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"-Im so fed up with everyone around me, no-one seems to care. Im just so far gone, and nothings gunna change. I'll never be the same-" (Never Enough)-FFDP-



So, its MY fault that you never stay home anymore? We never talk anymore like we used to. It's always either complain about her or talk about him. m tired of it. I dont care about him! I dont care what he does or says...I should be more important. You said me and you were gunna spend time together after you got back from vacation, we were gunna go do something just you and me. Yeah, never happened. I was really lookin foward to that. Whens the last time we even watched a movie together? Or even ate supper actually together? HUH?? You cant even probably remember. I surely cant. You tolod me not to be mad at you today. Give me a reason not to be mad, and then ill think about it. Youre never here when i need you anymore. Youre not the same person i knew my whole life. Youre COMPLETELY different. Its mostly all his fault. And i hate him for that. Its not all my fault that u dont stay home for longer than an hour if that, and you cant blame it all on me either. You know, Ive never felt like this before IN MY LIFE. AND THERE AINT NO ONE I CAN TURN TO THIS TIME.

Im never fuckin happy anymore. The only time Im truly happy is when im lookin into my baby's eyes. Babies are so pure. Theyre so intelligent about all the secrets of life, they just cant say. They are the most beautiful creation on this earth. Im not a believer of god or any of that shit, but i do believe babies are angels. They are given to us for a numerous amount of reason.



FUCK! Why must I feel like this? I feel like i need to see a fuckin Doctor or something! Ive never felt this before, and may i remind you, i deal with everything very well. Why the fuck not this? We're not even a family anymore!!!

Ya know, Im there for everyone. If someone needs to talk, Im the first to respond. If you need something, Im the first to act. But where the hell are those people when I need someone? Not there! Thats where!

So, what the hell? How is it ME that you dont stay home? Hes more fuckin important, thats all it is. The house is a mess, I dont do the dishes all the time, I forget to fold laundry.... DO you forget... I have a JOB AND a baby to take care of????????? Its not hard to do all of that, but i f i had some help sometimes instead of you ignoring everything all the time...maybe id get shit done!!!

It wouldnt matter either way...nothing would change











I just wish everything would go back to the way it used to be....ya know when we were all a family again and we never fought.













Ok, i dont know how it feels to have my parents be divorced or anything, my parents never lived together, thats the way its always been, so that dont bother me. Thats not the problem. I dont want anyone gettin the wrong idea after reading this, if anyone does