Sleep is wonderful. A clear head and a better view on things. If any of my buttons are pushed today, I'll just sleep some more.
That rusty spoon that's been scraped across the floor till it's been sharpened. Thrusting it into a heart. What the fuck is this you speak of? That same late reaction after someone dies, only it's not a person who's dead but that part of you that you just can't seem to reach. Everything is perfect, nothing should be so god damned aweful, and yet there's every bit of evny and jealousy that comes with even stepping out the door. But it's never shown. Unless ...
Fuck you. Beat my shell but the inside me still lives on. I'm tired of your bullshit. You take the computer away and I go back to the way things used to be with nothing then I'll call my own bluff and gtfo. And I know you don't want that.
I'd rather play with my food in real life. -Retracts claws- haha
Total burn baby.
Can't wait for this summer. ;)
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I know I was googling more of their songs but this one seemed fitting. ^.^
Imprisoned inside this mind
Hiding behind the empty smiles
So simple (the anguish)
As it mocks me
Crawling back into the dark
Running, always running, into the distance
Stop me before I bleed, again
The echoes of my voice
Follow me down
The shadows I cast
Follow me down
Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow
There must be serenity
The echoes of my voice
Follow me down
The shadows I cast
Follow me down
Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow
The demon of my own design
This horror must not remain
Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow
There must be serenity
There must be deliverance
Deeper I'm falling
Blindly descending
Okay so I'll admit, that did get to me when I felt the reaction. No more talk about it but I do enjoy no longer having anything to do with it. Hence some unfriending, sorry. :|
God it pisses me off most when it comes to you fucking with friends. I care more about some than I do myself.
I loathe worrying and cliff hangers. I wish you'd just assume the worse and gtfo. Because everything you do is a lie. I get sick of rumors. I have a right to defend myself damnit.
At least some people can be truthful and talk to me instead of spamming me with lies. I can not stand lies.
Sometimes I can feel a heart that makes me wish to be nicer but then you open up your mouth and all I see is inane babbling. Maybe after someone reaches a goal I'll think about taking the stuff off of you and let you enjoy yourself. Or not.
Ha, sweet there's some oldie book that I found in my book case. I'm not saying the title but I'm so reading. :D It's funny. >_>
This reminds me, there was a book that I wanted to get and forgot it was April already. o_o Looks like I'll have to annoy someone to get it.
Last time I wanted it, it was so popular that they ran out. :/ But the paper back is out, I think. So, sweet. :D It was "The Bedwetter" by Sarah Silverman. Came out a year ago but the other copies come out now.
Can I go for a record of being any more sucky? I'm going to ignore my inbox. If you need me, oh well. x_x
And then it comes back to the question run around. I already stated a few things but here's the recent one. I'm a dom "Is that bad?"
"...yes"
Heh.
I'm just reading your rant.
Words across a screen.
Caps are a big help too.
E-screaming is all the rage.
I like coding.
"Cool.
so I know where this standsit's an argumentthen it's settled
I won't argueNuf said
It's come to a petty attack on spellingthat's when I know a person is picking a fight
I really did just want things to be nicebut you're fighting me for no reason when I love you
and that's no good."
Nope. I'm just a bit cold. Not fighting.
Cold from what?I don't get thisI can't talk to you if you're going to be petty and harass methe things you posted are untrue."
I'm not harassing you.
"but I will not back myself upit would be pointlessyou've set the line."
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Well, I won't copy and paste anymore, but hey, Whisp, he did take a line from your profile and since I know your profile very well, looks like he'll be the one sleeping with his kitty tonight. Lol
But hey, He just made that thing about the cat up! Pftt, yeah, I'm keeping my innocence.
And I would have left it all alone if he hadn't started talking to me and controling who I was allowed to talk to. Heh.
There's no need to be jealous. :x
So my mom and I were waiting at the bus stop for the bus. Then this old man starts talking to her. "Oh I always see you take this bus. Where's your daughter? And I see you have your helper with you." So she told him that my little sister wasn't with us at the moment and that I was her daughter too.
He said that I didn't look like it. o.O Just because I don't have blonde hair. -_- Then he started talking about the KKK. O_O And my mom was like that's a horrible thing. So he left on a diffrent bus after speaking on his cell phone in german.
Heh, wow a real freaking nazi. Haha That was fucking nuts. Plus I was a no body cause I don't have blonde hair or blue eyes. Pftt. Some people surprise me. That was scary though. To see that nazi's are still around. I know they are around but it's not like there's a sign on the guy that says "Nazi".
I hate that though. Not being looked at the same because I'm not blonde. Not good enough for them. And them not meaning just him but other fools who think that hair makes everything about a person. I have my mother's face. Hell, I even have sunglasses and bite her style.
It's not like I'm some cat with a diffrent color fur from a litter of kittens. I'm a human. Why can't people see that? -_-'
Ah well, I have dark black hair and I wouldn't change a thing. Here's to being the black sheep!
Thank you so much for last night. You don't know how sweet you were. I'm sorry for leaving in the middle of our conversation though. You made me so happy that I got tired. You're my sleep force. I couldn't have slept without you keeping the stress off of me.
You've helped me so much already, sweet heart. I'm super happy most of the time now. I can't even keep off of your profile or journal. haha, I still can't believe I said what I had in my intro to yourself. ;) hehe I think that'd hurt with a journal. xP I'd rather have you. :3
In sleep it slips away. In time it builds. There's the little monster in the cage. An unlocked door. As the man reached in to help it out, it moved back. Just slightly. With caution.
Torn between two worlds. Eventhough these worlds seemed so close. The monster wanted to become master first. Not 2nd place.
With every conversation. I feel so close. I seriously have never felt like this before. To see myself growing up for once. Not doubting my dreams. Leaving it all just to be with him.
I mean, traveling, didn't I cringe at the thought long ago, and now, when he mentions it, it's like deal. ha. What's wrong with me? I know my mom wouldn't like that one bit. And he's just so cute. ♥
I'm overthinking too many things. I have come down to "I want a hug."
wtf? 0_0
Simple entry that no one can really read into.
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Someone will always ass-u-me.
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No offence but no hug for you. :P I only want to hug one person. :3
:3
Aww, hehe, there he is. :P
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Memoir
02:37 Apr 26 2011
sleep solves most issues. haha.