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Well, the case is done with. Not that many people would know what that meant. I also have insurance now. My first appointment is to get glasses. Then I'll make one to get my tooth fixed and... I should do more, but I'm still nervous. Something I thought would bloody well stop, didn't. I'm not going to do a thing about it. It's one of those whatever it is, I'd rather not know things.



I should be happy but I'm not. I feel as if I'm in a state of purgatory. Not exactly hell, and not sweet heaven. I've been acting so odd too.



Like, I want to hug the shit out of something, no strangers though. I'm mega soft. I want to explore and have fun, yet, I'm "needed" and I never get to go out. By the time I want to go out I feel sick and tired. Not a regular sick and tired, like a "I give up" kind of thing. Though I'll never give up too much, that' not me. Even now, I'm supposed to be doing errands (It's the only way I can get away with sneaking out) and yet, I feel tired as fuck. I don't know what to think of all this. The softness, the odd feelings, blah.



>Wake up

>survive

>Sleep.

Good plan, eh?

Anyway, I may be a lonly son of a gun but I'm not tapping that with a ten yard pole Mr. Creeper. Go play with your right hand, wanker and stop reading my journal.

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Isis101
01:12 Oct 24 2011

Eeeeewww...lol!

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TheArtistRose
19:07 Oct 28 2011

lol I know right?

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"ToxicVirusRiddenDildo

Date: 21:58:39 Oct 14 2011



Rating: 1"





LOL Don't know who they are but thanks for the one and fucking funny ass name. :D Pun intended. LOL

I had a funny laugh from that. haha

At a cafe again.

Well what can I say? Nothing I'd want to really. It's been rather odd... (Like omfg wtf odd) but I'm bloody well feeling better!



Went to a wedding yesterday. It was fun to see old friends. Heh, wonder how long they'll last. lolol I'm just surprised that I didn't burn. >_>'



I've been stressed, and lonley; so I'm just going to enjoy myself. Snuck out to get my sister a birthday cake. Going to spend time with the family and have a good halloween. All it takes is a little rest for my mind when it comes to some situations. I should get out more but eh, at the end of the day I only fall asleep.



Hope I do better in November, I plan to go to a museum or two at least once. D: Just because..

I still can't log on. Don't know what the problem is. Last time it fixed itself. I could use some windows7 help. >_- Cause I'm supposed to fix a dns problem? Is that it? I'm so bored without my vr. But then again I haven't been all that awesome. Probably a bitch to talk to. Heh. Ah well, I have one week to look forward to. That'll be when they end the case from over a year ago. What a waste my life had been since then.



Later, vr.

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Requiem
02:17 Oct 14 2011

o.o I hope it's resolved soon. Well, both "its."

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Okay, so I'm up now for a bit. Because everyone else is sleeping. I don't know what to think sometimes. Person A knows that I'm not doing too well when it comes to this but person B is always being a brat and making messes.



I can't talk about it because then it'll cause problems with person B and I want us to be together and love each other because we always look out for one another. I really love both person A and B but there's that expression "You people make me sick." and it's so true in this case.



It's so stupid. This whole thing. When I was younger I wasn't like this but I can't do whatever it is that I've been doing. You know what else? I've been going to therapy since I was 4 and the therapist has been pushing me for years to quit. Long story short, I never really needed her because it was from a divorce case and I knew who I wanted to be with. I just sort of never quit after. She never helps anyway and I'm quitting tomorrow.



I can't open up my mouth about what's bothering me because I'd risk myself for person B to be happy even though according to her I break everything and I do nothing around here. I hate this. I want to be good.

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Lullaby
07:58 Oct 05 2011

LOL



Quitting tomorrow? Fuck, we need to have a party. xD

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This morning I woke up with an annoying chest pain on my left side. I don't think it was so bad but it's why I'm just off for a while. I can't stand it and it seems to be when breathing.

Ever stop and think "Oh hey this thing hurts a little but it's nothing." Well, I think I've got a little infection from something. With a little care I might be able to skip wanting to go to the doctors for it. However, as I've learned from a year ago, if it gets worse, I'm going before it gets too bad. Just giving it a month to see how it'll do first. It's small and I caught it in time.



I really don't want it to be anything bad and so far it's not. Just having some caution and put a band aid on it. :P

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Sulks
09:25 Oct 02 2011

just look after yourself.

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Well folks, this is it. Ever so close. It's October, I could almost shed tears of joy. Can't wait till your birthday. It'll be a sign of freedom. Oh, so sweet freedom.



Can't believe it's been over a year of hell. We made every stressful day count eh? Ha! Here's to surviving! Just you, her and I! To family! Hahaha!