12/24/1000:42 Dec 25 2010
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December 24, 2010 6:17 PM
Yeah, I'm still here ... for those who remember, lol.
The past six months have been interesting and uneventful at the same time - if that makes any sense. For starters, I'm obviously still alive. The amnesia idea never did come about. Honestly - and in a way, I can't believe I'm saying this - I'm not even sure I'd want it anymore. Someone suggested a writing endeavor to me, so I've been doing that for the past little while, hoping that would give me a reason to live. It's been going pretty well, but I realize now how silly it was to believe something such as that would be a reason to live. You need more in life than that - much more.
Truthfully ... I wish I'd just ended things in June.
The most noteworthy thing that has happened is that everyone in my life now knows who I really am - what I feel inside. I came clean about it all - everything on my profile, etc. It was pretty surreal at first - obviously, it's something I thought I'd NEVER do - and things were strange for the first few days, but in all honesty, things are pretty much back to normal now. And really, it's probably best that way.
So, what now? Well, I don't know exactly. But nothing has really changed, and truthfully, I don't see things ending well. I guess we'll just have to see what happens from here.
Honestly, I'm really not on VR all that much anymore - generally just for a minute or so a day to check messages, etc. - but this is still the first place I come to release my thoughts.
Anyway, I hope anyone who reads this has a merry Christmas and a terrific holiday.
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naylastar
20:38 Dec 26 2010
I know you dont know me and I dont know you but I'm glad your still alive and we never know what the future holds:)
DestroyingAngel
23:33 Jan 13 2011
Im sorry that I missed this one at Christmas. I hope your holidays were good too *hugs*
I too am more than happy to see that you are still here, Adam.
I may be somebody behind a screen to you but I DO CARE and have been wondering for some time how you have been and how things are...