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Browsing Journals tonight. There are really some rather interesting people on this site. It's a pitty that most can not get along with each other or they group up in little cliques. Seems like it would be much better to broaden your horizons and try to learn from as many people as possible. I originally came to this site to learn more about all sorts of different things. There have been a small few that have taught me anything. The ones that know don't want to be teachers or they fear some people so they block all out. Since my time on here, I've really learned more by finding my own answers elsewhere. It's sad but some are fake and pretending to be something they are not. It makes it hard for those wanting to learn or those that don't mind sharing knowledge to trust anyone enough to get that close.



Sure I know there is the database,. but really I'm supposed to just sit here and read and learn all day? I'd rather find someone with more knowledge, so I can at least ask questions and such.



I guess in reality I just came to vr years ago for all the wrong reasons. I wonder if there is a site that offers more like what I am looking for.



I take time away from vr. I just periodically don't have any interest anymore. Part of me wonders how much time I have wasted here. The other part just doesn't like some of the ones that now run the place so personally I would rather not be where they are.



Anyone know of any more informative sites or forums. I do mean that aren't so rude in the forums though. I'm southern, I can't deal with and don't have time for rude. The smarter ones on vr have a tendency to talk down to others there and it's really obnoxious. Do they not have any home training. You just don't treat people that way. I want a place that welcomes questions, lord help ignores typos, where people want to help others attain knowledge.



hmm Maybe I'm just asking way to damn much. Way over vampirerave's head or potential.

So I know there are all sorts of people on this site. I have been looking online and reading a little about SLIders lately. Which led me to wondering if there are any on here. I do believe that sometimes things just can't be explain however that's usually just because the facts, research and answers haven't been found yet. Still lights going out has yet to be explained thoroughly. I'm sure the idea or thought of this has been happening and around for years. Now I'm left wondering what actually causes this to happen. Oh well, I'm probably just up to late and can't sleep. I should read more in the morning I reckon. I hope all of vr is sleeping well.

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SupremeMaster
13:13 Mar 30 2013

I remember that Sliders t.v show. Oh! Talking about parallel dimensions, maybe with all the other dimensions that is outthere. Could there be a some sort of a link with the lights going out?

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SouthernFreak
19:44 Mar 30 2013

Oh I loved that show! Not sure I believe in that sort of thing but I guess anything is possible.

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Oh dear Ruzzle. I am so hooked on you, completely and totally addicted. Thanks so much for curing my boredom on those sleepless night....





On a side note. Techies suck but at least I could understand the one today. I'm gonna figure this shit out myself and then call you back and call you on your bullshit answer. At least next time someone calls you will know what to do. Seriously, If you asked the head tech, which I seriously believe you did and that was the answer he gave you.. umm I need a fucking job with your company cause I don't know shit about comps, but I know what you are full of.



Oh krabby patty I'm frustrated.

Sometimes reading VR journals is like a soap opera minus the tv.

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deathnitegrl
19:00 Mar 26 2013

why pay for the cable tv when you can have it here?

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Time to get the day started. Really didn't get enough sleep. I think I'm gonna need a nap. I really wish they would legalize marijuana around here. The south is just way to stubborn, that will probably never happen. I believe my life would be so much better with out all the pain killers and muscle relaxers that I'm prescribed, that I don't take. I think a hotter climate would help. If I could afford it I would move to one.



Well off to get ready to take the lil one to the doctor. For the last 3 weeks we have had an appointment once a week. I think I'm going to request a specialist this time. I'm really sick of watching my child suffer.

Sometimes I really miss dreams. I've had so few in the last 15 years. Day dreams, now I'm a master at those. I just wish I could narrow it down better to which day dreams are actually going to happen. Life would be so much easier. I wish that years ago I hadn't wished my dreams away so hard. They were more like night terrors but now I'm starting to think those are better than none. I always heard that dreams help you work through your problems and find answers. Maybe I wouldn't be such a screw up if I still had them. Oh well, TOS is acting up, it's a migraine kinda night.

I wonder if anyone on here is into antiques. I have a few that I just can't find any info on.



Killer sore throat today..Oh well..back to life I hope all of vr is well.

Today was an interesting day, but man am I exhausted. Hubby went to the field to check on a few things, around an hour later I get the call. "I need you to come get me, I sunk the truck in the mud". Okay so I russled up the little one and head to the field, pick him up and bring him back to pick up the other truck. We head back to the field, he tells me that me and the lil one will be in the stuck truck and I'll have to drive it out. Okay no biggie, I love a little mud slinging and we're going slow, no snatching with the lil one on board. We try and try, but the truck will not budge. We had a trailor attached to the back, so he unhooks it, attaches it the Toyota truck and moves it to a safer area. Pulls me in the Chevy from the back, I get unstuck. Now I had asked him already should we get unstuck, should I just go with reverse and ride it out as long as I could backwards. He says well, we could or you can just stop when you see my brake lights. SHeeesh men. So he pulls me for a few mins and then hits the breaks so I stop, it still looks pretty mushy to me, but I'm a chick so what do I know..lol He then tells me to turn as sharp as I can because I'm still really close to the mushy stuff and lets hope we make it. hmmm So I did, next thing I know I'm just sliding sideways further and further in, more gass doesn't do a thing, less gas doesn't do a thing. Turning the wheel left/right has no affect, I'm just along for the ride. Remember now we were in the middle of a field so no chance really of hitting anything, so I decide to ride it out, maybe I can get control back. Nope not a chance. So I'm stuck again, this time in even soggier ground. My tires are sunk. He tries to pull me out, eventually getting us both deeply sunk. We try for around an hour to get either truck unstuck, we had a shovel so we tried to dig the tires out a little, we put huge rocks, peices of plastic, sheets of metal. Nothing..Neither truck will move. So we decide it's time for me to take the lil one home, so we have to walk about a mile through all this sludge to make it back to my car, oh yes and huge cow poop piles. My daughter was saying "Oh look mama it's ant hills everywhere" When a cow poops, it's not small, not like a horse either it's mounds. I carried my daughter on my back for as long as I could. She couldn't have walked in it, my feet were sinking then when I just couldn't do it anymore, I finally made the hubby carry her. To sum things up....After a total of 6 trucks got stuck, everyone was eventually out. I felt bad for getting stuck, because I was a chick. In the end, I didn't anymore. All the boys got stuck to. I still think if we had rode out reverse as long as we could, we probably would have made it. ;)

I don't have time for vr much anymore. However I do like to ocassionally get on and read journals. Mostly when I can't sleep.



Wow...It's the same old shit in them. Someone pissed on someones corn flakes and all their big bad friends are teaming up. I was hoping to find more interesting reading and that the childish drama would have declined a bit. That just burst my damn bubble. I guess my hopes were just to high.



I'm so damn exhausted and just can't sleep. My mind just will not quit. Where the hell is the off switch. Maybe if I get a Qtip and poke hard enough I'll find that sucker.

I never seem to have the time to talk with old friends on here anymore. I do miss all you guys. Lots have left but a few are still here.



After going to the Thoracic Outlet specialist, after 3 years now I finally have confirmation. He wrote me for pain killers, muscle relaxers and anti inflamator meds and more physical therapy. :( While I'm still nursing I can't really take any of them, so I have not went back for pt again either. I'm stubborn anyways and really don't want to get stuck on meds forever, having to take something stronger, then stonger. He did suggest I'm a perfect candidate for surgery. While I'm tempted to go for surgery, all my family is totally against it. They say just suck it up and go on with life. I did manage to find a TOS (thoracic outlet syndrome) group on facebook that has been very informative. There is not much awareness of the illness so it doesn't seem any great medical advances are coming anytime soon. My hands shake like someone with Parkinson's disease. It comes and goes. I was to affraid of that being the answer and for the longest time would not admit that to my doctors or physical therapist. Apparently that was a major symptom that help with my diagnosis.



I try to stay positive about the situation, but it's all quite depressing at times. I feel the worst for my daughter. Her dad already had a bad back and so alot is left on me. I can do as many fun things with her as I wish I could. It just seems so unfair to her. I know that she will grow up like this so she really probably will not know the difference but I still will. My hobby was photograph, I sometimes heard I should open my own business. I never thought I was capable of that anyways though. Not really a people person or a salesman. I miss it though. Sure I still take a few good pics here and there, but the shakey hands make about 90% horrible. I know I could use a tripod, but really how hard is that? I mean I never looked at a photographer that uses a tripod ALL the time as much of a photographer. I always liked catching that unexpected perfect picture, not the one everyone is posing for. Oh well enough of my ranting I guess. I just needed to vent. If anyone decides to read this, sorry for being so depressing.

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dabbler
06:51 Mar 01 2013

It is good to hear from you. I wish you comfort, and strength.

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SouthernFreak
21:51 Mar 01 2013

Thanks Dabbler. I hope you are doing well. I wish I could be on here more. My hands just can't take the scrolling and typing anymore. I feel so old..lol

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