

who will cry?

False proclaims of love

Coming from your lips

Turning away from you

Wishing to get away

From all the lies you speak

Escaping in the other direction

Walking along the cliffs in pure

Silence…

The only things I have are hanging from my tears

I start to see and dream but instead they're all my fears

I’m screaming in the back of my mind

but I just can't seem to find what I’m looking for

This insanity is all of my calamity

I need more comfort and no more sorrow

Cause I won't last to see tomorrow

Can’t you see I’m spreading around?

Can’t you see me torn on the ground?

You act as though I have no needs

But yet you see me fall down to my knees

Hear my cries

Hear my screams

These are my needs, I want to free!

The only things I have are hanging from my tears

I start to see and dream but instead they're all my fears!

Staring deeply into his intense eyes

Seeing into the depths of his soul

Tilting my head to the side exposing

The tender white flesh of my neck

He leans in closer whispering into my ear

I relax within his arms he licks his lips

I can feel his breath upon my neck and

Then his cool lips on my warm skin

I jump feeling the piercing pain of

His long white sharp fangs the pain slowly

Leaves and turns into pleasure feeling him

Suck at the two small wounds he has made

Draining me of my blood then removing his lips

From my flesh and slices his own wrist allowing

Me to drink from him turning me into a thing

Of the night leaving me with his immortal kiss of death…

Head in my hands

Tears from my eyes

Life from my soul

Love from my heart

Broken and shattered

After you had your way

With it tearing my love

Apart and throwing it

Back at me spitting it in

My face you didn’t care

About me you didn’t

Care about us…

Watching you walk away from me

Watching my hopes and dreams go

With you neither will be coming back

Memories run throughout my mind from

The good to the bad all at the same fleeting

Moment I can’t bring myself to say goodbye

As you walk out that door…

Not turning to look back…

Not turning to take that final look…

My hopes and dreams are crushed and crumbled

Into a bloodstained heap thrown down and stomped

Upon just the same as my forever broken heart…

Bloodstained darkness

Gasps within silence

Sour thirst taking over

Like fire burning my throat

Searching for a final victim

So I can escape this unbearable

Pain that binds me to this life

Yet night after night I am forced

To grope my victims tentatively

Longing for their blood only to

Make the despicable pain cease

Longing to feel the touch of

The suns deadly rays crashing

Down upon my pale white skin

Yet I cannot and am stuck within

The Bloodstained Darkness…

I am lost among my own

Pathetic kind in a deceitful world

Dripping my own wicked hopes as

They tentatively slip from my mind

Bound within the chilling shadows

Roaming the bloodstained cliffs

Haunted from the past suicides

As they echo throughout the air

Sadness within their eyes

Rotten hands lurk over the collapsed

Angels from a far filled with guilt as

They gasp through their teeth trying

To only breath once more

Bloodstained desire

Controlling turmoil

Clenching harm

Walking within

Tombs of the lost

Tombs of the damned

Tombs of the murdered

Tombs within hell

Requesting to lay

In peace crying