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I get to listen to a lot of great concerts,even if I don't attend them.My mom lives across the street from The Stone Pony in Asbury Park.Headlining tonight-Skid Row.I'm listening to them rehearse right now...Guess NJ isn't all bad.lol

I appear to have caught the summer cold from hell!Didn't stop me from dragging my ass to rehearsal,though(when I probably should've been dragging my ass to the ER.) What can I say?Music is the only way I maintain whatever semblance of sanity I have remaining...although on 2nd thought,is that REALLY a good thing?!Sanity is overrated.Arrived at rehearsal only to find 3 other bandmates were also sick.Although,I was probably the sickest.I like to share!but I think exposing them to this cold was a bot over the top..Now I'm visited by my long-time companion Insonmia once again...*reads entry&thinks to self "Gee,Tash.Whine much?!"*

Joy-Tomorrow my youngest son,Kai,will be 9 yrs old!Hard to believe it.Seems like yesterday he was still in diapers&destroying everything in sight!(Earning him the nickname "Bamm-Bamm")...Pain-Just about everything else.Tired of being alone,but not sure I'm willing to open my heart to anyone again just yet.My beloved band may be falling apart.There's much animosity among the family&scariest of all,my father's starting to try to communicate with me after years of estrangement.Don't know if I'm ready to deal with that,yet.I have enough to deal withbetween health issues&trying to bethe peace keeper in an already troubled family...Ah,well.Things could be worse.

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Arliquin
08:11 Sep 18 2010

okay, delayed response... lol been away from VR doing exactly what you are going through. Always hard to watch your kids grow older. I know I always want my daughter to be the "little girl" but she'll be 10 in November... dunno why time seems to go by so fast when it come to the kids growing up lol.





Being alone sucks , but also has it's benifits. But after a while being alone just don't cut it anymore. It's always that first step of opening up that is the scariest. And having kids makes it just that much harder. Cause ya wanna make sure the one you are going to be with accepts you and your kids, cause it's of course a package deal. heh.



My dad did the "communication" thing too after being out of my life for 18+ years of his own choice. then pops in cause he wants to try and make ammends. It's hard to deal with and sends your emotions on a rollercoaster.



well anyways.. i'm rambling. I hope it's all turning out good for you or will turn out good if it's still ongoing ;)

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