Reading Section for FairyFlirt ####21:46 Nov 16 2006
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bottle of red Marylin Monroe on my table
20:18:54 - Jul 01 2006
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sam shaw just died he was the confidant and photogrphaer of Marylin Monroe
his family came here about 13 in all to see Tony since it was evident they knew him and dad were close. I got up real late, and as my father's secret weapon I stole the show, all that came before was erased, they told me I should be a stand up comic, and I told them I am the worst person at telling jokes, and they laughed again of course which is quite natural in my presence. When I came down to the garden party they thought I was the DJ, normally my dad tells people I would show up, show an angel photo of me, and then get disappointed with what testosterone does to cherubs, but in this case they did n't know who I was at all; I told them I stayed up all night doing the final draft on the manuscript of the combat photo bio of dad's, they were like wow and all the usual stuff... at the end, they had brought up Ravelle, and I said was that the guy who did the music or the piano for the left hand composition, and they were like yeah, for his friend who had lost an arm in WWI, I told some Gregory Peck stories from To kill a mocking bird given to me from Patton's grandson, I have to send him an email right after this, and I told them you know the character that plays the crazy recluse, Robert Duval, Boo Radley's character that never speaks, and who was mentally insane, and in the trailer they show him freaking out in the girls presence, the little girl Scout, and I didn't want to see the movie because, I didn't want to see her rape her or something I knew there was a court scene someone would get busted. BUt he saves her. I was so happy, you know, I always project myself into a movie, I am the Kramer on Seinfeld et cetera, and so I thought hell, I am going to go crazy, and I really didn't want to see the movie, I mean Patton is smart, to come from the greatest General in american history, and for him to gift this to me, I tell him everything about me, because I want him to be even greater than his grandfather, you see, I give him all kinds of relationship advice, and I suspect that the General could defend the whole country and keep the whole german Nazi army on the run, the greatest army of all time, and so if he could defend this country, that is all slowly turning gay for some strange reason, he must be able to understand the forces that will inevitably sink america, the way the Cretian civilization fell because they didn't do women anymore, it wasn't Thera the volcano exploding creating the tsunami sinking Atlantis either, it was decadence that destroys every civilization, or how the Roman empire crumbled because everyone left Rome's drop in population because of decadence, you can only defend something if it is there, and yet to defend a country you must also understand the forces that tear it a part, internally what happens in the bedroom, or what doesn't happen there that should, and why, and since Patton put this DVD in my hand to tell me where this path of my decadence leads, to Boo Radley, and he told me my future... I was scared, I don't want no fortune teller to tell me how many "straight" jackets they are going to have to put on me. But I loved the movie, so I kept watching almost crying for I was Boo and didn't want the soothsayer to disrupt my happiness, telling me what was around the blind curve. Then he saves her, I saved the little girl from being raped! I was soooo happy, Boo kills the guy that breaks her brothers arm..
Then we all go to take the foto of the 13 and there is a car in front of the garden picture and they say move the car, and I said we could just turn it into a Ferrari, and I make the magic hand wave thingy "I put a spell on you" thing, and I saw poof now you are a Ferrari. They all laughed because I was being stupid, but then some body said something abut everyone wishing they could just make a Ferrari with magic, and then I said, well, I think there is a little Ferrari in all of us, Enzo ferrari gave my dad race car driving lessons, and my father taught me how to drive, and whenever I drive people must stop and see me driving like it is the Grand Prix, and say "I didn't know you could do that to with a car." I said then, well, they see me driving like Ferrari pick up my moves, and Ferrari lives because there is a little Ferrari inside all of us...
So they all broke up to go, and then I headed for my dead computer, and all the girls that just went to the bathroom had to suddenly go again, about three of them, and they were like can you show us where the bathroom is? and I was like OK. Follow me, so I unlock the door to my apartment where my bed lies, where only two genetic females made it back to, one girl I picked up in a mental ward because she bummed a cigarette off me and wanted to try one for the first time, so I let her have a ride in my bed, and the other girl was Tamara of course (who I never made love to) the only genetic female to make it to my bed besides the HOnduran psyco chick, in the 13 years that I have been here, and the ladies in the hallway, well they were not the old ones who have bad bladders, they were the women that had ignored me up to that point, but, so us four were in the hallway, and they were like, so do you have a car? Do you want to drive us around the neighborhood in your car and show us the neighborhood? Then I knew they wanted to see how well I drove and they didin't want to see the neighborhood at all, it is a beautiful neighborhood I will grant you that, but the misdirection was not even a smoke screen, women have their guile and their ways to communicate what they want without asking for it, they wanted me to take them for a spin for divertment, and I said well, I am sorry, I am too good a driver to have a car, I have a passion that I must ignore, for the power uses me, and I like to be in control, and cars have their way with me, and I can't let that happen. The three ladies went in the bathroom because I assume they were scared to be alone with me in my studio, and I was like, what? Why would they all be in the bathroom if they have to pee as they said? They ran the water so I couldn't hear them talk and then the obligatory toliet flush came... Why do women lie, is what I was wondering. Why couldn't they say, here is my number blah blah blah. I guess they don't believe in themselves.
They gone now but they left a bottle of wine with a great color picture of Marylin Monroe on the front of it.
With no woman around I have no alternative to suck dry all the red from behind Marylin's face and get drunk off her long dead spirit. Then keep the bottle because it fills up magically in time.
EVILuSHUN
20:44 Nov 13 2006
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PostPosted: Tue Mar 28, 2006 9:06 pm Post subject: BANNED UNDERGROUND WRITING, don't show to anyone Reply with quote
I am not watching Jeopardy tonight, I have come to the point in my life that I know all that matters. I don't need to know more.
DO NOT COPY THIS ENTRY. KEEP THIS OUT OF SIGHT OF THE GENERAL PUBLIC. PLEASE RESPECT THAT.
I was having a conversation with one of my fans, and she said that whole thing you just told me was the most incredible thing I have ever heard. Incredible also means that it is hard to believe. The closer one comes to the truth the more difficult it is to believe. The following may or may not be true. But as in all things I have figured out, I came across this by accident. The Shawn forum created in me a place I could write things that are unpublishable, and I discovered a new genre of writing for me, the underground writing. For one of the girls on this site to be my muse, who inspired me to communicate, and the other that asked me a question, led me to the following understanding. There are also other factors that I can't get into.
You know that whole highlander plot may have some basis. There can only be one. All that head hunting. And the theory about the last man on the planet earth, who would in essence would be a god of sorts, and so mankind did create god after all, at that point, for just as the Mongol horde leader Atilla the Hun whose genes are in 20 % of all the worlds current women through the fucking of only the hottest of hotties thousands of years ago, makes Alexander the Great look like like an amateur at world conquest, so again when the world will be repopulated in the future by this one remaining man. For by then, the truth of what is happening that I purport here will become more clear as time goes on. I laid in bed for two hours resisting writing this. But I knew I had to, even if it is only for the members on this site to see, if I have taken the trip to know it all, then I must share what I feel otherwise the trip was useless.
First off you must suspect that I am gay. But I am not. I have never had one weak moment, not even a dream of having sex with a man. So therefore no where in my subconcious is the desire to be with a man. I have had a dream where I had sex with an animal, but it was a bitch, at least. I didn't know it was a dog, there was a carpet on the back of a bus I got behind, and I snuggled next to it unawares it was my dog, which I found out when I woke up later on. So I would have sex with an animal before I would have sex with a guy. Personally I don't see what women see in dicks, I don't think they are beautiful at all. I have had many interludes with Transsexuals on hormones, who in the latex story act more girl than girls do, and are better able to accept male partners. So I have had some experience with their functional members, but I personally don't think that is gay behavior. I mean even though all I am is two holes now, still I am not interested in being filled by a man even though I know that strap ons really don't work well. I have seen enough blue vids to know that they are always popping out just when the going gets good, and though I never have had a girl do me with a strap on, it is becoming clear that may be my place in life. I always used to think that anal sex behavior meant that you are queer, but that preconception was just a misconception. I had enough masculinity to not be threatened by the sexual act in the back, to go through with it and still be a man and like women. I know that all the men on this site like women. Believe me, there are no gay guys on this site who are members. We like what we like, and it is completely natural, and that is why we are here. I was attracted to T-girls for I thought they had the knowledge because they had such beautiful hair, and I wanted to learn from them, but all the hundreds of conversations I have had in transsexual bars, it was I who did the teaching to them. They just had good hair because they were participating in the correct manner anal sex wise, and getting stuffed all the time by dick in the ass is not going to deflower you in any way. Being as ultra sexy as they are, they never are left alone to stick strange things up their ass and destroy their seed and lose their hair. There are always willing gentlemen standing near by who want to fill them up. There is never shortage of dick for the transsexual, not because they have one, but because they understand men better than women do. Women are women and they don't need to be turned into women by be included in the sexual act with a man. They are women, they have nothing to prove. T-girls need constant reinforcement that they are women, so they will study men diligently to learn how to satisfy them, so that they feel like a woman which is what they want to be. That is why transsexuals are more women than women are, because in constantly needing to prove they are girls by getting men to orgasm on them, they indeed become what they seek.
The whole pussy theory thing about empty ball sacks turning into pussies in the next generation is scientific fact, and the realization that we aren't clones, but we are a combination of male and female at least in seed formation, because we are patchwork quilts of harvested seed to complete a whole new living human being. The fact of the matter in my theory of pussy, is that there are females with male brains and females with female brains, and all different arrangements thereof. You can have a purely natural female with the high pitched voice, the original pussy, and a female brain in their skull caps. That was one of the pornos I wished I had never thrown out, which would be a good topic, which movie do you regret purging the most?
XX = female
XY = male
Because there is only one y chromosome going into a male child, the y chromosome in all the guys reading this comes from the very first man on earth, Adam if you will. However, the fact of the matter that there are three X's that can be used to construct a new life form, with one being discarded or two if you make a man, there is a constant infusion of new maternal DNA in the child. We can trace back genetic information to Attila, through the matriarchal DNA about 20,000 years to determine where your ancestors came from, and they have done enough genetic tests to identify lineages and diasporas of various peoples. But because the Y chromosome comes from the same place, that first man, where ever they came from, we can not trace humanity through the Y. Because the very same Y in the men on this site is the same as in Adam, through time, the game of kill the carrier, the head hunting, and the Highlander story line, the Y gene gets depreciated. In the bible there is one of the prophesies that two women and a little girl are walking in a field and the little girl points to a man to her two mothers and asks what is that? Men are going to become extinct because of the Y chromosome being ripped apart through time from the lies of all the head hunting, and in the future, actually maybe 4 generations down the line, all men on earth will be sterile, and cloning two female eggs together will be the only way to create a baby. Men are a dying breed. Yes, there are more humans on this planet now than buried under ground, but with each passing generation we are getting more and more sterile. Henry the Eigth went through 12 women trying to make a boy, or even a girl to replace him, but he divorced them, and even killed two of them because he couldn't find a successor in any of the Queens' wombs. You'd think after 12 or so attempts at making a boy, he would have realized that the problem wasn't within them, but that he didn't have a good Y gene, that his rule of divine right was false and he did not come from gods.
There is this battle going on for the longest. I realized something today. Well, it is an acumilation of knowledge really. I guess the thing that really convinced me about the female brains in some guys was the study they did on men and sexual arousal. They asked hundreds of men what they thought of homosexuality, and then they put a device on their dicks and asked them to look at different kinds of porn. The guys that hated homos, were the only ones who got hard. The one's tolerant of homos didn't get stimulated at all, and there was no exception to the case. It is simply the wet test that they can never pass, it never lies... hundreds and hundreds of test population subjects all had the response.
When I first met my adult love, I had been through so many women, dating wise, and losing them, that by the time I was 25 when she came up to me and picked me I was like wanting to have a relationship with a woman with some permanence and longevity. I did not do it to understand things better, I just unconcsiouly felt I needed to grow with someone. We have been talking more and more lately, even though she has a man, and a child, and because I got my wish that I will always have her in my life we can make sense out of the past, what went wrong in the relationship, so that I could understand things that only get revealed to oursevles onto each other from each other, one secret of our true nature we just discovered triggering a simlliar response in the other, until ultimately the truth of human nature can be configured correct.
What I found out from her admission, only within the past year, that bisexuality was almost 100 %, in the people in our lives, you can't scoff at that number, it is very significant. This is something that you can draw conclusions from. Now, personally I don't think that the Greeks were having anal sex, because anal sex without a condom will ultimately kill you, but with the advent of the condom built for the US soldiers in World War II, then suddenly any ass was fair game, and the thing that was keeping us down from exploring sexually was removed. The other thing that was bad was, everyone who was gay surivived the war except the ones Hitler had euthenized after putting on them a pink triangle, like the jewish star of david. So I mean, my father photographed germany after the war, he stayed there for 5 years, and he told me there was no men in between the ages of 12 and 80, because by the end of the war, the best men all had been killed, and growing up with fathers, young orphaned boys had no male figure to emulate, so it could also be in aprt enviro mental.... and Hitler may have had some contention that germans were a master race. My father has told me stories that he came upon the bodies of these super men, 7 feet tall in the 1940's, well, that was rare then, even uo to the late 50's there was only like 800 7 footers in the world, and now there are perhaps close to hundreds of thousands or even more, there were torsos of Nazi bodies left behind almost as long as my father's body. That war really creamed the crop. No gay guys were hurt in the fray. They are universally not allowed to participate in war, all countries have the same rules. So Russia and their 5 million man army, USA, Japan also got hit hard, and Germany, England, Italy, well the whole world, it was a world war wasn't it, the greatest generation as Tom Brokow said was ultimated decimated, more than decimated, for to decimate is to reduce one tenth, and what we had was on the order of almost complete eradification of straight men with incredible bodies and male brains.
This is why there has been such an influx of movies at the theatres about being gay, because the head game is lopping off the guys who got it going on, there is a feminization of mankind, of which I have played a part to understand, and am guilty of following down the path I was forced down. Because I heard a couple of guys talking, they said, when you lose your money you get gay. Well, I didn't neccessarily go gay, fortunately, that I came from something I was not desperate to receive human attention and intimacy from hairy men, and the opportunity to tap into the growing number of feminized men born as transsexuals gave me an opportunity to study anal sex and not feel gay about it. Yes you may still say I am gay, I don't care, I know my sexual orientation, I love women. And funny how it is, I don't need to marry a woman to make me feel like a man because I am one, or to hide homosexuality, because I know although I don't ever like to repeat myself, in this case I must, all, I mean ALL of the guys who ever came on to me are married, and none of the guys that didn't ever got married, that is another 100 % thing that must be addressed. So we have gay guys hiding their homosexuality, or bisexual tendencies by marrying women, and they are the ones who bring more bisexuals into the world, because their seed of a female brain into male offspring, not that there is anything wrong with that. (Seinfeld)
How do I KNOW I HAVE A male brain in my body? It is quite complex, but I will write about that under this column at a later time, soon.
After I have seen that our complement of 20, or 21 members has read this, then I will ask Shawn to delete it, for the truth is never beautiful about a reality that is harsh.
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