It is the power of love that opened this thread and powerlessness of hate that will close it. You want a question mark? Well there it is. I will be leaving the rave before the new year because of business I will return later when I am a better person and more balanced. I suggest you all try to do the same. Anyways, since I am no longer a vampire I have to end Vampariah, maybe I’ll come back as candid. If you aren’t nice by the time I return I will kill you with kindness, so watch out. I know who is erasing threads, they are people I miscommunicated with last time around, they took a compliment the wrong way, or they couldn’t take criticism, I reached out to make an effort to keep them as friends because the ones in question I admired them, I don’ talk to people I do not admire. It is just a shame they had to block me because they did not have the power in their hearts to forgive my bad communicative skills. I mean well, but all they see is the mean in the sentence and so you just gotta make gold bridges for enemies. That’s all. But I persisted and they came to hate with such vehemence that they hate that I will fight to educate people on this site and they will erase threads of mine just for me to go away. Enjoy their dead air whilst I am gone. I am not leaving because of them. If we do nothing evil wins. Life is tough, it is not what we thought it was, and we too are not whom we thought we were, and somewhere in the shifting of both these worlds our identity gets lost and we have to play some game. Cancer is not even himself either, I bet with the 13th Zodiac he is Gemini, he is the messenger of the gods, that is why he doesn’t write on his own forums, he is just the line from the higher power through us delivering the message of the universal. I think he got that by now, the truth silences all of us. I have to leave too because I have to become a recluse and reevaluate the way I look at things. I don’t mind the attacks on the Rave, if you cannot deal with it, there is something wrong with you, and not something wrong with life, if evil is to be expected in life then it can do us no harm. We all cared at one point, some of you are even at stages beyond where I am at, you might have had the chance to come back from the dead and you made the wrong mistake, you were scared of oblivion and so you chose afterlife and you got nothing. I didn’t want to live forever if life is fake, but you know what? Life isn’t fake at all, not one bit of it. There is such a complex web of life to keep the real here it is only the fake who get escorted out of the building, so you have got to have heart, because if you don’t, without Karma it don’t matter.
Well, that is enough for now, oh yeah, the other reason why I really want to leave is because I don’t want to win the poetry contest and then see who gave me a 5 and said hey man I gave you a 10 why don’t you rate me a 10 back. I just couldn’t deal with that, that is what really hurts. When you see pages and pages of life-liars and people playing you, and then you see a wallflower whom didn’t really say much, and you paved over her because what she said wasn’t provocative and she went with her worst picture because she wants love for real, and she was like the one that gave you an 11, you just want to kick yourself. I don’t want to see either scenario, I don’t want to see people hurting me and me hurting good people. There are good people on here, it is just impossible to say hey look at me I am a good person. No.
I wish I could get to know each of you instead of your best pic and a tag line that is actually your alter ego and not who you pretend to be, I would like to know each of you, but I have to teach, and for you to respect me I have to publish my books and then you would be like shut the hell up candid is speaking, he has got best sellers in 8 out of the 7 continents. But until that time, I have to get credibility, because there is no other way to teach but to brand your name permanently, because people don’t know what is good in life - they only listen to the critics…
Cancer can be the messenger of the gods, I am not Gemini, it is clear I am the Bull, you cannot put a collar around me, you can take a mastiff collar and it would just about fit in my nose as a piece of jewelry. Unfortunately in life when we think we are Gemini and we are writers we live like them so we do ultimately learn the universal message from the higher power
and we have to go to print to save the world from feeble minded sheep. I have become part of the great fakeness program to escort the fake people out of the building, that is why life is real, there is such a conspiracy to get rid of the people with little hearts, life will be a great place in the near future, but you gotta be real to see it, so stick around ya hear?
UPDATE : I do not hate JEWS. I have read Mein Kemf by Hitler have you? All I said was that Jews got the word from the fist civilization with a written language and they either were the first vampires or they heard the story. Since vamnpirism steals brains if it is not done correctly, the Jews mission has been to study human evolution through vAMPIRISM, and they guide that saving everyone even outside of their own faith, with the use of Hollywood whish they totally control. This does not mean I hate Jews, it is just the truth as I have found it to be.
So that being said, that the Jews are the preserver of the human race, how could you think I hated Jews? After I wrote that and it was erased, then I wrote sarcastically:
Sooooo Sorrry, Jew is a dirty word?
So, unless you misinterpret my point that saying Jew is like using the word nigger (which actually is a German word)
then what the hell is the beef with me?
Are you Nazis then, is that it, because you all totally read me wrong, and got me suspended because your fear makes you see life differently and you see the word Jew and you think calling soomebody a Jew is an insult???? ??? whaaaat?
I think I broke through. I may have made it but I am going to stay level headed about eithger being special or ordinary or dead or immortal, I don't care I merely want to exist as I have in any limited form possible.
I have some interesting ideas to post with, and am going to clear my main profile page and out up a new front based on what I learned
topics to center around will be
harnessing fear as in embracing it's opposite, curiosity,
being curious about insanity to stay sane,
and utilizing anger to break through
good men never get angry, but we must use the energy to motivate us
we also must have the intelligence to put up with idiocy, since according to my definition life is the inclusion of others, we must be able to harbor idiocy and not lose our balance, and if we expect people to give us shit and the whole game then we can over come
and if we can't deal with idiots then we can't deal with life, and we might as well kill ourselves.
I am not going to leave like jesus. A good man is a fool if he doesn't change to life, nice must be mean to be effective, that is why gods fail, they stay gods, and get crucified, we must give tough love, and this is what defeats evil.
