I guess it is healthy to not fully accept the existence of god, especially since there has never been anything to corroborate it's existence. Personally, if there is a god, I think it is a dark skinned person. I have learned how to lose the melanin on the skin, and my olive skin has been bleached to some extent, so I realized that is where man comes from, and if we were made in the image of god, the initial prototypes were black and white people are mutants. I myself have 3 kidneys, so what ever split my seed has happened to my ancestors before, my mother as a model had to have something always around her waist because she had one hip higher than the other. My father has no hair on his legs, and the hair that I have on my legs comes from my mother. The same thing that is changing the color of skin is also eating the hair on my legs my mother gave me.
This is evolution. The same thing that knocks the hair off of guys' heads also has caused us to become smarter. I have seen black people with white scalps, slowly turning white. I have seen people with grooves on their heads, indicating that although a mom put the hair on them as babies, they were unable to remove the damage done by their ancestors. If we put together skull bones of neanderthals we do not find brain imprints on the inside of their skulls indicating that their brains didn't have the convolutions needed to increase brain surface area. The more the convolutions, the more the surface area, the more the surface area the more intelligence we have. We can see the convoluted brain imprints on the inside of the skulls of the prototypes that replaced Neanderthalis. This step in evolution was neccessary. It has been documented that those early renditions of Cave men dragging their cave women by their hair is not far from the truth. Because they had not sinned enough to separate themselves from the animals, their brains were growing in girth to compensate for the intelligence deficit, to such an extent that it has been biomechanically determined that the female neanderthals had to have hips so wide that it was impossible for them to physically walk. The wider hips were needed of course to give birth to babies with bigger brains. So they were extinctified, replaced by us, or assimilated into the gene pool, bred out of existence.
Those are just my theories, based upon what I have read, what I have seen on others and what I personally have experienced; connecting and theorizing the various gaps in knowledge based upon my own empirical data. Darwin himself, never said there was not a god, evolution doesn't exclude the possibility of one, evolution doesn't render judgement if there is one or not, it only states that we were created with the opportunity to mutate, or evolve. The other day, I busted out of my apartment and there was a squirrel roaming the lawn, and I realized that the latest on evolution, those furry mammals that were crawling the earth at the time of the dinosaur apocalypse meteor mass extinction incident had been the forbear of us, when we look at the similar DNA, we can tell when we branched off from those furry creatures. Horses back then were the size of cats, there are loads and loads of horses found in this form in Asia. We can take pig hearts, just like we can get Baboon heart transplants because we have similar ancestors, though we branched off long ago.
But you won't find this stuff in any book, these are my theories. Look, I know people who say they believe in God not religion. For many years all they discussed in the Vatican was answering the question how many angels can you fit on the end of a pin. And they've had to change the bible over the years, to keep up with the discoveries of mankind - ie whether the world is a sphere or flat, whether we are the center of the universe, et cetra. I mean, we had a telescope off Saturn, a really good telescope, and the scientists decided to have some fun, they pointed the telescope into the darkest region of space, and they found hundreds upon hundreds of galaxies out there, each galaxy having hundreds of thousands of stars. They even had pictures of one galaxy spinning crashing planets into another one. I guess the next thing they are going to change in the bible is that there is probably other life on other planets, especially when w have the photos of so many galaxies upon galaxies in the darkest region of space where they thought there was nothing. Poor Gallileo, was forced to recant his scientific findings, after he had been the one to point the new telescopes made in the glass making town of Venice towards the skies. How can a religion based upon the strength of the power of the knowledge of god be so insecure not admit that the people who wrote the bible had been not one hundred percent correct in their translation of what god was saying in their ear and what came out of their quills in their hand. It is the word of God, but the hand of man who illuminated the manuscripts in the dark ages.
I personally don't believe there is a god or their isn't, I just don't know. I think though however that explaining the origin of man by creating a god to explain it, is not a sufficient answer because it would be more difficult to explain the origin of a god who has the power to create the universe, and life, than to explain our base life forms. The people respond that god always was, then why do we need to have been created? Personally, I think nature is god, and it is the sun which created life on Earth, or allowed for life on earth to have different creations, plant, animal, vertebrate, invertebrate, carbon based life forms, sulfur based life forms, et cetra, there were different origins of life on earth, different spawnings. I mean dolphins for instance were just dogs that would stand at the beach and swim into the water for fish, and as their foraging runs got longer and longer the blow holes resulted, the legs turned into fins, and the reason why they are so smart is because they are mammals just like us, they had come from where we had come from. I would say in another billion years, dolphins will again crawl out of the dead ocean man destroyed and become terrestrial once again just about at the time, our god the sun explodes, (which explains the beaching of the whales) Whales, are mammals too, they are just larger because the amount of food has let them evolve in bigger and bigger forms, like how medieval man has been dwarfed by the nutritional advantages in agriculture since.. Dolphins and whales have their own speech, just like it has been shown the great apes have it. But none of this proves or discredits an existence of god. So far there has not been one experiment humans can run that would prove that either way, so it is silly to believe one way or the other, we just don't know. Me not knowing there is a god has not made me a bad man, and I have not killed in the name of god, or for my religion. I am a good man. I understand that believing there is a god is good thing. It can make you live longer. It stimulates the temporal region of the brain, the same area of the brain which is used in using a second language. So all that praying, that telephone line to god, increases the strength of the immune system, and make you live longer as a result. I guess that is why it is called the temple. I guess my passion for this subject matter has shone thru. Faith is good too, in that if you think god is always watching you you don't do evil things. But unfortunately, people kill for their religion, and this is a travesty, a perversion of god. The Jews think they are the chosen people and everyone else will go to hell, but every religion thinks they are the correct one, and there are more religions than there are countries on this planet, and only one of them can be correct. So I guess if you are going to go out on a limb, it is OK to believe there is a god, but to believe in religion is another matter.
I think I am gonna stick it out here. Yes it was a bad day as you analysed, but something she get into and the dogs eat up, when they are small dogs and they were out of reach, ear plugs, a child molestor next door that runs his tractor in the am to keep vampires like me up, the thing she did with the tub turned out to be my lack of familiarity with it, I thought she had closed the tub faucet dial, but there is another function on it, but, at first she said I was her first house guest and when I confronted her for being a witch, she said she had some guys come through before. I do believe she is a black widow, she keeps a biohazzard place, and she took my tooth brush and placed it near like a scrub brush on the sink with like some open antibiotic cream of hers the dogs chewed apart.
I told her, you can do anything to me, just don't mess with my anti inflammatories, and mess with my sleep cycle, that is how I stay alive. I think the world needs this book, and I think she admired my work, for we have written as best friends for years, but now it has been admitted to me that she was touched inappropriately when she was young by her father, so she has some issues that have twisted her mind
and my issues are all other people's issues fucken me up because no one did shit to me and I walk from heaven where I go in this hell, and that is what freaks me out.
But I will make a stand, when she wakes up I will ask her if she wants me to accomplish this book or is she envious to the point where she is going to prevent me from completing it.
Now there is a pamphlet of hers on this desk to the left of my left wrist and it has detailed info on Barbiturates, sedative hypnotics, depressants, anxiety, seizures et al et cetera, I mean I guess I have issues now, my father has always communicated with objects, I don't think she got pills, but she is letting me know something. Like I told you last night, sometimes I feel everyone knows what is going on and I don't, tough for the guy that seems to know more than everyone else on the planet, right? That is weird. I know so much and everyone else is up to something because they have been receiving an under current of lies due to being beaten as kids or molested and I have only realized lately that the world is so screwed up because of the rape of the innocent. But knowing things is dependent upon finding out all this collective unconscious, and now that I have found out the truth of civilization I do not like it. I want to write pure, I want to write a pure book, I don't want people raping my mind with their issues. I have no issues. If only I could go back in time ads a super hero and belt the evil doers (heh heh) within an inch of their life where I am at right now. I can make it back, comebacks are beautiful.
pam wrote:
Hi David -- I just checked my yahoo mail and received yours from last night I think...I don't believe you are crazy...Would you prefer never to hear from me again?....Being crazy is something and somewhere I feel I delve into daily...Questioning what it is I'm doing here..In the Big picture I mean if it were all about love and freedom of thought and beauty ---why is there such a thing as "a bad day"?.......
I am off to do the mundane daily things I dread...grocery store, laundry, dry cleaning blah blah blah........I will be back later and I will look for you...Not sure which email address is most convenient for you but I check my aol the most......
DO you have yahoo messenger?...my screen name on Yahoo mes. 678******
I like reading your mail---I like reading about you and your life.....(I too had an older sibling who I believe hates me...she tried to kill me once...I will tell you about it sometime)..........Your writing takes me out of my world and puts me into yours...Like a good movie or a good book - I can get lost in thought.....
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