blurrighter: what is a no chip?
biker_babe20000: i knew you were going to ask that
biker_babe20000: i dont really know but i have a pretty good idea
blurrighter: maybe it is a girl thing?
biker_babe20000: i think its the abiltiy to control your wants and your needs better
blurrighter: oh
biker_babe20000: its not a girl thing
biker_babe20000: lol
blurrighter: well, so you are through being hypnotized?
biker_babe20000: thats a good way of putting it
blurrighter: uh huh
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: start a thread on it
biker_babe20000: i didnt see it
blurrighter: it is a cool sounding concept
biker_babe20000: was in my dream
blurrighter: you start athread on it
biker_babe20000: do you think i should let them all know
biker_babe20000: i dont know
biker_babe20000: its kinda advanced
biker_babe20000: lol
blurrighter: well when one is ahead of the curve, you have to at least go back and put up a hazard sign for the ones entering the curve
biker_babe20000: true
biker_babe20000: i have never seen anything like this before
blurrighter: I learn to teach
blurrighter: why do you learn?
biker_babe20000: same
blurrighter: ok
biker_babe20000: thats why i told you
blurrighter: then say yes to the no chip in the forum
biker_babe20000: have you seen this before
blurrighter: it would bring you much acclaim
blurrighter: I have admitted to being hypnotised and it makes everything else I say more palatable
biker_babe20000: i am not looking for that
blurrighter: influence is the ability to make a difference in other people's lives
biker_babe20000: i have been working on the No thing for along time i didnt know you had to earn it
blurrighter: true savior faire is to trip as a world leader comes into the room so people can listen to all the seriousness of what he says after the fake fall
blurrighter: yes, it must be earned
blurrighter: and sometimes people if they know where they should go, then they do not get there
blurrighter: as when you look for things you do not ever get them
blurrighter: but
blurrighter: people should actually be aware of the different possibilities of life
biker_babe20000: close your eyes and they come to you
biker_babe20000: i have been releasing many of the things i know
blurrighter: yes
biker_babe20000: mostly i just get strang looks from people
blurrighter: but we are still ourselves
biker_babe20000: more our selfs i feel
biker_babe20000: because i really dont care what they think of me
blurrighter: maybe the soul is not full, just not empty
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: filling
blurrighter: but anyways
blurrighter: I take myself down a notch to make myself rise
biker_babe20000: can i ask you a ?
blurrighter: admitting I was hynotized brought me much credibility
biker_babe20000: some take you down for you
blurrighter: for to control that is the next step
blurrighter: ask away
biker_babe20000: two things that have been bugging me
biker_babe20000: one the soul mate
biker_babe20000: i think we are our own soul mates
biker_babe20000: in this way
biker_babe20000: we need to love our selfs before loving anouther
biker_babe20000: so we or our own soul mate when the mind and the body meet
biker_babe20000: i hope i am making sense out of this
blurrighter: keep going
biker_babe20000: another thing is this woman keeps coming to me
biker_babe20000: ceila burn
biker_babe20000: her brother killed her and buryed her out back of there house
biker_babe20000: but i dont know where or in what time
biker_babe20000: so its very hard to help her
biker_babe20000: i am very diffrent hope i dont scare you
blurrighter: well, your fear of scaring others prevents you from finding the truth
biker_babe20000: its the no thing
biker_babe20000: i dont fear it like i said i dont care but some can take it some run in fear
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: you are not deep enough
blurrighter: go back to the first question
biker_babe20000: tell me the depth
blurrighter: you stopped the chase
blurrighter: you didn't get to the sentence
blurrighter: you stopped the flow
biker_babe20000: i know
biker_babe20000: the soul mate is ourselfs
biker_babe20000: this body dealing with our spirit
biker_babe20000: the all knowing part of us
biker_babe20000: living on earth and knowing that this body is not us
blurrighter: biker_babe20000: two things that have been bugging me biker_babe20000: one the soul mate biker_babe20000: i think we are our own soul mates biker_babe20000: in this way biker_babe20000: we need to love our selfs before loving anouther biker_babe20000: so we or our own soul mate when the mind and the body meet
blurrighter: run from there
blurrighter: ok
biker_babe20000: wow
blurrighter: yes spirit
blurrighter: there was more than body and soul
blurrighter: but there is more than spirit and body and soul
blurrighter: you have to keep going
blurrighter: running with it
blurrighter: I cannot tell you the answer
biker_babe20000: we are god
blurrighter: if we are good
biker_babe20000: everyone is part of it
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: many many sheep giving you starnge looks
blurrighter: strange
biker_babe20000: they just dont know
blurrighter: people who fear what others think are not gods
biker_babe20000: they are blind
blurrighter: they are nothing
blurrighter: therefore they are not gods
biker_babe20000: always always looking for another to make them happy
blurrighter: it is faith in self that makes us gods
blurrighter: that is the only faith you need
blurrighter: yes love of self
blurrighter: faith of self
blurrighter: same thing
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: so what was your question
biker_babe20000: to be is to except
blurrighter: accept
blurrighter: now phrase that stream of consciousness into a question
biker_babe20000: lol right
biker_babe20000: english is my second
blurrighter: my soulmate used to spell it like that
biker_babe20000: what is your soul mate
blurrighter: tamara
blurrighter: I don't look up to her anymore
blurrighter: she means nothing to me two days back
blurrighter: she is nothing
blurrighter: motherhood has devalued her
blurrighter: made her a sheep
biker_babe20000: i have one of those but he wasnt my soul mate
biker_babe20000: i am my own soul mate
blurrighter: no
biker_babe20000: and maybe thats a loss
blurrighter: when the love for you from you, projected outwards is returned from the world, and you are accepted from the world
blurrighter: then you are your own soul mate
blurrighter: but who finds their niche?
blurrighter: who can be whole?
blurrighter: who can find their place?
blurrighter: who can walk in robes and make it seem so right?
biker_babe20000: can you be whole without the acceptance of another
blurrighter: the lack of concern from a leader is the quality that makes leadership more powerful, the fact that you know better than them and will go against their idea of what is right for them, when it seems a double cross to them, is the thing that makes a leader a leader
blurrighter: when you go against them
blurrighter: then they will be for you
blurrighter: you must sacrifice the role they want you to play
blurrighter: and play the role you must
blurrighter: and take the chance you get dethroned
blurrighter: but only a leader would spite himself and go against the better judgment of the people
biker_babe20000: i am a leo being dethroned would hurt
blurrighter: your place is not just about you
blurrighter: your place is to rise
blurrighter: fi you are a goddess
blurrighter: you must be that
biker_babe20000: i dont want to be a goddess
blurrighter: there is a sacrifice
biker_babe20000: i dont want everyone to love me
blurrighter: I walk in flip flops without shirts in the winter
blurrighter: and people walk with me and they are like listening
biker_babe20000: i love my flip flops
biker_babe20000: thats because you walk in them
blurrighter: and they are like why should I believe anything of what this guy says?
blurrighter: and then as I tell them about life
blurrighter: everyone walks by they say hey COACH
blurrighter: and then after the third person says that, and the friend you are with realises that life is not about trying to fit in to be accepted
blurrighter: to be truely accepted is to not to try to fit in
blurrighter: to be yourself
blurrighter: find yourself
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: and then for the acceptence to come
biker_babe20000: to love your self
blurrighter: accept yourself
blurrighter: regardless
blurrighter: you will be a Pariah
biker_babe20000: whats that
blurrighter: but ultimately to be publically stned for a decade leads to messiah
blurrighter: a pariah is the lowest of the low of outcast
blurrighter: VAMPARIAH
biker_babe20000: ok
blurrighter: I guess I am VAMESSIAH now
blurrighter: I am totally accepted
biker_babe20000: they will come to you
biker_babe20000: i seen it long ago
blurrighter: only the bold
blurrighter: who are tired of being sheep
blurrighter: I have transformed my power
blurrighter: to an acceptible form
blurrighter: I have come back from the dead
blurrighter: I have met the higher power
blurrighter: I never believed n any of this
blurrighter: I don't need to call it god
biker_babe20000: never
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: I don't believe shit
biker_babe20000: when did it come
blurrighter: I feel it
blurrighter: or it doesn't exist
blurrighter: we hold these truths to be self evident
blurrighter: Declaration of INdependence
blurrighter: the trip is not survivable
blurrighter: I am one in a billion
blurrighter: messiahs come around every 600 years
blurrighter: Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, Martin Luther, Napoleon, and in 400 years more another messiah
blurrighter: it is not my time
blurrighter: I will lay low
blurrighter: and be happy
blurrighter: help people who want to be helped
blurrighter: you cannot frce the world to open up until the world is ready
biker_babe20000: they will come to you
blurrighter: 600 years
blurrighter: I have a je nais se pais
blurrighter: I have a way
blurrighter: I know how to be of service
biker_babe20000: are those pictures of you
blurrighter: but right now I am going to be a recluse for while
blurrighter: what pictures?
biker_babe20000: in your profile
blurrighter: yes
biker_babe20000: all of them
blurrighter: those are within the past season
blurrighter: 4 months
blurrighter: all of them
biker_babe20000: i see many diffrent people in those pics
blurrighter: a camera maybe able to capture other peoples souls but not mine
biker_babe20000: many diffrent sides
biker_babe20000: no they are you just diffrent parts of you
blurrighter: still, I am not happy being given a new body and still be me inside
biker_babe20000: they tell a story
blurrighter: that has brought me much sadness
blurrighter: even that I know more now and have found my place in life, acceptance of my power
biker_babe20000: you do not like the one you are in now?
blurrighter: I want to be less
blurrighter: not more
blurrighter: I want to be a simple man
blurrighter: I have always wanted to be nothing
biker_babe20000: your not
biker_babe20000: it would be easyer
blurrighter: I chose death and oblivion and I got immortality
biker_babe20000: but why do you want easyer
blurrighter: not easier
blurrighter: just free from responsibility
biker_babe20000: lol
biker_babe20000: ohh
blurrighter: I want to make the ones I love happy
blurrighter: I want to teach with the written word
blurrighter: but I do not want fame
biker_babe20000: you have that gift
blurrighter: I want to be left a lone
blurrighter: I want one woman
biker_babe20000: to do what
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: and maybe a mistress to keep the marriage strong
biker_babe20000: i understand that
biker_babe20000: that would make it strong
biker_babe20000: ?
blurrighter: That is why I liked being poor and shoddy clothed
blurrighter: but anyways what else can I do for you
biker_babe20000: tell me why you feel a mistress would keep it strong
blurrighter: well
blurrighter: the French do it
blurrighter: and all rich men
biker_babe20000: so
biker_babe20000: they are fools
blurrighter: it is the unsaid in life
blurrighter: does the wife have the freak side of the rich man?
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: the mistress is the fuck buddy
biker_babe20000: you can not fill a void by creating another hole
blurrighter: he can still do his wife, lovingly, and make love to her because he loves her
blurrighter: one woman is not enough
blurrighter: I take ffrom one woman and give to the other and she thinks It came from me
biker_babe20000: should one man be enough
blurrighter: one woman does not fill me like two would
blurrighter: yes I would allow my women to have controlled relationships
blurrighter: but because I have the money I set the rules
blurrighter: I do not want AIDS
blurrighter: but I do want them to be happy
biker_babe20000: me either
blurrighter: there are limits to freedom
biker_babe20000: ill tell you another story
biker_babe20000: this guy wants me
biker_babe20000: calls me wants just sex maybe more he likes my head
biker_babe20000: cute guy i wouldnt mind
biker_babe20000: but
biker_babe20000: i told him no way
biker_babe20000: i am noit ready to open more doors
biker_babe20000: for everybody you let in another door opens
biker_babe20000: and its not about the sex
biker_babe20000: its about the head
blurrighter: people cannot be juggled
blurrighter: only a juggler could do it
biker_babe20000: which i am not
blurrighter: i could do it
biker_babe20000: not me
blurrighter: I have been the faithful type all my life
biker_babe20000: i am a one woman and one guy person
blurrighter: but now my wife will have to be pure
blurrighter: and the mistress will be the freak
biker_babe20000: but will love them with everything
blurrighter: I was the same
blurrighter: but I have changed
blurrighter: you don't require purity as much as I
biker_babe20000: i could change but you would not like the person you would see
biker_babe20000: for i wont care
biker_babe20000: yes i do i just cant find it
biker_babe20000: not in these people
biker_babe20000: they dont beleve
biker_babe20000: they are human
blurrighter: keep going
biker_babe20000: there is no place to go
biker_babe20000: i have said it all
blurrighter: no
biker_babe20000: i have look my whole life for it and have decide that i will just have to be happy with me
biker_babe20000: they can do it
blurrighter: have you r have you not found the universal in you?
biker_babe20000: i have never found one that could
biker_babe20000: i dont know
blurrighter: see
blurrighter: you have to find the universal
biker_babe20000: who gives me what i seek
blurrighter: it is in the way you receive life
blurrighter: the way you see
blurrighter: you are blinded partially
blurrighter: you see ten times better than the rrest
biker_babe20000: when i ask and it come who is it coming from
blurrighter: but still you see not all
blurrighter: when you receive the universal then you will know
biker_babe20000: no i dont
blurrighter: but it was where you were leading at in the begining of this
blurrighter: about finding the god inside
blurrighter: you are in the path
blurrighter: you have to run over yourself
biker_babe20000: i am alone here enough if that comes what is left here
blurrighter: destroy yourself
biker_babe20000: thats what i do best
biker_babe20000: i know whats left
blurrighter: just don't stick anything up your ass
biker_babe20000: everything is brighter
blurrighter: be pre and enlightened
blurrighter: pure
biker_babe20000: they cant touch me
biker_babe20000: i have also been dead
blurrighter: in everything you do you must be self effacing
blurrighter: tear down everything
blurrighter: leave where you live
blurrighter: for a vacation
blurrighter: get away
blurrighter: see how life is the same
biker_babe20000: i just put in all the gardens
blurrighter: how it is different
blurrighter: vacation
blurrighter: get away
biker_babe20000: by myself
blurrighter: where are you?
biker_babe20000: thats was one of the scarest things i did
biker_babe20000: in wisconsin
blurrighter: uh huh
biker_babe20000: i found that i didnt need anyone
blurrighter: I might be up in Montreal in January
blurrighter: that's not too far
biker_babe20000: where are you
blurrighter: nyc
biker_babe20000: thats far
biker_babe20000: thats closer
blurrighter: Montreal is up at your latitude
biker_babe20000: i am in south wisconsin
blurrighter: uh huh
blurrighter: have you been to NYC
biker_babe20000: i couldnt live that far north
biker_babe20000: nope
blurrighter: maybe you should come
blurrighter: you deserve to be here, you saved my life remember?
biker_babe20000: i dont know how i did that
blurrighter: change of habitat change of habit
blurrighter: rule of three
blurrighter: as simple as that
blurrighter: new you
blurrighter: anyways
biker_babe20000: after i told you to go for the 3rd i felt bad saying that not knowing who you were
blurrighter: new horizon new sunglasses
blurrighter: new look
blurrighter: new you
biker_babe20000: for all i knew you had to kill to get the 3rd
blurrighter: the offer is on the table
blurrighter: well
blurrighter: but you were right
blurrighter: numerology rules
biker_babe20000: yes
blurrighter: I wanted to pant a new jacket last night
blurrighter: BE NICE OR I WILL KILL YOU WITH KINDNESS
biker_babe20000: lol
biker_babe20000: they hate that
blurrighter: paint
blurrighter: I am on to them
blurrighter: fuck em
biker_babe20000: they are easy
blurrighter: show them how small they are
biker_babe20000: they already know it thats why they hate
blurrighter: if they are so powerless they have to grab power
blurrighter: to let them know they have a false power is to have put them on notice
biker_babe20000: thats why i told you i didnt need the power
blurrighter: true powe ris for the people whom don't want it
biker_babe20000: power is in knowing
blurrighter: power is also in doing
blurrighter: power is not power if you do not relaese it
biker_babe20000: i have been hated by my lovers my whole life
blurrighter: wield it
biker_babe20000: to be smarter then your man is death
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: weak men fear smart women
blurrighter: you just choose wrong men
blurrighter: again it is the control issue
blurrighter: people without ower try to control
blurrighter: power
biker_babe20000: and for what
blurrighter: so it is the weak who try to assume command but they can't
biker_babe20000: i dont get the control thing
blurrighter: control power
blurrighter: no chip
blurrighter: hypnotism
blurrighter: it is all related
biker_babe20000: yep
biker_babe20000: thats another reason my relationships have gone south
blurrighter: power hesitates, but ultimately it must act
blurrighter: we are all idiots
blurrighter: don't forget to breathe
biker_babe20000: we know but dont play by our own knowing
blurrighter: well, we must first control ourselves
blurrighter: and you are there with the no chip thing
biker_babe20000: its a new toy
blurrighter: you are closer than you think
blurrighter: if you can control you then you can control others
biker_babe20000: i dont want to
blurrighter: but we don't want to control them
blurrighter: yes
biker_babe20000: i want them to just live their lives
blurrighter: but at least they cannot control us
blurrighter: it is a middle ground
blurrighter: they no longer have control over us
blurrighter: and so everyone can just be
biker_babe20000: they cant control me
blurrighter: life then is the way it should be
biker_babe20000: and then you find them doing what i want just to be with me and then they are not happy
biker_babe20000: its kinda sick
blurrighter: if true power desires nothing, and no control, and the fake controllers stop doing their stupid games, then we have impacted reality to be as it should, best case scenario
biker_babe20000: so they give up their power
biker_babe20000: yep
blurrighter: yes life is not bout power
biker_babe20000: but they cant live without the leader
blurrighter: we just must be
blurrighter: that is why I don't want to be more
blurrighter: and want to be less
blurrighter: and just be
blurrighter: I write
blurrighter: that is all
blurrighter: I inspire with the universal in me
blurrighter: and they got their own lives to figure out
blurrighter: I didn't tell yuo what to think
biker_babe20000: i dream of this little house that has no power no running water no anything
blurrighter: for you to chage you must realise things
blurrighter: this is your conversation
biker_babe20000: do you like you?
blurrighter: I like the universal in me
blurrighter: I hate my beautiful soul
blurrighter: to be aprapos is passe
blurrighter: to be spntaneous is predictable
blurrighter: to be funny is obvious
blurrighter: to be intelligent is expected
blurrighter: to be charming makes me want to puke
biker_babe20000: lol
blurrighter: I am tired of being me
biker_babe20000: i like charming
blurrighter: I want something outside of myself
biker_babe20000: you can have anything you want
blurrighter: I have been me for 39 years
blurrighter: and now I have been given a new body and I am still fucken me
biker_babe20000: do you know how many people would love to be you
blurrighter: I guess even with the ones who have alot of soul, they still only got one soul, one way of looking on the world
blurrighter: and we better like it even with it's flaws and how beautiful it is, we cannot change personalities
biker_babe20000: i would be in horror if i knew what i knew but knew i didnt know
biker_babe20000: does that make sense
blurrighter: If people had been me they would have killed themselves 10 years ago
blurrighter: it is not easy
blurrighter: no it didn't make sense
blurrighter: rephrase
biker_babe20000: yes it did read it again
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: I read it wtice
blurrighter: twice
biker_babe20000: you have to do it in 3s
blurrighter: nope
blurrighter: make it clear
blurrighter: do you want to talk on the phone?
biker_babe20000: the thought was to be the higher soul but having a body here on earth that couldnt open up to the knowing of god
biker_babe20000: to be one of the sheep
blurrighter: I don't know you are confusing me with words
blurrighter: we should talk on the phone
blurrighter: I have free
biker_babe20000: i have never gone there
blurrighter: you are going places in your mind that is difficult for words to convey
biker_babe20000: i always do that
biker_babe20000: i could tell you some shit
blurrighter: give me your number
biker_babe20000: only sometimes does the really strange things come through
biker_babe20000: you will enter me if i do that
blurrighter: look woman, give me your damn phone number and shut the hell up
biker_babe20000: i kinda like that
biker_babe20000: i am shy
blurrighter: I am not
biker_babe20000: i am
blurrighter: shoot
biker_babe20000: one would never know by looking
blurrighter: but anyways you should save this IM and put it in your jpuranl convo wth Vampariah
blurrighter: I am not going to ssave this
blurrighter: this is about you
biker_babe20000: i dont want them to see
blurrighter: the universal i me trying to bring out the universal in you
blurrighter: alright be a woman
blurrighter: how could I expect otherwise
biker_babe20000: its not that
blurrighter: I know all about the femme nature
biker_babe20000: oh god
blurrighter: no
biker_babe20000: you know what you think you know
blurrighter: I love every woman I meet
blurrighter: I know all of you
blurrighter: the universal woman
blurrighter: let us get over your shyness
blurrighter: it is silly
biker_babe20000: it is
biker_babe20000: but it is true
blurrighter: No I know women
blurrighter: I could not be a great straight writer if I did not know women
blurrighter: and their shyness
biker_babe20000: and i dont want to find out that you wish me to be your mother i hate that
blurrighter: and how they like to keep their personal comquests to themself
blurrighter: conquests
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: I don't need amother
blurrighter: another mohter
biker_babe20000: good
blurrighter: I am right next to you in age
biker_babe20000: for i know men also
blurrighter: you are like 43?
blurrighter: 39
biker_babe20000: no
biker_babe20000: 42
blurrighter: oh big deal
biker_babe20000: how did you know that
blurrighter: what are some of your other digits?
blurrighter: phone numbers?
biker_babe20000: lol
biker_babe20000: we will
biker_babe20000: it takes me time to trust
blurrighter: alright then have a good day
biker_babe20000: thanks
biker_babe20000: and dont get pissy
blurrighter: I have to respect the sheep in you until the sheep is gone
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: I am balanced
biker_babe20000: sheep
blurrighter: it is your loss
blurrighter: I would have enjoyed it immesely
blurrighter: emmensely
biker_babe20000: i havent lost anything yet
blurrighter: immensely
biker_babe20000: plus i always know
blurrighter: well, tomorrow is tommorrow
blurrighter: but today is today
blurrighter: sweet black cherries rot
blurrighter: and powe ris not power unless it is weilded
biker_babe20000: it already has been
blurrighter: you torture youself if you think that makes you better person
biker_babe20000: dont even
blurrighter: obviously the no chip isn't working
biker_babe20000: play with my head
blurrighter: I am in your head
biker_babe20000: i know
blurrighter: I might as well have some fun
biker_babe20000: remember if you go there you will leave some of yourself behind
blurrighter: I am a man I am not scared
biker_babe20000: you cant be in my head without opening up yours to mine
blurrighter: all you got was the universal in me, and a little bit extra
blurrighter: you don't know who I was
biker_babe20000: i knew who you were when i seen your writting
blurrighter: uh huh that is true I do lay it all on the table
biker_babe20000: i knew the words behind the words
biker_babe20000: and they hate you for it
blurrighter: So you didn't know the forum existed until you contacted me?
biker_babe20000: nope
blurrighter: yeah
blurrighter: busted your cherry huh?
biker_babe20000: yep
blurrighter: ooooh
blurrighter: ooooooooooo
biker_babe20000: i find so few to enjoy
blurrighter: well instead of savoring the possibility of a phone call, you should just sink your teeth in my phone line
blurrighter: the best thing about me is my voice I will have you know
biker_babe20000: becareful what you wish for
biker_babe20000: i know if i open that line i will change again
blurrighter: look
blurrighter: listen
blurrighter: under the wool on your eyes is wolf fur
biker_babe20000: i know
biker_babe20000: i seen
blurrighter: you know the hobgoblins could come and decapitate me and then you'll enver have had the chance to atlk to Vampariah? Can you live with that?
biker_babe20000: they will not
blurrighter: they might
biker_babe20000: i have your back
blurrighter: I am not all the way back
blurrighter: I could go insane
biker_babe20000: they cant touch you
blurrighter: I could make a mistake
biker_babe20000: so could i
biker_babe20000: you wont
blurrighter: I am drifting between two worlds
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: you are stable
biker_babe20000: yes pretty much
blurrighter: I am not speaking metaphorically
blurrighter: I am talking actual
biker_babe20000: i know
biker_babe20000: i have seen it but i didnt play in it
biker_babe20000: they cant touch you anymore
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: I have to fuck myself over again
blurrighter: it is stuck in my heart
biker_babe20000: sometimes it stays for years
blurrighter: no
blurrighter: it is close but no cigar for a little while
blurrighter: all cliches are off
blurrighter: it is not a year thing
blurrighter: this is almost over
biker_babe20000: then you are stronger then most
blurrighter: yes I know, I don't think it is survivable
blurrighter: I am very fortunate to have played as much sports as I did this past summer to have my blood pressure down to 70/90
blurrighter: why did I play when I knew I was dying?
biker_babe20000: because you could
blurrighter: why did I finish a book when I knew I would not get paid for it
blurrighter: and then playing sports and having life a meaning is the things that ultimately kept me here
blurrighter: there were some of the forumlas
blurrighter: I have to lie down it is coming on
blurrighter: bye
blurrighter: sorry
biker_babe20000: not getting paid for that book let you off the hook of ever dealing with that person again
biker_babe20000: bye
I wrote this is probably went around the internet and you already seen it, it might be the best thing that I ever wrote. There are two part to the story, on is against the black man and the other is for the black man...
Where the white women at?
hey I am not racist or anything, in fact the following letter I wrote I can pretty much reverse the arguement on what I wrote because black people are superior in many different ways, but here is a good ice breaker just to make you laugh. Black people in africa have never accomplished much because they have it all and it is the discontents that change the world as everyone knows cheap dates are sometimes the best and the best things in life are free so like impoverishedment leads to people learning how to enjoy life with nothing.
but here goes don't be too harsh I am just angry for putting down like 30 dollars and then being romanced by like 30+ black guys. I am just calling them out, and then I will give them a rebuttal which will blow the first thesis out of the water. I will teach them that being black is a great thing and there is nothing wrong with their country, sometimes in life when comdey is based first on tragedy, it is the impoversihed countries that have it all.
I joined a date site and it is all black men posing as white women to get money out of USA men, so I wrote the "girl" this....
Uh huh Nigeria, my dad went there for a photo story, he collected some of the african figurines and then smuggled them out right out from under the guards noses. He even took an African witch doctor masque. I know it is wrong to steal culture from a people that have to claim responsibility for building the pyramids because there was no permanent structure in Africa up until the 20th century built by negroid peoples. They claim to be Kings and Queens of Egypt when today if you go walk the streets of Cairo or any city along the nile there are no black people, and anyways it was the Bible and the Babylonian captivity where the jews had to flee Egypt from the Pyramids they built as slaves, the exodus through the red sea and all, MOses didn't even have to part the Red Sea if you go swimming in it half your body is in it and half your body is out of it the water is so dense with salt. But I mean what are black people in general complaining about still? Slavery? Come on that lasted like 150 years, 98% of the white people in Europe and Russia were slaves for close to 2,000 years until Napoleon fought for their freedom and everyone thinks Napoleon was a Hitler! I have my theories on why black people do not accomplish much, they are some good theories, it goes back to Shaka Zulu changing things making Africa warlike. And for the people to allow themselves to be enslaved is pure stupidity, then to be brainwashed by whites that they are inferior, to treat them like animals, and feed them slop until today in America black people have terrible genetics, and busted kidneys and bad hearts, bad everything inside, but especially the rape of the brain, that is the worst part, but at least with white people keeping blacks down they do have a great desire to achieve something these days, that is why they are busy killing each other in drivebys when one of the black race makes a name for themself, it is almost impossible for anyone to step up the ladder of success, but for a black person to do it it is nearly impossible and when they do it they have to be shot down by their own people.
The KKK would say it is divine intervention of providence.... for black people to be brainwashed to committ genocide?
I have been to Africa, why the hell aren't there bathrooms, what is this biz about shitting on the street? And please no I don't want Hashish... And the mosquitoes killing yah? You figure they would have fixed that problem already, I mean god tried to help them with the mutation of sickle cell anemia, but they pray to someone else's god and do not hear god tell them to do something about it, so Bill Gates gotta come to the rescue with his malaria plan because black people haven't done a damn thing about it, it is idiotic to allow a situation like that to persist, and then to create a country for black people called LIberia and then for it to be driven into the ground by corruption? Black man taking advantage on black people, it is Aparthied with a different name namely LIBERIA. They wanted to prove to the world they could do it better. Do what better? Be inhumane in government to their own people? The protective zoological zones with black people destroying the only good thing about their continent? Killing the animals to make a buck? Why do black people act so stupid when they are just the same as us? Why the hell are they so desperate in life? Why is it so bad in Africa?
Then for the AIDS situation to be as out of control as it is, it is plain stupidity, for the young people to see their grandma die from AIDS, their mother their father, their older sisters and then they go and have sex without protection? What the fuck is wrong with Africans? Why do they act like animals when they could be just the same as any other people's on the earth, and then they don't even have a religion of their own, they believe in Jesus and have stained glass images of him in churches as a black man? Or they even believe in the Arabic Muslim shit, with those fucked up terrorist Mosque towering minerets blabbering Muslim music annoying on every fucken neighborhood corner? Get me the fuck out of Africa I thought to myself. Jesus or Mohammed have nothing to do with black people, I bet they even sold their carpets they kneel on for prayer 5 times a day and don't even know which way Mecca is? Well Mecca isn't even in Africa! Then half the countries there speak french of have like some other foreign tongue as their official language, they are a people without a culture, without an Identity, without architecture, without their own religion, selling Lions and eating Chimpanzees and pulling the feathers off rare birds to cook, pretty soon all of Africa will be desert, all the trees will be hacked down, and the skies will have no birds in it, like North Korea, with not even rats crawling on the ground, to live hand to mouth hunter gatherer like it isn't even the 21st century is passe. Pass the salt I need more flavor for my rat. That is why they don't have the plague in Africa they've eaten all the rats.
What the hell are you doing in Africa, I hope you don't like black men, white women as pure as they are to be defiled by black men, in a land where AIDS came from, having sex with animals? I hope you come back to Brooklyn soon so I can save you from a fucked up land where beastiality has got them so screwed up they go against god and have children of mixed race just so they can feel better about themselves.
I am in NYC. Come back to Jamaica! Queens
of course you all know I am not religious and mixed race kids are very genetically healthy
I just wanted to end the letter strongly, a comment most religious people seem to concur on
Where did I get all this info?
The lack of permanent structures on Africa was from a writer on a cruise ship
my own travels in africa
but black skin is supeior in baby formation, but the bad organs I heard from a black dude
I talk to black men all the time, unlike most non black people, I talk to all people because I am not racist, black men treat me better than white people, to tell you the truth. THey know I am cool just for treating them like an equal.
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alright here goes, I am leaving the site because of prevalent fraud
any short coming of the black man is based on the duality of human nature.
That strengths are strengths to cover up weaknesses. And unfortunately the
polarization of the black man has been decided by the ones who fear their
strength. The white flight in neighborhoods aren't against the law, and the
segregation that was fixed has not been solved even though they bus dark
skinned peoples into other neighborhood schools to even out the white
flight. So even thugh there has been opportunities given to equalize
conditions that condition them to think they are outcasts merely because of
the color of their skin, it runs deeper than that. That stamping of the
brainwashing that they are good for nothing determines their actions.
Limited from opportunity, when the fish they are given only makes them
unable to fish, giving them free golden medicaid and medicare, they would
rather rot on a couch and not work because, should they get sick and lose
their jobs, if they did give up their medicare, the half jobs they get
through a loophole in the system offers them no healthcare at all, no
benefits. The parents have to work three jobs, and the children stay home to
babysit the babies as a result, losing out on the school experience,
education. And if they choose not to work and be good parents and have the
food stamps, 400 dollars a month, and live in the section 8 housing,
supplied by the goivernment, free, there is always fresh drug money to pump
new bullets on the battlefields of drug territory they are forced to live
on. The extra special children they brought up and love well they if they
gain any talents at all, they get drive byes.
Grafitti exists to cover up blood, make bullet holes into art, and to give
voice to peoples who look at words long enough to see them distorted, and so
all they have to offer is funky grafittied spelled words in life, it is not
that they don't have an education that they can't spell right, they get the
aspect of the game wihtin the game, and so they learn how to rap and create
new lingo, and like the bluesmen of the 30-80's, all kinds of women flock to
their art, even white girls, for there is such feeling in the bluesman, who
taking a page from a horrible life, sing about it in a beautiful way.
But black people have taken a departure from finding beauty in ugly things
in an ugly world, there is not even enough soul in even the bottomless
hearts of the black people, and so they become icons because they like I can
"con" and become part of the game. Of course joining the con in life on
others is very conspiratorial, but it is the most lucrative thing one can
do. To hold the gun instead of being the target. People admire icons, even
if they were cons, ex cons part of the conspiracy of life to kill or be
killed, because there is safety in bullet proofed Humvies the US ARMY
doesn't even have. There is nothing but a festering evil in blackland today,
and it is all some higher plan by the US government to keep a most proud and
god loving people down. One love they say, because well, only god loves
them, and they only love god, because hell has got us all mired up to the
knees in racism, where silence is palpable when melting pots freeze.
Then there are the people who make it out of the hood and try and strive for
success, and in order to seem successful to attract a mate and in building
the perfect nest, they step away from their culture. The culture was lost
when the slave owners forced them to pray to their gods, given Anglican last
names when Lincoln recognized their plight and was shot... so how can a
people wihtout a culture know the difference from real culture and a culture
forced upon them by people in power who had the whole process figured out
long ago. They knew how to eradicate a people, but killing people isn't fun
enough, suffering must be prolonged, torture is not even for the tortured,
it is for the hangman who is always late.
So the Africans with alien last names,grab onto myth of Africa, divied up by
every nation that wanted to colonize some poart of the globe, and who the
hell knows? Maybe they did build the pyramids? The bible has been wrong
before, just because there are no arabs in Egypt now it doesn't mean they
weren't there 5,000 years ago, and anyways back then, there weren't very
many white people, because white people are mutant black people, we all come
from Eve and she was a black woman for if there is a god, god has dark skin.
Believe me I know the deal I am a vampire white person I have undergone the
transformation of losing my olive Mediterraened skin tro understand the game
on the black people is to get them to think they are inferior by holding
poower over their heads and then pretending to be benevolent to give crumbs
and line but not enough to ever get out of the forest and find their way
home, or enough line to get out of the Laberynth should they save the MAiden
from the Bull.
Life will be more of the same as the white people hit delete. This one won't
be passed around the internet like the first that was a pretend slam on
negroid people's, this will be covered up and phone company trucks will be
outside watching me as I am put on a list for knwoing too much to live. The
phone company guys will never really be working over there, besides setting
up wire taps, they don't want one white sonnovabitch to mess up something
that has been in the works since 1776.
actually I am an id jot savant
When I stop and look around me there is nothing that I need, and when it boils down to it, there is a great conspiracy to keep me here, I have had alot of help even from people that I thought were my enemies to come back from the dead. The last lesson I think I am learning is that I always feared my children, and I knew right away even when my soulmate asked me for a child, I did not ever even consider it for one second. I knew what perfection was, I knew my DNA had been tampered with, and i have been alone these 6 years because I told her to have a baby with the other guy in the room when she asked me.
However, since that time, and only wihtin the past week I have realized that all this rewiring of the body that has happened, and that the last time around, I really tried to lose all my hair because I didn't want to give me brain to my kids, and the damn hair wouldn't go, it is like there is something inside of me that was good really good, that had to be destroyed, to be rebuilt taller on stilts, to be designed as if there was a designer, not for me or my sake or my peace of mind, but to have a kid in a form that is acceptible and also to add to the gene pool something that is not allowed in the form of a man, but in the form of a woman.
Beauty in a man gets ignored, beauty in a woman is accepted. But, the vampire game of stealing minds has come to a head where now God can do no more creating, from the clay of the earth that is left, God uses the the decrepit mud and perfects it as god sees fit , for uses that go beyond my understanding. I have so much activity of rewiring on the left side of my face, and I don't have the heart to even look in the anatomy book to see if the left side of the face or the left eye is controlled from the right brain, I mean the ear is right there, and that has got to be connected to the left brain.
As much as I know, I almost don't even want to know which brain hemisphere is being saved for her. BUt the eternal damnation of it is , if it is the male brain that is going into my daughter, eventually that is going to go into a man, which is the purpose of all of this, soince the Higlander game is in full swing unchecked, by even the truths on a Vampire website. I am currently suspended for mentioning the word Jew.
I read Mein Kemf, I have been to Synagog many tiimes, apart from the Irish the Jews have been my best friends, and the only ones whom buy photographs from my father are Jewish, they come in here and eat up our culture, and the Jewish women are smart too, they are the only ones whom ever accepted my power as a man, and saw value in my strangeness.
In my war book, which is going to be published by the Germans, I tell them right to Taschen's face that the Jews outfoxed the Master Race, and this was why they were put to death. I called Hitler an agitated librarian. The Jews were so smart since the begining of time, they stood in the Middle east and governed the Silk road, they traded goods between worlds that each side of the world knew not about the other, It took Marco Polo to rediscover the Orient after al that Amexander the Great had done had been forgotten. All the while the Europeans must have thought the Jews made silk, and the Chinese thought that the Europeans did not even exist. There were two worlds two sides of the planet that existed unaware of each other, and I always used to think that the Jews did that because they wanted a monopoly, but now I see that the Jews are not only a middle man in Germany prewar, with all the real estate and buisnesses, they are middle men not only on the silk road in the middle east, but they are a middle man between this world and the next and they have always been.
They save sinners, and make them useful with gods purpose, because we all have a piece of the puzzle, and the reason why the world is so screwed up today is because of all the great minds of the Jews that were sent to the concentration camps. We could have used the great brain of the Jew in this day and time, now we have to spend like 10 Billion dollars on some new program to fight autism.
people see the word JEW and they see a swaztika. They are opposites. I mention the word JEW and it is a dirty word. I don't know why, they are merely trying to save the human race. I personally don't think I was meant to have children, I don't like being here and suffering all the time, I want to die, and I don't want to create life, and I don't want nothing, and God keeps the poeple here who don't want to stay, when the world kills the dead even, when I have killed myself to be accepted and to lose powers, when I have done the ultimate supplication to sacrifice everything to fit in, and still I am a paraiah, the only one who shows me love is the JEW god, and is trying it's damndest to put the best of me back to gether again through the Hollywood brain salad surgery game. which they own and should really trademark.
I should travel the world and visit all the sperm clinics at this point. I don't even think she will have freckles, the way god is recreating me.
Dear Thomas: (please read this when you have proper time)
In 2004 I applied to make my services available to Mr Delph at the Jamaica YMCA to supervise the weight room. I am a former gym teacher who has had the best schooling, graduated from Cortland in PE. I was ran out from the system in NYC because I was real, and I was meant for better things.
Recently I have made a comeback, and I joined Charles Caldera's team the Rough Riders because he is my best friend, but he is very unscrupulous and I think he only befriends me because I have been slowly dying over the past ten years, and he likes keeping me around so that he feels better about himself, truth set aside, now tonight, I make a full comeback. And when the playoffs start, because he cancelled the game tonight I won't be on the playoff roster. We had enough men. I got into a fight with him at his house. He said I didn't have a shirt on and why did I disrespct him. But we all had our shirts off, so, I dunno, but anyways, I did nothing wrong and he called me up saying he was going to humiliate me tonight at the game. I went there, and I was one of two guys who showed. He called off everyone else to tell them not to come to the game. He did send an emissary to see what my revenge would be. Lately it has been my philosophy to smite evil for a good man is a fool if by doing nothing evil wins, but I cannot disrespect the YMCA, and I weighed the options. My plan was to smack him in the face, smack him in the face, throw him when he charges, throw him again when he charges, you know judo, but then let him grab me the last time and knee him in the face as he goes for my waist. He is into wrestling, you know. But even if he does deserve it, I am not an animal, and I have too many golden irons in the fire to do time, when I have my duty to society to accomplish.
The reason why my back is up against the wall for the playoff scenario, is because I loaned my jersey to one of the young guys so they would play, and the whole plan was for me to just get healthy for the playoffs, And now he is doing his best to keep me inside and get cabin fever as the winter sets in. I am a great athlete, and I have to get out of this NYC winter corral. I need to play not to win, or not to even take over the team, because I let him clap his hands and scream defense and I have shaddup all season long because it is his team, and I will like Patton follow orders even if he knows better. Ultimately Patton knows where to pick his battles and pull his punches, in the playoffs.
He cancelled the game tonight so I won't get in. Now you are the commisioner, I know that as a former gym teacher, what happens within those four walls are governed by jurisprudence and not by bullies. The whole reason I became a gym teacher was to teach people to be civilized, and even if you decide not to intervene with diplomacy to rectify a terrible injustice, for the team, for the league, and for my personal health, then I will abide by your decision, but I plan to play in other leagues in your YMCA in the future, just not with my petty best friend, who puts me to the lengths of writing these embarrassing letters about the both of us.
I am sorry it came to this. I had to take a month off the team to finish a WWII combat photography book I decided to put the final period on, only to save my mother from living with my evil step father, and to honor the soldiers of the Greatest Generation. I had been working on the book for 12 years, and Ben Patton's grandson Ben 8 years ago said it was the most realistic book on war any war anywhere he has ever read. My father also has the best collection of war photographs from Europe in that war. It will be a big book, and it will educate the world on many continents, for I write pretty well for an ex-gym teacher.
And so I took off for Providence to go into seclusion at a fans house and I plotted the whole playoff picture there, and I got on a NYC bound train to get ready for the playoffs, where the cream rises to the top. I have a new simple motion offense I want to employ, that can be taught to idiots in 2 minutes, and is highly undefensable. Since Charles plans aren't working, I have some ideas.
But that is why it has come to this, I went away for more than 3 weeks, and I am about to be bounced off the playoff roster by a guy that thinks he is more cunning than me. What do you think? Who should be victorious? The game is in your hands, please put the number 13 jersey in my name on the roster for the Rough Riders and let me shine in humility. I pass the ball.
Sincerely,
David Vaccaro
This is a diary entry, a first for me here, in either life on the Rave.
Tonight was the cyclone in my head, and while my legs were being rewired, I knew it was going to head into my arms. So I waited.
I was told that wednesday and thursday are going to be triple days also, and well they were right about god absolving sins.
There was alot of destruction in those 9 years, well 10 really.
I don't know when exactly this phase of rewiring started, but it has been within the past week or so, and I barely got out of Providence with my life, the cross on the train, the psychic, the running the Gauntlet on St Marks where all writers walk.
The switch to Dun Hills, shoot maybe I should go to Don Hills Club when this is over and see if I can still dance, pass like Magic Johnson for Thursdays night game, or even if the Bull in me is just a temporary thing.
I can't call Pamela, I don't know what the fuck to say, will I even have a Magic Johnson in my pants?
I never doubted myself, and now I have put my trust in the system, and I have no fear. Fear would indicate there was even a granule of me left in the fiber of my being, but there is not. There is just me here doing this pitiful diary entry, admitting I am scared, admitting that I doubt I am the caliber of man to take this journey, and I am wanting out, I don't want to have a kid, but this whole trek is designing my genes for well even a boy at this point, it seems, all the sins are being erased.
I went back 5 years to the Vampire sin
then just yesterday I went back 10 years to the sin that brought on the vampire attitude, and I was happy both times, shoot I was like 29 again, but now I am going back even further, I am being born again.
My face flesh is tight, I am even remembering things that I could never remember before, thjooughts are being shuffled into new pigeon holes when they were in different caves on different mountains of my mind, and....
I am tired. I am awake, but I am tired. Tired of this. This is demanding, and I am blase about it too. I don't know how I can face the world or even what to write about it.
The cyclone was too much, it blew my away.
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